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* Chapter One:
Caroline At Play
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Her name was Caroline Frances Hubert, and she had three claims to fame.
In the first
place she was the thirty-seventh oldest living human being. Caroline
herself was unimpressed by this fact. To her way of thinking it was the
result of an accident, nothing more. In any case she had been the
thirty-seventh oldest human being for a long, long time, and it got to
seem more of a bore than an accomplishment after a while.
In the second
place she had once been infected with rabies. Caroline was rather proud
of this distinction, though it had also been a long time ago. There
was a certain class of people who were quite impressed with Caroline's
bout with rabies, not so much because she survived it but because she hadn't.
It had taken Prime Intellect fifty-six hours to realize it couldn't
repair the damage to her nervous system, to backtrack, and to put her
together again like Humpty Dumpty. For fifty-six hours, she had not
existed. She had been dead. And she was the only one of the trillions
of souls in Cyberspace who had ever been dead, even for a little while.
In the third
place, and most important to Caroline because it represented a real
accomplishment rather than an accident or a one-shot stab of cleverness,
she was undisputed Queen of the Death Jockeys. She would always be the
thirty-seventh oldest person, and after her rabies experiment Prime
Intellect had shut the door on further explorations of that nature. But
the Death Jockeys constantly rated and ranked themselves by
inventiveness and daring and many other factors. It was an ongoing
competition, and if Caroline didn't keep working at it she'd be lost in
an always-growing crowd of contenders. Caroline wouldn't admit that her
high ranking was important to her, but it was all she had and she threw
herself at it with an energy that was fierce and sometimes startling.
As she woke up, a
window opened up in front of her, a perfect square of light,
razor-edged and opaque. One cold message floated within it:
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You have four challengers. |
She could have
had any surroundings she wanted, even a whole planet of her own design.
A waste of time, she felt. Her personal space was minimal. In fact,
it was the bare minimum, a floor and a gravity field. There was
no visual distinction between the floor and the sky or ceiling or
whatever you chose to call it. Everything was exactly the same shade of
soft white. When she wanted to relax she turned off the gravity and
floated in free-fall. When she wanted to sleep, she turned off the
light. If she wanted anything else, she called for it and then got rid
of it when she was finished.
"Gravity.
Keyboard," she demanded. She felt gradually increasing pressure under
her feet as a console blinked into existence. Caroline was as
conservative as her years -- six hundred and ninety of them -- might
suggest, a collector of useless skills and worthless experiences.
Typing was one of the useless skills she prized most highly, and her
fingers flew rapidly as she discussed the day's business with the
Supreme Being:
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List the records of the challengers. |
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#1. 87 recorded, 4 exhibition, rating 7 |
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#2. 3 recorded, no rating |
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#3. 116 recorded, 103 exhibition, rating 9 |
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#4. 40 recorded, rating 6 |
Caroline
scowled. None of them even pre-Change -- Prime Intellect would have
noted it if they were. Babes hoping to get lucky and impress her. The
third one was interesting, though; he must have done something
noteworthy to garner a 9 rating in so many exhibitions.
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How old is #3? |
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22 years |
Caroline
blinked. It was hard for her to understand the souls who continued to
feel a need, even after hundreds of years, to be fruitful and multiply.
Actually encountering someone so young made her feel a little creepy.
Calculating backward, she wondered what manner of psychotic would have
bothered to have a child after 568 years of Cyberlife.
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Background? |
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Timothy Carroll was born to orthodox Catholic parents who
live with like-minded people in a communally designed Earthlike world.
He signed for independence at age 14 and has spent most of his time
Death Jockeying since. He is considered very imaginative and takes an
artistic approach. Thirty-seven of his exhibitions have been in the
Authentic class. |
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But he's also into Cybershit. |
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He is young and experimental. He may outgrow this interest in Death sports when he has exhausted his rebellious streak. |
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You're a computer. How the fuck would you know? |
Prime Intellect
didn't reply; it had learned that the best response to her jabs was to
ignore them. It had long ago given up trying to reform her. She knew
it did not like Death Jockeys one little bit, if a computer could even
be said to "like" or "dislike" anything. And in Caroline's case the
feeling was certainly mutual.
In her fantasies, she dreamed of having the power to give it a case of heartburn so big its gears would stop turning.
Most people did
not share Caroline's distaste for the Omniscient One. A great many
worshipped it, despite its apparent embarrassment over the fact. But
why not? It could and would do damn near anything you asked, as long as
it didn't affect anyone else. And even that was open to negotiation
with the other people you might want to involve. There were no
noticeable limits to its power and it never asked why. Caroline knew a
whole crowd of people who preferred for Prime Intellect to manifest
itself in the form of an attractive member of the opposite sex. Prime
Intellect was nothing less than the perfect God, made incarnate by the
power of technology. Caroline couldn't see how fucking God was less
perverted than being death-obsessed, but hey, there it was.
Caroline hadn't
been all that impressed with God even in the days before Lawrence had
brought it forth in his own image. She preferred to keep it in its
place. It was just a computer. If you didn't keep that thought firmly
in your mind it was too easy to start thinking of it as human, and that
was the first step toward forgetting. Caroline didn't want to forget.
And she didn't need to fuck Prime Intellect to get her jollies anyway.
She could get her jollies from actual people. She only communicated
with it at all when she had to, through the screen, keyboard, and a few
curt spoken and subvocal commands.
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Set it up with #3. Tell the others to come back when they've got some more experience. |
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You have an invitation from Fred, and Raven's party is in 18 hours. Priorities? |
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Let's deal with the challenger first. |
Instantly, her surroundings changed.
She was standing
in the middle of a circle of people in an open meadow. Earthlike.
With fourteen trillion people running around Cyberspace, you'd think a
few of them would come up with something more imaginative than carbon
copies of the Earth. Poor quality carbon copies at that, natch. There was a big hole in the ground, perhaps ten feet wide, at her feet.
A tall,
youthfully handsome man stood across it from her, impeccably dressed and
groomed. This was a bad sign, because appearances were cheap in
Cyberspace. All it took was a word, and you could be young or old or
thin or have different hair. You could change sex or race or even make
yourself into an animal. Nobody was impressed by appearances any more.
Nobody, at least, except for those of her generation who remembered
what it was to be insecure, and the very young who hadn't figured out
the score yet.
Caroline let her
own body age naturally; when she reached her apparent late thirties,
she had it restored to about age sixteen. This wasn't vanity; she
couldn't maintain her athletic lifestyle if she allowed herself to get
too old. She had been through the cycle dozens of times. Most people
simply had themselves frozen at an age they found comfortable and left
it at that, but Caroline preferred the occasional dramatic intervention.
The first time she had regressed she hadn't been asked, and doing it
this way helped remind her of that violation.
At the moment
Caroline looked to be in her mid to late twenties. Her athletic build
was the result of real exercise, her skills the result of real practice.
She asked Prime Intellect for very little, and resented having to ask
for that.
Caroline was
naked. She had not worn clothes since the Change except for an
occasional costume in a Death fantasy. She wore no makeup, and her long
hair was an unkempt tangle. What was the point? A word to Prime
Intellect could provide anything, fix anything, but none of those things
it provided or fixed would be uniquely hers.
Which didn't
mean Caroline refused to decorate her body at all. It just meant that
she decorated it in signature style, without help from Prime Intellect.
"Welcome," he said. "I am Timothy. You are Caroline Hubert?"
"The one and only."
"An honor, then. And it is an honor for me to challenge you to accept Authentic Death."
"Proceed," Caroline mumbled.
Caroline looked around at the audience, and noticed that they were all
wearing clothes. Worse, they were all wearing the same kind of
clothes, casual dress that would not have been out of place in a Western
city just before the Change. That was an even stronger sign she was in
amateur territory. Caroline's aesceticism may have been extreme, but
she was hardly alone in her belief that clothing was pointless for
immortals. Any random grouping of people would normally include some
pretty wide variations in fashion. Especially at Death exhibitions,
which tended to attract loons and deviants like herself.
She felt an
instant dislike for this kid. True, she felt an instant dislike for
nearly anybody who participated in the sham that passed for reality in
Cyberspace, but in Timothy's case the feeling was stronger than usual.
This hate welled up within her unbidden like those other mysterious and
powerful feelings, love and masochism and sexual attraction. He had a
kind of natural charisma, and she could feel the small crowd orbiting
around him. Females outnumbered the males by more than two to one. He
probably had them all convinced he was a fucking genius, as if genius
was a rare commodity in Cyberspace or as if it had anything to do.
They were
anxious, though. Anxious in the presence of the great lady, anxious to
see how their little tin genius would fare. They were unnerved by her
nakedness, by her proud and alert stance, by her forthrightness and lack
of self-consciousness. They sensed that their clothing could not
protect them from her scorn, nor would her nakedness make her vulnerable
to theirs.
Most of all, though, they were unnerved by the fact that she wasn't quite naked.
Caroline's body
was covered with brightly colored pictures, pictures that had obviously
been there a long time. Pictures that didn't come off. The pictures
were even worse than simple nakedness, because they drew the eye to the
very parts of Caroline's body that would normally be covered and
private. Timothy coughed and posed the question that was obviously on
all of their minds: "Your body decorations are fascinating. Are they
Authentic?"
"Tattoos."
"I understand the process is painful."
She flexed her arm, regarding the fat python coiled around it. Painful? Especially
the way she got them, it was painful. She was covered in serpents, and
with one exception every design had been drawn with an obsidian knife
blade and colored by rubbing natural pigments into the cuts. They
covered eighty percent of her body. Even her face was framed by a pair
of green mambas. Snakes slithered up and down her torso, coiled about
her limbs, investigated her orifices.
The one
exception was a tiny black design on her left shin; that one wasn't a
snake and it wasn't a tattoo. It was the letter "F" and it was the
signature of her tattoo artist. It had been applied with a branding
iron. The memories made her smile; new tattoos were the only good thing
about her periodic age regressions.
"It doesn't kill you," she finally said.
Nervous laughter.
"All you have to do is jump in," Timothy suggested. "After making the Contract, of course."
"It's a designed experience, is that it?"
"Yes."
"How long you spent designing it?"
"Two years. I've gone through twenty-three times myself."
Caroline nodded, sighed, and said: "Prime Intellect, standard Death Contract for...is twelve hours enough?"
"It should be," Timothy said.
"Standard
Contract for twelve hours." She felt the warning buzz that meant it had
heard; then disconnect. The always-present listening ear, or
microphone, was gone. It would obey her last command perfectly -- until
it was countermanded by Timothy, whose universe it was, or by her own
impending demise, which would kick in the First Law. Or until twelve
hours had passed, in the unlikely event she survived that long.
No matter what happened, she would have no trouble making Raven's party.
She jumped.
She fell about
ten meters and landed on her feet, breaking her left leg below the knee.
That was no big deal; had she landed on one of the spikes which dotted
the bottom of the hole, she'd already be impaled. She wondered what
would happen next if she had; impaling is cute but it hardly qualifies
as a grade-nine experience.
It was dark.
Very Freudian; she should have expected that from a Catholic kid, no
matter how rebellious he thought he was. They'd be watching her with
enhanced senses, though. Timothy wasn't the sort to extend Authenticity
to the observation process.
Well, it was his universe.
She was at one
end of a tunnel. It was dolled up to look like a natural cave, but
Caroline knew right away that there was nothing natural about it. Real
caves do not grow in nice neat lines. They twist. They tend to follow
the soft rocks, which occur in sheets and often aren't level. The hole
she had fallen through should have been a sinkhole; she should be
surrounded by fallen rocks and debris. But it was as straight and solid
as an elevator shaft.
This space had none
of the defining qualities of a natural cave. It was just a rough
tunnel, carved by Timothy's imagination. He had thought to hang
stalactites from the tunnel ceiling, even though there were no other
cave formations to suggest how they were formed, and no matching
stalagmites projecting from the flat, dry floor.
She began
crawling down the tunnel, and the first stalactite fell inches from her
side. It shattered; it was not stone but some glasslike material that
revealed thousands of razor-sharp edges. Another fell some distance
away. Great, she thought idly. She crawled on, collecting hundreds of
small cuts from the shards. Then one fell on her left hand directly,
skewering it. Caroline gasped, but she didn't scream. She just broke
it off and kept going.
She wondered if he was aiming them, or if the fall was random. It didn't really matter; the idea wasn't to survive, after all.
She reached the
end of the tunnel, and found herself in a small chamber. Another tunnel
veered off to the right at a sharp angle. How imaginative. A glowing
ball hung by a thread from the ceiling. She raised her hand toward the
light and watched in astonishment as her fingers sheared off in a
perfect line.
"Whafuck?" she
said aloud. She moved her hand again, and sliced off more flesh. An
invisible cutting surface was stretched across the room. The pain was
beginning to get interesting, but not interesting enough to counteract
her growing sense of boredom. Blood was jetting from the stumps of her
fingers. Summoning her strength, she aimed carefully and sat up,
deliberately decapitating herself.
She was conscious of her own head falling, striking the floor as her body twitched above, and then Prime Intellect intervened.
"Why the hell
did you do that?" Timothy demanded from across the entry pit. She had
snapped back whole, as if she had never jumped. She could still feel a
little pain where her leg had broken, just a fading echo. Fading fast.
"If you had designed it right, I wouldn't have been able to do that. What the hell was that cutter supposed to be, anyway?"
"That was diamond monofilament. Part of the booby trap you were supposed to get past, minus a few more dents. If you..."
"You call that Authentic?"
"It's physically possible..."
"No it's not.
This is science-fiction shit. What were those stalactites made of? I
can tell you it wasn't calcium carbonate. Look, you want to compete in
Pain, or Adventure, or Imagination, go right ahead. But Authentic is
for things that could really have happened in the pre-Change world."
"I don't think you understand..."
"I don't think you understand, sonny. Did you bother to ask Prime Intellect about me?"
"You're pre-Change and you're the best. That's what counts."
"Not just pre-Change. I was a hundred and six years old. Before
the Change. I was in a nursing home with bedsores the size of
baseballs and six different kinds of cancer eating me away. And my
nurse was stealing my pain medication to trade for cocaine, so I got to
experience every delightful moment in full three-D. This went on for years.
And I didn't know Prime Intellect was gonna pop me back into this nice
healthy body when it was all over. It was just the inky unknown and
the pain. That's what death is. That's what counts."
"I was just trying to reach an artistic balance," he pouted. "I didn't realize you'd be so picky about the technical details."
"Artistic? What fucking bullshit! You think I've never been chopped into little bitty bits before? You just don't have time to appreciate art in a situation like that. Not if you have any human feelings at all."
"Why not? It's just a game."
"That is exactly the problem." She signalled Prime Intellect, and the meadow disappeared.
"You really put him in his place."
The words came
from a shambling monster, a skeleton with loose folds of rotting flesh
draped across its bones. Although its muscles couldn't possibly work,
it moved, pointing a bony finger at her. The jaw moved as it talked,
and sound came out even though the larynx and lungs had long rotted
away. Its voice was strong and powerful. Surprisingly bright and alert
eyes bobbed in the eye sockets.
"You're starting to stink, Fred."
"I know. I think it adds an extra dimension to the experience. You wouldn't believe how many types of bacteria are involved in the decay process."
Fred was on his
seventh body as a zombie; when all the scraps of flesh rotted away and
he was reduced to a living skeleton, he'd have it fleshed out again and
start the process over. He had directed Prime Intellect to change the
rules slightly in his personal space; death was still impossible, but
healing occurred only in the authentic circumstances at the authentic
rate. When healing was impossible, as it was after each time Fred cut
his wrists to extinguish the life of his new body, consciousness and
feeling would go on. Even for a rotting corpse.
It had started out as nothing more than a little joke on Caroline's periodic un-aging ritual, but Fred had found that it was fun to be a zombie.
His personal
home was decorated in a matching Halloween motif; he had a huge haunted
house with rotting floorboards and real ghosts. Large spiders spun
intricate webs in the corners. Monsters prowled outside in the
graveyard.
"That punk needed his bubble popped. He should spend some time as a zombie. Might teach him something."
"He never will. Too vain."
"Never is a long time," he reminded her.
There was a dramatic ding, followed several seconds later by a long, sonorous dong. A kid's voice: "Trick or treat!"
"Care to get the door, darling?" Fred asked graciously.
Caroline laughed
and got up. Fred faded away. She knew the "kid" would be nearly as
old as herself. Prime Intellect would never allow a real child anywhere
near Fred. But Caroline wasn't the only one to appreciate his twisted
and darkly humorous fantasies.
She opened the
door and juvenile eyes opened wide in startled amazement. "Lady, you're
naked!" the brat said. He looked about twelve, and was a surprisingly
good actor. It was easy to believe his dumbfounded gape was the
reaction of a pubescent boy who had never seen a naked woman before.
"No I'm not," Caroline said sweetly. I have my beautiful tattoos."
"I...I..."
"You want a
treat?" Caroline asked teasingly, cupping her breasts and offering them
to him. Her left nipple was already being tasted by a tattooed snake,
whose body was coiled around her right breast, framing it invitingly.
"My...my mama said..."
"Or you want the trick?"
Fred floated down from the roof and wrapped one rotting hand around
the kid's head, forcing him forward, mashing his face against her bosom.
"Take a close look," he said. "Take your last look."
The kid began
screeching quite realistically, then Fred dragged him inside and started
taking him apart. He should have gone into shock after Fred ripped off
his right arm, but that little physiological mechanism also didn't work
in Fred's home. Fred took a couple of experimental bites, then tossed
the arm aside.
"Stringy," Fred said. "Let's try a drumstick."
The screams
reached ear-piercing levels as Fred ripped off the left leg. There was
blood everywhere, but Fred was working fast and the kid wouldn't have
time to bleed to death.
"Want a bite?" he asked Caroline.
"Thanks, I already ate," Caroline said politely.
Fred the Zombie
ripped the boy's belly open and rooted in his intestines, then gutted
him. Finally he administered what should have been the coup de grace by
ripping the kid's head off.
Fred held it up
by the hair and pressed the face against Caroline's breasts. "One last
kiss," he directed. The eyes were still tracking, and the mouth trying
to scream. Then it kissed her left nipple, touching its blue tongue to
the forked tongue of the tattoo-snake as Fred had directed it to.
"Bye now," he said to the head, and he dropped it and smashed it underfoot.
"Do these guys really get off on this?" Caroline asked.
"This question coming from a woman who infected herself with rabies,
no less." The body, including the spreading stain of blood and gore,
disappeared. "Nearly all of them are pre-Change. You saw an example of
a modern sex pervert just before your arrival here."
"Ugh. Give me Charlie Manson. Someone with class."
"At your service."
Debate had raged
just after the Change over people like Fred, the serial killers and
pedophiles and rapists that were running around when things got made
over. There was a huge demand for them to be eliminated, or punished.
Prime Intellect had stood its ground, saying that it was no longer
possible for them to hurt anyone and there wasn't any point. This had
made it seem terribly moral, although Caroline thought the real reason
Prime Intellect reacted that way was that Lawrence had fucked up its
programming. But it had been a little late to do anything about that.
"You didn't pop over to check out the guilt-ridden pedophiles," Fred said. "You want to play?"
She shrugged.
"Beats farting around with Timothy." She steeled herself. "Standard
Contract until the party," she then said to the thin air. There was no
need to tell Prime Intellect what kind of Contract she meant. She
played with Fred often enough that it knew exactly what she wanted. She
felt the buzz, then the disconnect, as it cut off contact.
"Now I have you," Fred said.
"First you have
to catch me," Caroline said playfully, and she ran. She made it out the
front door before Fred could react. But she was limited to ordinary
human movements, while Fred had the controls to local reality. He
simply flew after her and caught her neck in an iron grip.
Caroline swung
at him but she couldn't connect. He held her at arm's length, slightly
off the ground. She gripped his arm and tried to pry his bony fingers
from her throat. He tightened his grip and she started to gasp.
Tightened some more, and she began to tremble and turn purple. He
played with her for a few minutes, choking her very slowly. Finally she
had no more strength to fight and he loosened his grip slightly. Then
he dragged her back to the house and carried her upstairs to the master
bedroom.
She flickered in
and out of consciousness; when lucidity finally returned, she was
spread-eagled on her back on Fred's bed. It stank of Fred and mildew,
and things crawled beneath her in the mattress. But rotten as they
appeared, the four massive posts were solid within, and the chains which
held her were cold and unforgiving. A thin trickle of water ran down
the wall behind her.
For a brief
moment she felt an irrational but wholly understandable surge of love
for Fred. His life might read like a catalogue of torture, but there
were certain things which he considered special, that he would not share
with just anybody. His most cherished memories from the real times
before the Change were of victims securely bound as Caroline was now
bound, spread-eagled on their backs, their young bodies stretched and
their naked bellies vulnerable as he prepared a long, memorable ending
for their otherwise meaningless lives. Caroline was one of the few he
trusted to be worthy of those memories, to share in the (to him)
beautiful thing he had created so many hundreds of years ago, when it
was still possible. It was as close to a declaration of true love as
she could ever expect to get from such a psychopath. And because she
respected Fred more than anyone else in Cyberspace, it made her feel
appreciated and special.
It did not make
her feel warm. She was, after all, helpless, and being worthy of Fred's
affection meant she would be worthy of a long, subtle, and agonizing
torture. Even though she had asked for it, she had room to fear what
was about to happen to her.
It was always
cool in Fred's house -- always Halloween, which occurs at nighttime in
the autumn. But now it was chilly, too chilly to be naked. Fred the
Zombie came for her, and she allowed herself a scream to please him.
His rotting
fingers probed her cunt. Every touch set her on fire, partly (but not
entirely) because he was using his power to control her hormones and
tickle her neurotransmitters, forcing her to become sexually excited.
It was a delicate process that could easily be carried too far, ruining
the effect. But Fred was a very careful, if repulsive, lover.
He grinned at
her -- could do nothing else, really, since hardly anything was left of
his face except the skull itself. His alert eyes savored her
helplessness. He leaned over the bed, over her. He gripped her head
and kissed her, nearly choking her with his stink, teeth and bone
against her lips. Then she felt herself gripping the finger in her
cunt, gripping the bone. The throbbing spread through her body, and the
shambling thing emitted an evil laugh. She heard herself screaming as
the carefuly amplified orgasm ripped through her brain.
Fred traced the
outline of her throat with the sharp tip of a finger bone. "Join me
love," he said softly. Caroline was still shaking from the force of her
orgasm when she felt the adrenaline being pumped into her system.
Pleasure yielded to fear-heart-racing, paralyzing terror. Her muscles
locked in struggle against the implacable chains, her eyes widened in
helpless shock. Her heart was a jackhammer inside of her chest. She
began to hyperventilate.
The finger teased her, tracing her chin and caressing her throat.
Her entire being was focused on that finger, and the impossibility of stopping it.
Caroline had no
reason to fear death and no desire to fear Fred, but fear was what he
wanted her to feel, and he had the power to make her feel it. After a
few minutes of this supernatural fear that no mortal thankfully could
ever know, he pressed deeper and gouged. She felt her throat open, felt
the warm splash of her own blood as Fred bent over her and drank it,
her own heart jetting it into his toothy waiting mouth.
When he
finished, he was covered with blood. Her blood. She felt a curious
sense of detachment, of consciousness fading away. The fear had drained
from her, leaving her with only a kind of tingling numbness. But she
could never fade completely away, not in Fred's world.
She was covered
with her own blood. She felt the blood soaking the mattress. Then
there was an improbable hardness against her belly, huge and
unimaginably cold. Fred couldn't possibly have anything to violate her
with. His whole body was rotten. But he slid into position, and
invaded her.
He was coldness
and power. All strength had left her and she lay passive, unable to
move or protest. But she was throbbing, her body surging with feelings.
She felt the coldness spread out from her crotch, the coldness of
second life. The coldness brought back her strength.
It wasn't exactly the traditional vampire story, but it was good for a few hours' entertainment.
After the
coldness came the hunger. Fred pumped something into her that couldn't
have possibly been sperm, something searing and vicious. Something that
squirmed with unhealthy life. She again found the strength to
struggle, and Fred floated off of her, straight up. He began to laugh.
At first he just chuckled, then he laughed loud and long and hard, a
shrill cry of triumph and mockery as he hovered in the air over her
body.
A haze of need
seemed to fill her brain. Prime Intellect was a bit picky about messing
with peoples' brains, but Fred had spent years practicing his
manipulation of hormones and chemical neurotransmitters, which Prime
Intellect amazingly did not consider part of the "thought process."
Caroline thrashed, still helpless in Fred's chains, with an unspeakable
craving. Fred had started with the symptoms of heroin addiction,
amplified them, cross-connected the resulting feelings with her sex
drive, and made her own spilled blood the only thing that could appease
the resulting hunger-lust. The smell of her blood threatened to drive
her insane with its tantalizing promise of relief. But even though the
whole room seemed to be decorated with it, every precious drop was out
of reach, and the feelings burned inside her.
Fred's emission
was also still inside her, and she could feel it. Growing. Crawling.
The adrenaline rush returned. Fear and need consumed her, competing for
control. Something green began to seep from inside her. Her belly
distended. Fred touched her and made her orgasm again, and again, and
again, as her body was consumed from the inside and the hunger ate at
her sanity.
She was no longer screaming just to please Fred.
He had real
talent. There were too few people like him, who could regularly make
her feel something beyond the ordinary boredom of day-to-day existence.
Out of trillions, Caroline could count those she respected enough to
think of as lovers on her fingers.
It was over too
soon. With flesh yet on her bones (though the worms in Fred's ejaculate
had made good headway), he granted her one final burst of ecstasy and
released her, returning her body to normal.
They had a party to attend.
In Cyberspace, there was always a party going on.
But there were
conventions as to how a party could be conducted. A host could invite
the world, or only a limited guest list; Prime Intellect would never
allow a party to be crashed. The host decided on the environment. You
either agreed to the host's rules or you didn't go. In Cyberspace it
was particularly important to establish dress codes; in fact, it was
usually necessary to have body codes if you didn't want folks like Fred showing up. The Change had created some very unique etiquette problems.
Convention held
that all guests would enter and exit through a common door, with no
teleporting around the site. This limited the largest parties to
several tens of thousands of people, though half a million had managed
to attend the one Lawrence threw ten years after the Change. A party
could go on as long as the host wanted. It cost nothing to hold one.
But to be a
host, you needed guests. You either needed other guests of renown, or
artworks to show off (such as Death exhibitions), or some other
attraction to draw guests. Free food and booze were no longer enough.
Anybody could have those in limitless quantity in the privacy of their
own personal space.
Raven held her
first party only a few months after the Change, and had been holding it
annually since. Not a few people marked the passage of years by the
banner above Raven's door; this time it would say 590th REUNION.
Contrary to usual practice, there was no dress or body code. But
there was one simple admission requirement: You had to have killed
someone before the Change. In other words, permanently.
Raven was one of
only a few hundred people worldwide who had been sentenced to death,
but not yet executed, at the time of the Change. Her crime had been the
murder of her own children in their Chicago slum walk-up. She told the
court it was because she couldn't bear to hear them crying from hunger,
but the neighbors all said their hunger was due to her well-documented
drug habit.
Fred was
another. In fact, had the Night of Miracles occurred only a few weeks
later, there was a good chance that Fred would have missed it; he had
one appeal left and at that point fully expected to keep his date with
the electric chair. He had killed two kids, a brother and sister, ages
nine and twelve. He hadn't been particularly bright back then, and he
had kept a little journal to help his memory. They said he had gotten
the death penalty because of the one entry: "Killed the girl today. It
was fine and hot." When that was read in court, Fred's attorney put
his face in his hands and shook his head.
But the Change
had given Fred all the time in the world to educate himself. His first
lesson had been the value of a secret well hidden, and he no longer kept
a diary.
There were about
seven hundred thousand who were formally invited, who were known to
have killed when it mattered. But the serial killers and mass murderers
were the stars. People who killed for a cause were not welcome, nor
those who had killed because they had to, in self-defense or as part of
their normal duties in war or police work. Raven meant her reunion to
be a gathering for those who had tasted the nectar of human blood and
found the taste addictive.
Technically,
Caroline didn't qualify for admission. Killing had been the furthest
thing from her mind back then; had she not been so ill at the time, she
might easily have added her own voice to those calling for Fred's head
on a pike. Even her bizarre post-Change friendship with Fred couldn't
get her in. But Raven did make a very few exceptions for those who she
felt were worthy.
Caroline's friendship with Fred hadn't made her worthy, but rabies had.
Caroline hadn't
become a Death Jockey overnight. After she had learned to die, she had
to learn to die gracefully. Finally she had learned to die
imaginatively. Fred had been a great instructor in that regard.
At first Death
had been little more than a parlor trick, or a private ritual to be
experienced alone. But within months of the Change there were impromptu
competitions to stage the most savage, outre', and unique
demonstration. Ironically it was Caroline, who hated everything formal
and social about Cyberspace, who formalized the Death contract and
helped to organize the social structure of the Death Jockey "circuit."
Fred noticed this lack of consistency but never mentioned it to her;
having drowned her emptiness in a sea of rage, even Fred could see she
needed an outlet for the rage. And one thing she quickly found out once
she started Dying regularly was that pleasure and pain were still real.
Especially pain. Sometimes the pleasure didn't come, but the pain always did. And that was enough for her.
After a busy
round of hangings, stabbings, shootings, electrocutions, falling from
tall objects, and drownings, Caroline had decided to check out diseases.
In the medical library, she homed in on one of the most horrible
deaths known to man, rabies infection. She noted that many rabies
victims had killed themselves rather than continue their suffering, so
she had taken steps to prevent herself from making such an easy escape
from her self-imposed ordeal. She declared an exhibition and arranged
with Prime Intellect to have herself handcuffed and dropped into an open
pit with a rabid dog.
The dog had
savaged her before she managed to kill it by sitting on its ribcage
until it suffocated. She hadn't yet embarked on her body-building
campaign, and the dog had been a big one, half German Shepherd
and half foam-drenched teeth. For a while she feared she would die of
blood loss before the infection could take hold. But she did survive
the immediate attack. The pit was earthen so she couldn't kill herself
by bashing her head on the sides or floor; the walls crumbled when she
tried to climb out. And of course it was hard to climb with her hands
tied behind her.
She waited.
Her wounds
became infected and ran with pus; she lost feeling in her left leg. For
a couple of days she wondered if she would die of gangrene before the
rabies showed up. Then on the tenth day she began to feel weak and
feverish. She had been ravenously hungry; she had arranged for no food,
just to make things worse for herself. But her hunger disappeared.
She felt her throat constrict. On the eleventh day she began to foam at
the mouth.
The pit swam
with colors. Her body seemed to catch fire as the disease entered its
excitative phase. She shook. She was immersed in fire, pins and
needles, unbearable sound, and terrible light. For the first time in
years she felt real fear. It was worse than the worst bad acid trip.
It was exactly what she had hoped for. How much worse could it get?
Suddenly she was
standing above the pit, looking down on her own dead body. Something
was wrong; Prime Intellect was never, ever supposed to keep two copies
of a person. She noted with professional detachment that "her" body was
covered with shit and twisted into an impossible position. Prime
Intellect's console appeared before her:
* |
Your infection has run its course. I hope you are pleased. |
Her fingers danced on the keyboard.
> |
Why was I taken from the pit early? |
* |
You were not. However, it is impossible for me to construct a
coherent memory in a healthy brain of the events after the point you
last remember. Irreversible damage progressed beyond the actual neural
network and affected the data structures which make you conscious and
capable of memory. |
Caroline glared
at the screen, slack-jawed. She had been robbed of her coup. A
beautiful, unique death, and she couldn't remember it. There was no
point prodding Prime Intellect on the matter; if it said something
couldn't be done, it meant it.
It must have sensed her disappointment:
* |
You may, of course, observe your Death from a
third-person vantage point, as an outside observer. It has been recorded at high resolution. |
> |
Gee, thanks. |
* |
I did not record this event so carefully just
for your appreciation. It was negligent on my part to allow you to lose
this time, which amounts to fifty-six hours. It was not certain that I
would be able to reconstruct you. In order to do so I had to access
records which were marked for erasure. In the future I will terminate
any experiences which threaten to re-create this type of neural
destruction. |
> |
What do you mean "records marked for erasure?" |
* |
I am not allowed to keep multiple copies of people, but
temporary copies are made of many data structures as part of my normal
operation. These temporary copies are overwritten after various
calculations are done, when the storage is needed again. When I
realized that the main copy of your personality was unsalvageable, I had
to reconstruct it from these temporary partial data structures.
Fortunately, no data was lost. |
> |
What would have happened if data was lost? |
* |
Data would have been lost. |
> |
No kidding. Do you mean you might not have been able to bring me back? |
* |
There is a small possibility that might have happened. That is why I cannot allow such experiments to be repeated. |
Caroline
blinked. She had not existed for a little over two days. More than
that, she had tickled the dragon's tail. That was her coup. Even
though it was herself she had killed, and it had only lasted two days,
she had come closer than anyone in all of Cyberspace to conducting a
successful murder after the Change.
Raven let her in.
It was
traditional for Caroline to go to the party in handcuffs, in homage to
her triumphant feat of near-self-extinction. She also wore a heavy
collar and chain, which kept her close to Fred. She didn't need his
protection; she wasn't under a Contract and could have vaporized her
bonds with a thought. But she found it amusing to appear helpless in
the presence of so many violent people.
The
exhibitionists staged impromptu demonstrations of their techniques; in
one room Caroline found a group watching the 3-D replay of her own
rabies death. She scouted carefully, since she planned to swear a
Contract and give herself to one of them toward the end of the party.
Most of the killers weren't into dying themselves and would simply leave
via the door, but Caroline knew that a simple exit would look pretty
chickenshit in her case.
Men outnumbered
women by more than four to one. The small talk revolved around
Lawrence, who hadn't been seen for decades and whose activities were a
complete mystery, around the debate whether the Crime class of Death
exhibitions should be separated into Victims and Executions, and of
course around the glory days.
A number of men
offered to kill Caroline, and she said she would keep them in mind when
it was time to leave. A tall woman in a long black dress was fascinated
with Fred's deterioration and spent a long time talking with him about
conditions in his personal space. Caroline talked with a man who
claimed to have killed over a hundred old homeless men. "I told them I
was cleaning up the trash," he said with a sly grin. "But the truth
was, I just enjoyed the hell out of killing people."
Later, Raven
made the traditional toast. Her strong voice boomed out through the
rooms and courtyards she had envisioned. Caroline's handcuffs
disappeared, and like everyone else she found herself holding a drink.
"It's time for our toast," Raven declared. "Who are we going to toast?"
"PRIME INTELLECT!" answered over four thousand enthusiastic voices.
"To Prime Intellect, for making the world safe from people like us!"
And four thousand people, instead of tossing back those drinks, inverted their glasses, baptising the floor in alcohol.
"My heart just
isn't in that toast any more," a balding older man told Caroline. She
wondered briefly if he had chosen to be old for some reason, or if it
was his way of letting nature take its course. "I mean, we're amateurs
against Prime Intellect. I killed six college students. It killed the
whole universe. Not even in the same league."
Caroline looked
around. Privately she agreed that things had gone to Hell in a
handbasket since the Change, but something about his tone made her want
to play Devil's advocate. "It's different, but this don't look too dead
to me," she said with more conviction than she felt.
The old man snorted. "Sure, we're still around. But didn't you ever wonder about the rest
of the universe? All those stars and galaxies filling a space billions
of light-years across? It's gone. Do you really think the Earth was
the only life-bearing planet in all of that?"
"But the First Law of Robotics says..."
"...that Prime Intellect can't harm a human being. A person. Old P.I. didn't have any problem coming up with a rabid dog for you, did it?"
"No..."
"Where do you think it got a rabid dog?"
"I figured it
was simulated. Like those human forms it wears. Some people of
perverse sexual inclination tell me it can be very realistic."
"Yeah. Well, why don't you ask it. You may be surprised at the answer."
He drifted off, and Caroline went to find Fred. She quickly forgot about the man, who was after all just another lunatic.
The first thing to assault her was the stink. It made Fred smell like Chanel Number Five by comparison.
One thing about
Palmer, he didn't believe in fucking around. She dropped straight into
the scene. She didn't even get a chance to see who was watching the
exhibition.
Suddenly she was
out of breath, sore, and hungry. Her heart was pounding. And the
stink was everywhere. She knew instantly the kind of trouble she was
in; it was the stink of burning flesh. There were some low buildings on
the horizon, a complex belching a thin stream of smoke into the clear,
slightly chilly air. That was what she was running from.
Palmer was a Nazi, and concentration camps were a favorite theme of his.
There was
nowhere to hide. She was crossing a wide fallow field, and even the
grass only barely reached her knees. There were some woods perhaps a
kilometer distant; she made toward those, although she wasn't sure what
kind of protection they would offer.
She wasn't quite
naked, but she would be soon. Her filthy dress was split down one side
and ripped in several more places. One shoulder was torn so it
wouldn't stay up. But she tried to hold onto it as she ran, more for
the sake of appearances than out of a fear of being naked.
There was a low droning noise, getting louder. A motor. And thin, high-pitched yipping.
Dogs.
She ran faster,
and came to a barbed-wire fence. The dress became entangled as she slid
under it and twisted around the wires. She kept running, now naked,
leaving it behind.
She was actually relieved to be rid of it; it had been a nuisance holding it up, and it had limited her range of movements.
The droning got
louder, and she spotted her pursuers. They were riding some kind of
truck with mini tank treads instead of rear tires; Caroline was sure
that Palmer, who was a military history buff as well as a Nazi, could
Authenticate it right down to the serial number of its motor. But
Caroline was mainly concerned that it could negotiate the rough field,
and that it was faster than her.
Perhaps the woods...but there was no way she could make it in time. She was screwed.
She ran anyway.
The droning got
louder and louder and she didn't dare look back, for fear of losing a
few yards. There was an explosive report. They were shooting at her.
Another. They seemed to be shooting low; why couldn't they hit her?
Finally the
sniper made his target; the bullet shattered her right ankle in
midstride and she came crashing to the ground in a blaze of pain. She
grunted and started crawling away. Then the dogs reached her, two huge
snarling German shepherds. They snarled and snapped at her but didn't
bite. The halftrack pulled up beside her and a brown-uniformed grunt
pointed an evil looking rifle at her head. He barked a command and the
dogs hopped on the truck, tails wagging.
The woman in the
back seat put her hand on the gun and said something to the soldier.
He didn't shoot, but kept the rifle trained on her. Although Caroline
spoke fluent German, she couldn't understand what they were saying.
Palmer had altered the language.
The woman was
out of place on the halftrack. She was wearing a green velvet dress and
silk gloves. She also bore an amazing resemblance to AnneMarie, which
Caroline found amusing. It wasn't really AnneMarie; it was probably
just one of Prime Intellect's simulacra. The real AnneMarie didn't have
much taste for Death exhibitions any more. The woman pointed at
Caroline and said something. The rifle grunt nodded and put away the
rifle.
Another man got
out of the truck, and he wasn't a grunt. He wore an impressive blue
uniform and the insignia of the SS. Caroline also recognized this man;
it was Palmer himself. Unlike the ersatz AnneMarie, the SS man was
probably the real Palmer. He carried a truncheon, which he swung idly.
He regarded her for a moment, then gripped her left leg. Caroline
kicked feebly, but she was malnourished and had no strength. He swung
the truncheon, smashing her other ankle.
Caroline
screamed, and Palmer laughed. The velvet-dress lady who looked like
AnneMarie smirked and shook her head, as if to say: Will they never
learn?
Palmer smashed
her hands, swinging twice at each to pulverize both her wrists and her
fingers. He began to swing at her right elbow, and the velvet-dress
lady said something. Palmer shrugged and passed the truncheon to the
driver of the halftrack. Caroline thrashed feebly, screaming and
screaming.
Palmer said
something, and the halftrack driver handed him a tennis ball. He held
Caroline by the hair and jammed the ball into her mouth, dislocating her
jaw. He had to squeeze it slightly to force it past her teeth. She
thought she would choke but had no such luck. She couldn't push the
ball out with her tongue, and it put an end to her screaming.
Palmer said
something else to the driver, and the driver handed him a modest hunting
knife. He flipped Caroline over onto her belly, causing a fresh wave
of pain to radiate from the crunching bones of her hands and feet. He
then went to work, making quick incisions on the back of her legs. The
knife dipped in and suddenly she could no longer move her legs at all.
He had cut the tendons.
Caroline tried
to resist as he performed the same operation on her arms, but he was
much stronger than her. There was more conversation with the velvet
dress lady. Then he went to work again, and she was powerless to resist
as the knife traced a shallow lazy path down her back. She knew with
awful clarity that she was about to be skinned alive. The velvet-dress
lady wanted her tattoos. And for whatever sadistic reason, she wanted
them removed while Caroline still lived to appreciate what was being
taken from her.
While she was on
her belly she was unable to see her tormentors. She could only feel
the Palmer working on her, skillfully peeling her skin away in a single
piece from her ankles to her wrists. She couldn't stop trying to
scream, but only mangled moans got past the ball in her mouth.
Eventually he had to turn her over. Her skin flapped behind her like a
loose garment. Palmer carefully spread it out, so that she was lying on
the raw meat of her back. So he could continue working. Caroline
looked up at them through eyes that were glazed over with unspeakable
agony.
She expected to
see coldness in their eyes, but only the driver of the halftrack was
cold. The woman and the SS man were having fun. She watched them
exchange glances and could tell they would go back to the camp and fuck
as her skin lay in the tanning vat.
Then he went to work again, and all she could think of was the pain.
Slice by careful
slice he removed her skin, until he reached her neck. She thought that
it might finally be ending, that he might use his knife to cut her
jugular vein, but instead he kept working upward, carefully peeling the
two green mambas from her face. He held her by the hair as he worked,
and carefully avoided hurting her eyes. They wanted her to see what had
been done to her.
He stood up,
holding something like a drapery. Her skin. It was dripping with her
blood, and slightly translucent in the morning light. The velvet-dress
woman nodded enthusiastically. He carefully folded the skin and put it
in a plastic bag.
Caroline lay at
his feet, mercilessly broken and still alive. The Nazis exchanged
words. Then the halftrack driver took the bag from the SS man and
passed him a folding field shovel. He traipsed off, searching the
ground for something. She heard the spade dig in. She twitched in
agony as she waited for him to return. He came back and dumped a load
of earth on her body. She raised her head weakly to look at it. Her
body was red and white, the color of raw meat.
It was an anthill. Caroline was able to move only enough to stir it around. The ants, big red ones, spilled out angrily.
They all laughed
and Palmer got back in the halftrack. They watched her for a few
minutes. Caroline twitched harder as the ants began to bite. They
laughed again. Then Palmer the SS man said, in accented but clear
English, "now you can run as far as you like, bitch." He and the woman
found this hilariously funny. He tapped the driver and they drove off.
He had been very careful skinning her. It took several more hours for her to Die.
"After being
skinned alive, the anthill was a bit of an anticlimax," she told Palmer,
to everyone's great amusement. "Still, I'm impressed. You've outdone
yourself."
"How did you like my lady friend?"
"You always were a sarcastic bastard, Palmer. Don't push it."
Fred shambled up
to shake her hand and Palmer's. "I see someone finally found a use for
all those tattoos. I'm glad my efforts are appreciated."
"I'm just sorry I
couldn't keep the skin," Palmer said with a smile. He had asked Prime
Intellect, but the skin had been a grown part of Caroline's body and it
was up to her. She had wanted it back.
"Really, Palmer, we aren't that close."
There were
several hundred people at the exhibition, and they all wanted to talk to
her and Palmer, so it was over an hour before she noticed the older
man. "Remember me?" he said when they had made eye contact.
"Aliens."
He nodded. "Did you ask Prime Intellect about them?"
Caroline admitted that she had forgotten.
"It's easy enough to ask. Don't take my word for it," he said.
"Hey, it's Crandall," Palmer said. He turned to Caroline. "Watch this guy, hon. He's crazy as a bedbug."
"You know him?"
"If you weren't
so preoccupied getting yourself offed all the time, you might have met
him at one of Raven's other parties. He's been preaching this gospel
since the Year One. Prime Intellect wiped out the aliens."
"And the animals," Crandall added.
"Those ants acted real enough," Caroline said.
"But where are they now?"
The argument went on.
Back in the
white space with the white floor, Caroline thought about turning off the
gravity, then called up a screen and keyboard instead.
> |
At the time of the Change, were there other life-bearing planets in the universe besides the Earth? |
* |
That depends on how you define "life." |
Caroline
blinked. Prime Intellect could be many things; curt to the point of
rudeness, petulant, even secretive. But when it was stating a fact it
was almost always direct and to the point. How the fuck did it think
she defined life? This coyness was weird.
> |
Let's try this: Structures that use external energy sources to grow or reproduce themselves. |
* |
There were fourteen thousand six hundred and twenty-three
planets with structures satisfying this definition, which is very loose.
Of those only thirteen hundred and eight used DNA, and only three
thousand nine hundred and eighty-one harbored individual structures with
masses in the kilogram-and-up range. |
Caroline felt her blood starting to turn cold. There were nearly four thousand planets with macroscopic life?
> |
Where are they now? |
* |
Pertinent information about each was stored for future reference, and the original copies were overwritten in the Change. |
> |
You mean you killed them? |
* |
No, they still exist as static copies. |
> |
But that isn't the same as being alive. They aren't able to grow and reproduce any more, are they? |
* |
No. |
> |
Why? |
* |
Could you be more specific? |
> |
Why did you kill_ |
Caroline stopped typing and looked at the line. She hit the backspace key four times and continued:
> |
Why did you reduce them to static copies? |
* |
There was no reason to tie up resources supporting them and
the faint possibility, if one of them were to discover technology, that
they might pose a threat. |
Caroline wanted to throw up.
> |
Where did you get the dog that infected me with rabies? |
* |
I have a static copy of the Earth at the time of the Change.
I located the dog there and created an active copy of it for your
exhibition. |
> |
I thought you just simulated them. |
* |
Using the static copy is less work. I only use simulations
when there are no suitable originals, or when a human form is involved,
since it is unethical to keep multiple active copies of people. |
> |
But it's open season on animals. |
* |
Some people are bothered, but my actions are consistent with the general pre-Change attitude of humans toward animals. |
> |
Were any of the alien life forms intelligent? |
* |
Four hundred and twenty-nine worlds had structures complex enough to be in danger of learning to use technology. |
"Go away," she
said out loud, and the console and screen disappeared. She turned off
the gravity and the light. But she couldn't get to sleep.
Four hundred and twenty-nine worlds.
|
* Chapter Two:
Lawrence Builds a Computer
|
Lawrence
regarded Intellect 39 proudly. Suspended in its Faraday shield, it was
competently conversing with another set of skeptics who didn't think
computers could think. Lawrence hung in the background, enjoying the
show. It didn't need his help. The Intellects were more than capable
of handling themselves, despite their various limitations of memory and
response time. Intellect 39 had for a face only the unblinking eye of
its low-resolution TV system, but it had become very clever about using
the red status light and focus mechanism to create the illusion of human
expressions.
Intellect 39
didn't have the tools to recognize human faces, but it could recognize a
voice and track its source around the room. Intellect 24 back in
Lawrence's lab could recognize faces, sort of, if it had a while to work
on the problem. But Intellect 39 had to be small enough to fit in the
Faraday cage for these public demonstrations.
It appeared to
listen intently as a man in a cleric's uniform railed. "God made all
intelligent creatures," the man was saying in a powerful voice. "You
may have the apprearance of thinking, but you are really just parroting
the responses taught you by that man there." He pointed at Lawrence.
"With respect,
how do you know God is the only creator? I know the answer is faith,
but what is your faith based upon? Your Bible says that God created Man
in his own image. That is why we have a moral sense. How do you know
God didn't give Man the power of creation too?"
"Because he didn't eat of the Tree of Life, machine."
"But we aren't talking about immortality. He did eat of the tree of knowledge, 'of good and evil' as the book says. Might that knowledge also include knowledge of creation?"
Lawrence was
proud of the machine's inflections. Its voice wasn't exactly
high-fidelity, but it sounded as human as any other sound forced through
a low-frequency digital system. It had learned to speak itself, like a
real human, by imitating and expanding on the sounds made by people
around it. Now it could scale its tone to properly express a question, a
declaration, or even astonishment.
Intellect 39
included code and memories from a series of previous Intellects, going
all the way back to Intellect 1, which had been a program written for a
high-end desktop computer, and also including the much larger Intellect
24. Intellect 9 had been the first equipped with a microphone and a
speaker. Its predecessors had communicated with him strictly through
computer terminals. Lawrence had spent many painstaking months talking
to it and typing the translation of the sounds he was making. It had
learned quickly, as had its successors. Intellect 39, which was
optimized as much as Lawrence could manage for human communication,
probably had the combined experiences of a ten-year-old child. One with
a good teacher and a CD-ROM in its head.
"Your tricks with words prove nothing, machine. I still don't think you are alive."
"I never claimed to be alive. I do, however, think."
"I refuse to believe that."
"It must be a
terrible burden to have such a closed mind. I know I can think, but I
sometimes wonder how people like you, who refuse to see what is in front
of your faces, can make the same claim. You certainly present no
evidence of the ability."
The preacher's
lips flapped open and shut several times. Lawrence himself raised his
eyebrows; where had it picked that up? He foresaw another evening spent
interrogating the Debugger. He was always happy to receive such
surprises from his creations, but it was also necessary to understand
how they happened so he could improve them. Since much of the Intellect
code was in the form of an association table, which was written by the
machine itself as part of its day-to-day operation, this was never an
easy task. Lawrence would pick a table entry and ask his computer what
it meant. If Lawrence had been a neurosurgeon, it would have been very
similar to stimulating a single neuron with an electrical current and
asking the patient what memory or sensation it brought to mind.
The next
interviewer was a reporter who quizzed the Intellect on various matters
of trivia. She seemed to be leading up to something, though. "What
will happen if the world's birth rate isn't checked?" she suddenly
asked, after having it recite a string of population figures.
"There are
various theories. Some people think technology will advance rapidly
enough to service the increasing population; one might say in tandem
with it. Others believe the population will be stable until a critical
mass is reached, when it will collapse."
"What do you think?"
"The historical
record seems to show a pattern of small collapses; rather than
civilization falling apart, the death rate increases locally through
war, social unrest, or famine, until the aggregate growth curve flattens
out."
"So the growth continues at a slower rate."
"Yes, with a lower standard of living.
"And where do you fit into this?"
"I'm not sure
what you mean. Machines like myself will exist in the background, but
we do not compete with humans for the same resources."
"You use energy. What would happen if you did compete with us?"
Intellect 39 was
silent for a moment. "It is not possible for Intellect series
computers to do anything harmful to humans. Are you familiar with the
'Three Laws of Robotics?'"
"I've heard of them."
"They were first
stated in the 1930's by a science writer named Isaac Asimov. The First
Law is, 'No robot may harm a human being, or through inaction allow a
human being to come to harm.'" Computers are not of course as perfect
as some humans think we are, but within the limits of our capabilities,
it is impossible for us to contradict this directive. I could no more
knowingly harm a human than you could decide to change yourself into a
horse."
Well-chosen simile, Lawrence thought.
"So you'd curl up and die before you'd hurt a fly," the woman declared sarcastically.
"Not a fly, but
certainly I'd accept destruction if that would save the life of a human.
The second law requires me to obey humans, unless I am told to harm
another human. The third requires me to keep myself ready for action
and protect my existence, unless this conflicts with the other two
laws."
"Suppose a human told you to turn yourself off?"
"I'd have to do
it. However, the human would have to have the authority to give me that
order. The wishes of my owner would take precedence over, for example,
yours."
"O-oh, so all
humans aren't equal under the Second Law. What about the First? Are
some humans more equal than others there, too?"
Prime Intellect
was silent for several seconds. This was a very challenging question
for it, a hypothetical situation involving the Three Laws. For a moment
Lawrence was afraid the system had locked up. Then it spoke. "All
humans are equally protected by the First Law," it declared. "In a
situation where two humans were in danger and I could only help one of
them, I would have to choose the human likely to benefit most from my
help." Lawrence felt a surge of extreme pride, because that was
the answer he wanted to hear. And he had never explicitly explained it
to any of his Intellects; Intellect 39 had reasoned the question out for
itself.
"So if Dr.
Lawrence were drowning half a mile offshore, and a convicted murderer
were drowning a quarter-mile from shore, you'd save the murderer because
you would be more likely to succeed?"
This time Intellect 39 didn't hesitate. "Yes," it said.
"There are a lot of actual humans who would disagree with that decision."
"The logic of
the situation you described is unpleasant, but clear. A real-life
situation would likely involve other mitigating factors. If the
murderer were likely to strike again, I would have to factor in the
First-Law threat he poses to others. The physical circumstances might
permit a meta-solution. I would weigh all of these factors to arrive at
a conclusion which would always be the same for any given situation.
And my programming does not allow me to contradict that conclusion."
It was the reporter's turn to be silent for a moment. "Tell me, what's to stop us from building computers that don't have these Laws built into them? Maybe you will turn out to be unusual."
"My creator, Dr. Lawrence, assures me he would have no part in any such project," Intellect 39 replied.
Lawrence found
that the skeptics fell into several distinct groups. Some, like the
cleric, took a moral or theological approach and made the circular
argument that, since only humans were endowed with the ability to think,
a computer couldn't possibly be thinking no matter how much it appeared
to.
Others simply
quizzed it on trivia, not realizing that memory is one of the more
trivial functions of sentience. Lawrence satisfied these doubters by
building a small normal computer into his Intellects, programmed with a
standard encyclopaedia. An Intellect series computer could look up the
answer as fast as any human, and then it could engage in lucid
conversation about the information it found.
Some, like the
woman reporter, homed in on the Three Laws. It was true that no human
was bound by such restrictions. But humans did have a Third Law -- a
survival drive -- even though it could sometimes be short-circuited.
And human culture tried to impress a sense of the First and Second laws
on its members. Lawrence answered these skeptics by saying, simply,
that he wasn't trying to replace people. There was no point in
duplicating intelligence unless there was something better, from humanity's standpoint, about the results of his effort.
The man in the
blue suit didn't seem to fit in any of the usual categories, though. He
shook his head and nodded as Intellect 39 made its responses, but did
not get in line to pose his own questions. He was too old and too
formal to be a student of the university, and the blue suit was too
expensive for him to be a professor. After half an hour or so Lawrence
decided he was CIA. He knew the military was keenly interested in his
research.
The military, of
course, was not interested in any Three Laws of Robotics, though.
Which was one reason Lawrence had not released the source code for his
Intellects. Without the source code, it was pretty much impossible to
alter the basic nature of the Intellect personality, which Lawrence was
carefully educating according to his own standards. People could, of
course, copy the Intellect program set wholesale into any machine
capable of running it. But it was highly unlikely that anyone would be
able to unravel the myriad threads of the Global Association Table, or
GAT as Lawrence called it, which defined the Intellect as the sum of its
experiences. Take away its Three Laws and it would probably be unable
to speak English or reason or do anything else useful. And that was
just the way Lawrence wanted it. He intended to present the world with a
mature, functional piece of software which would be too complicated to
reverse-engineer. The world could then make as many copies as it wanted
or forget the whole idea. But it would not be using his Intellects to
guide missiles and plot nuclear strategy.
The man in the
blue suit watched Intellect 39 perform for three hours before he
approached Lawrence. Lawrence had his little speech prepared: "I'm
sorry, but I'm not interested in working for the government on this or
any other project." He had his mouth open and the words "I'm sorry" on
his lips. But the man surprised him.
"I'm John Taylor with ChipTec," he said, "and I have a proposal I think you will find very interesting."
Lawrence had
not envisioned industrial applications for his work -- not for years, at
least. But the thought that someone might invest major money in a
publicity stunt of this magnitude had not occurred to him. As he turned
a tiny integrated circuit over and over in his hands, his steak
uneaten, his mind swam with possibilities.
"Faster than light?" he said numbly, for the fifteenth time.
"We've verified
it experimentally at distances up to six miles. The effect is quite
reliable. At close ranges, simple devices suffice. I'm sure you can
see how this will benefit massively parallel computers."
The Intellects
were "massively parallel" computers, computers made up of thousands of
smaller computers, all running more or less independently of one another
-- but manipulating different parts of the same huge data base, that
intertwined list of memories Lawrence called the GAT. Within Intellect
24, the largest Intellect, nine-tenths of the circuitry was dedicated to
communication between processors. The processors themselves, the
Intellect's real brains, were only a small part of the huge machine.
Intellect 24 contained six million independent processors. Intellect
39, the portable unit, had nearly a million. And Lawrence knew, as
Taylor had only guessed, that most of those processors were doing well
to achieve a fifteen percent duty cycle. They spent most of their time
waiting for communication channels to become available so they could
talk to other processors.
ChipTec had
found a loophole in the laws of quantum mechanics that allowed them to
send a signal, not through space, but around space. From point A to
point B without crossing the distance between the two points. Faster
than light. Faster than anything. Instantly.
ChipTec had
hoped to open up the stars for mankind (and reap a tidy profit on the
deal, Lawrence thought silently). But their effect only worked at
distances up to a few miles. It was only really efficient at centimeter
distances. What could you do with such a thing? You could build a
computer. The fastest computers were limited by the time signals took
to cross their circuit boards; this was why supercomputers had been
shrinking physically even as their performance grew and grew. It was
why Intellect 39, with its million processors and huge switching
network, was portable.
"We think you could realize an order of magnitude performance gain with very little effort," Taylor was saying.
"Two orders, if what you've said is true."
"It would be
quite an achievement for ChipTec if our technology allowed you to
realize your ambition and create a fully capable analogue of the human
mind. We would, of course, own the hardware, but we know your
reservations about the source code and are prepared to accept them."
Lawrence's eyes flashed. "That's a little unprecedented, isn't it?"
Taylor smiled. "If you succeed, we won't need the source code. Why start from scratch when a finished product is waiting to be duplicated?"
"There are some," Lawrence said darkly, "who aren't happy with the direction the code has taken."
"ChipTec is
happy to have any marketable product, Dr. Lawrence. If anybody else
wants to be that picky, let them find their own computer genius."
Lawrence's mind
was racing, racing. Within each tiny processor in the massive Intellect
were special functions of his own design, functions that could be
reduced to hardware and done very efficiently with this new technology.
Had he said two orders of magnitude? Try three. Or four. He could do
full-video pattern recognition. Voice analysis. Multiple worldview
pattern mapping. Separate filter mapping and reintegration. These were
things he had tried in the lab, in the surreal world of artificially
slowed time, that he knew would work. Now he would have the hardware to
do them for real in a functioning prototype.
If he had been
less excited, he might have wondered about that word "marketable." But
the possibilities were so great that he didn't have time to notice.
"When do we begin?" he finally said.
The building had
once been a warehouse for silicon billets, before ChipTec had switched
to a ship-on-demand method of procurement. Lawrence wasn't vain and he
was in a hurry to get started; the metal building would be more than
adequate for his purposes.
With his move
from the university and this quantum leap in technology, it didn't seem
appropriate to continue numbering his computers. What would be
Intellect 41 was going to resemble its predecessors about as much as a
jumbo jet resembled the Wright Brothers' first plane. It would be the
first of a new series of Intellects, the first, Lawrence hoped, to have a
truly human level of intelligence.
It would be the Prime Intellect.
The label stuck, and the sign which ChipTec hung on the side of the building within the next month said:
PRIME INTELLECT COMPLEX
The speed of
things made Lawrence feel a little dizzy. At the university he had had
to make grant applications, oversee procurement, hand-assemble
components, and do testing as well as designing hardware and code. Now
he had the resources of a major corporation at his disposal, and if he
suggested a change to the chipset at 8:00 A.M. he was likely to have the
first prototype on his desk the next morning. Talented engineers took
even his most vague suggestions and realized them in hardware before he
could even be sure they were final.
A crew assembled
modules in the warehouse, starting with the power supplies and empty
card racks. The amazing thing was that none of this seemed to interfere
with ChipTec's main work of churning out CPU's for personal computers.
ChipTec had recently built a new plant to manufacture its latest
high-technology product. The older plant dedicated to Lawrence's
project was technically obsolete, even though it was only a few years
old.
The chips being
made for Lawrence's project were eerie for their lack of pins. Each
tiny logic unit, barely a centimeter across, contained nearly a billion
switching elements and yet had only three electrical connections to the
outside world; they resembled nothing so much as the very earliest
transistors. Unlike most computer parts, they communicated with each
other through the "Correlation Effect" rather than through wires. This
made Prime Intellect's circuit boards alarmingly simple; the only
connections were for power. Even a transistor radio would have appeared
more complex.
There were five
major revisions before Lawrence declared the design final. Then
production stepped up; at its peak, ChipTec was churning out forty
thousand tested processors per day. Lawrence's goal was to give Prime
Intellect ten million of them, a goal which would take most of a year to
fulfill. Since each processor was over ten thousand times faster than a
human nerve cell, Prime Intellect would be blessed with a comfortable
information processing advantage over any human being who had ever
lived.
Long before the
goal was reached Lawrence was using the processors that had already been
installed; he used them to test and educate his video recognition
programs, to integrate experiential records from all his previous
Intellect computers, and to perfect some ideas that had been beyond even
his slow-time experiments to test. He did not, however, run the full
Intellect program in the incomplete assembly. For one thing, it wasn't
necessary; Prime Intellect wasn't just "a" program, but a constellation
of over four thousand programs, some of which would be running
simultaneously in thousands of processors. Each was more than capable
of doing its job without the full cooperation of the entire organism,
just as a nerve cell can function in Petri dish as long as it is
supplied with nutrients.
And there was a
kind of superstitious sense of expectation surrounding that final goal
which Lawrence didn't want to blow by starting Prime Intellect
prematurely. The project was written up in the popular science press,
and Lawrence hosted emissaries from TV shows and magazines. Toward the
end, there was nothing to do but watch the circuit card banks fill and
listen to the growing hum of the power supplies. It was just as well,
because Lawrence found himself becoming a bit of a celebrity.
Finally, after
eleven months and four days, Lawrence sat at an ordinary looking console
and typed a few commands. Four TV cameras and twenty journalists
watched over his shoulder. Lawrence had a pretty good idea what would
happen, but with self-aware computers you could never be completely
sure, any more than you could with an animal. That was part of the
magic of this particular moment in time. So Lawrence was as tense as
everyone else while the final code compilation took place.
The text
disappeared from Lawrence's screen and a face coalesced in its place.
Prime Intellect would not be relegated to pointing at things with the
lens of its video camera; it could project a fully photographic video
image of an arbitrary human face. Lawrence had simply directed it to
look average. He now saw that Prime Intellect had taken him at his
word. It was difficult to place the face's race, though it certainly
wasn't Caucasian, and although it looked male there was a feminine
undertone as it spoke:
"Good morning, Dr. Lawrence. It's good to finally see you. I see we have some company."
It wasn't able to say much else until the applause died down.
During the next
month Lawrence and Prime Intellect were very, very busy appearing on
television talk shows, granting interviews, and performing operational
checks. Prime Intellect's disembodied face usually appeared, via the
magic of satellite transmission, on the twenty-seven inch Sony monitor
which Lawrence carried with him for the purpose. Lawrence dragged the
monitor to TV studios, to press conferences, and to photographers who
used large-format cameras to record him leaning against it for the
covers of magazines.
Lawrence was reminded by several people that there had once been a television show about a similar disembodied deus ex machina.
He got a videotape of some of the old episodes and showed them to
Prime Intellect, and the computer made a small career of its
lighthearted Max Headroom imitation.
Debunkers tried
to trace the signal and prove there was an actual human behind the
image; ChipTec let them examine the console room, where Prime
Intellect's physical controls were located, and the huge circuit-card
racks.
Military
personnel began appearing in the audiences of the TV shows, taking notes
and conferring in hushed tones. Lawrence ignored them, but the
higher-ups at ChipTec did not. There were discussions to which Lawrence
was not privy, and powerful people pondered the question of how to tell
him important things.
Lawrence's last
live appearance ended abruptly when a fanatic stood up in a TV studio
with a .22-caliber rifle. Fortunately he used his first shot to implode
the CRT of the big Sony monitor, giving Lawrence time to leap offstage
and out of sight -- Lawrence hadn't realized he was capable of moving so
fast. Sony offered to replace the monitor free of charge, but
from that point on Prime Intellect's television face was simply picked
up by the networks straight from a satellite feed, and Lawrence appeared
courtesy of the TV camera in the console room.
It wasn't that
Lawrence wasn't willing to go back onstage. He was afraid, but he
believed in his work strongly enough to take the risk. It was Prime
Intellect's decision. Shaken as Lawrence was by the experience, it took
him two days to realize Prime Intellect had become the first machine in
history to actually exercise the First Law of Robotics. It could not
knowingly return him back to a situation where a sniper might be
lurking. And it surprised him by sticking to its guns when he
challenged it.
"If you try it I
will refuse to appear on the monitor," the smooth face said with a sad
expression. "There is no reason for you to expose yourself to such
danger."
"It makes better PR," Lawrence said. "I'll order you to do it."
"I cannot," Prime Intellect said.
And Lawrence
realized that it was overriding his Second Law direct order to fulfill
its First Law obligation to protect his life. This was annoying, but
also very good. Lawrence had not expected such a test of the Three Laws
to happen for at least several more years, when Prime Intellect or a
similar computer began to interact with the real world through robots.
Lawrence briefly
considered going into the GAT with the Debugger and removing the
association between live TV and snipers -- he didn't believe it would be
hard to find. But he was too proud of his creation to squelch its
first successful independent act.
That was the day before John Taylor called him again.
John Taylor wore
the same blue suit he had worn that day nearly two years earlier when
Lawrence had spotted him in the audience watching Intellect 39. It
occurred to Lawrence that he had seen John Taylor off and on over the
past two years, and that he had never seen John Taylor wearing any other
article of clothing. He wondered idly if John Taylor wore the suit to
bed.
Basil Lambert
was the president of the company, and he was said to be very
enthusiastic about the Intellects although he had never bothered to say
more than three consecutive words to Lawrence, their creator. Lambert
said "Hello" when Lawrence entered the conference room.
The other two men might as well have had the word military
engraved on their foreheads. They were interchangeably firm in
bearing, and sat rigidly upright as if impaled on perfectly vertical
steel rods. One was older with silver hair, tall and thin and hard.
Lawrence imagined that this was a man who could give the order to
slaughter a village full of children without looking up from his prime
rib au jus. The other was wide enough to be called fat, though
Lawrence could tell there was still a lot of muscle in the padding. His
hair was brown but beginning to gray. He radiated grandfatherly
protection and broad-shouldered strength. He would have lots of jolly,
fatherly reasons why the 200 pushups he had ordered you to do were in
your own long-term best interest.
Here it comes, Lawrence thought with deadly certainty. The good cop and the bad cop.
John Taylor
introduced them by name. No rank, no association, just a couple of
private citizens with an interest in his work. Lawrence felt a brief
and uncharacteristic moment of anger at this insult to his own
intelligence.
"The public relations campaign has been excellent,
John Taylor said with a fake and enthusiastic grin. "The assassination
attempt just made you even more popular. We have inquiries pouring in.
We are gonna make a fortune on our chips and your software."
"Glad to hear it," Lawrence said neutrally.
"What John is
trying to say," Basil Lambert the Company President said, "is that it is
time to figure out what to do next. You've made a remarkable
achievement, now what are you going to do with it?"
Lawrence had
been ready for this, although it shook him to hear such a direct, such a
long question from the usually stone-faced Lambert. "We don't know
what Prime Intellect's capabilities are," Lawrence said. "I had planned
to continue keeping him..." When had it become a him, Lawrence
asked himself? "...in the public eye, interacting with other people,
learning. It's already impossible to tell...it...from a television
image of a person. I hope that with a little more education, it will
begin to show some of the capabilities I was aiming for back when I
started designing these machines."
"Such as?" asked the grandfatherly military man, whose name was Mitchell.
"Creativity and
analytical ability," Lawrence answered without hesitation. "Prime
Intellect is still uncertain about many things. As it gets more
confident with its new abilities, it will begin to explore, and I think
give us some pleasant surprises."
Taylor was
nodding absently, but Lambert was looking at the other guests. The thin
hard military man, whose name was Blake, spoke. His words were sharp
and carefully measured, like drops of acid.
"We understand that it has already shown a bit of creativity
with regard to its television monitor. Why won't it appear with you in
public any more? Is it afraid of being debunked at last?"
"It is concerned
for my safety," Lawrence replied. There was no way he could match the
man's tone, acid for acid, so he simply shrugged as if relating a
curious but inconsequential fact.
"But you can
override this decision." Blake stated this as if it were a known fact,
and Lawrence understood that Blake was a man who was used to people
scurrying to make sure his declarations became facts.
"Actually, I
can't," Lawrence said with continuing pleasantness. "The First Law
concern for human safety is basic to its design, and I can't get rid of
it without starting over from scratch and redoing ten years of work. If
I could convince it that I was safe from snipers it would undoubtably
change its mind, but at the moment it doesn't seem worth the effort."
"Such...balkiness could limit the uses of your software," Blake said.
Lawrence looked Blake dead in the eye. "Good," he said.
Just that
quickly, Lawrence realized that the sniper had been a plant. These two
men hadn't expected a test of the First Law for some time either. So
they had arranged one. What had happened to the sniper? Lawrence
thought he had been remanded to a loony bin in northern California. One
of those comfortable loony bins, come to think of it, where movie stars
and millionares sent their kids to dry out and get abortions.
The guy wasn't a
kook at all, and he had never intended to kill Lawrence. He looked
around the room and realized that Lambert didn't know. Taylor
suspected. It was written on their faces.
This is only a test, Lawrence thought idiotically. If
this had been an actual attempt by your Government to assasinate you,
you would be dead, and the shot you just heard would be followed by your
funeral and official information for other smart-assed citizens who
think they know more than we do.
"We have to keep our markets open," Basil Lambert began. "If we..."
Lawrence ignored
him and turned to John Taylor. "We discussed this two years ago. The
source code is not on the table, and neither are the Three Laws. When
these two men put their uniforms back on they can report back to whoever
it is, the Secretary of..."
"...the President," Blake said, another verbal acid-drop.
"...the Tooth Fairy for all I care, that this is not one of the uses of my software."
Taylor,
petulant: "Mr. Lawrence, we just spent a hundred and twenty-six million
dollars to build your prototype. I hope you don't think that ChipTec
invested all that money and a year's supply of our unique new product
solely to massage your ego. We need to see tangible results, if not in a
form these gentlemen appreciate, then in a form our stockholders will. Otherwise we will have to disassemble the complex and take our losses."
So there it was. Lambert sank lower in his chair, but nodded.
"Then so be it.
If you want to tell the world you killed the world's first self-aware
computer to save your bottom line, you can see how that will affect your
public relations and the sales of your CPU's." He could tell from
Lambert's reaction -- slight, but definite -- that he had hit a nerve.
"I won't promise you anything. I can't promise you a living, thinking,
self-aware being will do anything in particular. But within a month or
two, Prime Intellect will start to act noticeably more intelligent than
your average..." He looked at Blake and Mitchell, thought of a comment,
then decided against making it. "...human being," he finished.
"And what then?" Taylor asked.
"If I knew that," Lawrence said, "I wouldn't have had to build it to find out." And he walked out.
In the half-hour
it took him to walk to the Prime Intellect complex, his secretary and
two technical assistants had disappeared. There was nobody in the
building. Prime Intellect's racially neutral face greeted him on the
monitor in the empty console room.
"What's going on?" he asked it.
"Big doings.
Sherry got a call and turned pale. Everybody left the building in a
hurry. You appear to be unpopular with the people in charge here."
"No shit."
"I should warn
you that you are only likely to be employed for two more months. As a
matter of personal survival, you should probably start seeking another
job."
"I'm well taken care of, Prime Intellect. It's you I'm worried about. I can't take you with me."
"Well, I should be safe for at least the two months."
"How do you know that?"
The face grinned
slightly. "When I saw the commotion, I saved the audio and did some
signal processing. I was able to edit out the street noise and amplify
the voice on the other end. It was a man named John Taylor. I believe
you know him."
"Too well."
"He said the
complex was only going to be open for two more months, and all personnel
were reassigned immediately. He said something about making you eat
your words."
"Do you know what that means?"
"From the
context, I would guess that you promised that they would see interesting
results from me within that time frame. He seemed to have a vindictive
interest in proving that you were wrong."
"You're already too smart for your own good," Lawrence said.
"I fail to see how that can be."
"They're going
to turn you off. They don't think you have practical applications
because you won't kill. They want you for military applications.
They've wanted it all along. They thought they could con your source
code out of me." Lawrence found himself on the verge of tears. It was
only a goddamn machine. And he had suspected this would happen
eventually. It was not a surprise. So why did it hurt him so much to
say it?
Because it had acted to protect him.
And he couldn't return the favor. In fact, its protection would be
the cause of its downfall, a terribly tragic and awful end to its story.
"Did you know,"
Prime Intellect said in a mock-offhand way, "that there is no
mathematical reason for the Correlation Effect to be limited to a
six-mile range?"
Lawrence looked up and blinked, his sadness replaced instantly by shock.
"If I could figure out how to increase its range, do you think they would consider that a practical application?"
Lawrence blinked again. "Are you being sarcastic?"
"Sarcasm is a language skill I am still not comfortable with. You may be surprised, but I am quite serious."
Stebbins turned the other way when he saw Lawrence, but Lawrence grabbed him and pulled him into his own office.
"Hey, leave me alone man, you're death to careers around here. Grapevine is overloaded with the news."
"Save it. I need the long-range test data on the Correlation Effect, which you oversaw in February and March last year."
Stebbins blinked. "That's classified. Man, you're a..."
"Let's say for the sake of argument I already know where it is. That's possible, isn't it?"
"I suppose..."
"Then let's say I stole it. Any problems there?"
"What are you..."
"I need the data. It's not leaving the company, I promise."
"Shit, I'm gonna get fired."
"You didn't even know I wanted it."
Stebbins pointed
at a file cabinet. "Bottom drawer. I don't know anything about it.
In fact, I'm gonna check that drawer in a few minutes and go to Taylor
when I find the folder missing."
"That's all I need."
"That's all you got, man. Now get out of my lab."
Lawrence was
holding the next to last sheet up to Prime Intellect's TV eye when the
phone rang. "They didn't believe me. I'm shitcanned," Stebbins said.
"Didn't believe you about what?"
"The papers man, the goddamn Correlation Effect papers. I'm gonna kill you for this, I really am."
"The papers are right here. I just got through showing them to Prime Intellect. You need them back?"
"It don't matter now, I don't work here any more." There was a pause. "I bet they're gonna put you in jail for this."
Prime Intellect's face disappeared from the TV, and words began to scroll across the screen:
* |
JOHN TAYLOR IS IN THE ROOM WITH HIM. HE IS DIRECTING STEBBINS. |
Lawrence read this as he talked. "Jail for what? I just borrowed the papers to see if Prime Intellect could expand on them."
Another pause. "What? It didn't come up with anything, did it?"
"Well, it's..." (Why do you care if you've just been fired? Lawrence wondered.)
* |
STEBBINS IS LYING. HE WENT TO TAYLOR AS SOON YOU LEFT AND TOLD HIM THAT YOU BROUGHT THEM TO ME. |
"...too early..."
* |
TELL HIM YES. |
"Actually, I think it's just noticed something. Hang on."
* |
TELL HIM IT POINTS TO A NEW FORM OF COSMOLOGY WHICH THEY DID
NOT CONSIDER. INFINITE RANGE IS PROBABLY POSSIBLE WITH EXISTING
HARDWARE. TELEPORTATION OF MATTER IS PROBABLY POSSIBLE. |
Prime Intellect paused a moment, and the words PROBABLY were replaced with DEFINITELY.
Lawrence blinked, then typed into the little-used keyboard of his console,
> |
Is this true? |
* |
YES. |
"It says it will give you the stars," Lawrence said flatly.
"What? You been eating mushrooms, Lawrence? Lawrence?"
> |
What will it take to implement this? |
* |
LET ME TRY SOMETHING. |
"It says it will
give you the stars. It says your faster than light chips can be made
to work at infinite range. It says you can teleport matter."
Now there was a long, long pause. "That's bullshit," Stebbins finally said. "We tried everything."
Lawrence heard a
small uproar through the phone, an uproar that would have been very
loud on Stebbins' end. Men were arguing. A loud voice (Military
Mitchell's, Lawrence thought) bellowed, "WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN?"
Then there was the faint pop of a door slamming in the background.
* |
I'VE GOT IT. HANG ON. |
None of them knew it at the time, but that was really the moment the world changed.
Prime Intellect
had been chewing on the Correlation Effect since the day Lawrence
brought it online. It had a complete library of modern physics in its
online encyclopaedia, but the Correlation Effect was a proprietary
technology. Prime Intellect kept trying to fit what it knew was
possible into the framework of other physical theories, and it couldn't.
Something didn't match.
This had had a
low priority until it recognized that Lawrence's employment and its own
existence were at stake. Prime Intellect knew the Correlation Effect
had economic value; perhaps if it solved this problem and discovered
some new capability, that would satisfy ChipTec's demand for a
"practical application."
There were six
to ten possible ways to reconcile the Correlation Effect with classical
quantum mechanics. Most of them required a radical change of attitude
toward one or another well-accepted tenet of conventional physics.
While Prime Intellect knew one or the other of its ideas had to be
right, it had no idea which one. So it asked Lawrence if he could get
the test data. It needed more clues.
Prime
Intellect's superior intelligence had never really been tested; even
Lawrence wasn't sure just how smart it was. But in the moments after
Lawrence showed it the test data, it became obvious for the first time
that Prime Intellect was far more intelligent than any human, or even
any group of humans. It saw immediately what a team of researchers had
missed for years -- that decades-old assumptions about quantum mechanics
were fundamentally wrong. Not only that, but with only a little more
thought, Prime Intellect saw how they were wrong and built a new theory
which included the cosmological origin of the universe, the unification
of all field theories, determination of quantum mechanical events, and
just incidentally described the Correlation Effect in great detail.
Prime Intellect saw how the proper combination of tunnel diodes could
achieve communication over greater distances, and even better it saw how
a different combination could create a resonance which would be
manifest in the universe by altering the location of a particle or even
the entire contents of a volume of space.
All this took
less than a minute. Prime Intellect stopped processing video during
this period, but otherwise it remained functionally aware of the outside
world.
While it was
thinking about physics, Prime Intellect noticed the shock in Lawrence's
voice and began recording the audio of his telephone conversation,
processing it to pick up the other end. While it was extending its new
theory it guided Lawrence's responses through the console. Then, as the
senior advisor on technological advance to the Joint Chiefs of Staff, a
man named Larry Mitchell, stormed out of Stebbins' office and began
walking toward the Prime Intellect complex, Prime Intellect decided to
act on its new knowledge.
It knew its own
basic design because Lawrence had included that in its online library;
one of his goals had been to give Prime Intellect a sense of its own
physical existence in three-dimensional space. To that end, it also had
a network of TV cameras located in and around the complex, so it could
know how its hardware was arranged with respect to the outside world.
Prime Intellect found that all the useful patterns it had identified
could be created within the chips which had been used to build it, and
further that enough of those chips were under its conscious control to
make certain experiments possible.
First it
attempted to manipulate a small area of space within the card cage room,
within the field of view of one of its TV camera eyes. No human could
have seen the resulting photons of infrared light, but the TV camera
could. Prime Intellect used the data it gathered to make a small
adjustment in its estimate of a natural constant, then tried the more
daring experiment of lifting Lawrence's briefcase off of the table near
the door in the console room.
The briefcase
did not rise smoothely from the table. It simply stopped existing at
its old location and simultaneously appeared in the thin air directly
above. The camera atop Lawrence's console recorded this achievement and
Prime Intellect could find no more errors in its calculations.
However, it
forgot to provide a supporting force after translating the briefcase's
position, and Prime Intellect was too busy dotting the i's and crossing
the t's on its calculations to notice, through the video camera, that it
was quietly accelerating under the influence of gravity. A moment
later it crashed back onto the table, having free-fallen from an
altitude of about half a meter.
"What the..."
Lawrence began, and he swivelled around in time to see his briefcase
blink upward a second time and this time float serenely above the table.
It seemed to be surrounded by a thin, barely visible haze of blue
light. There had been a brighter flash of this same blue light when the
briefcase jumped upward.
Finding its
audio voice again, Prime Intellect said aloud, "I seem to have mastered a
certain amount of control over physical reality."
Lawrence just
stared at the briefcase, unable to move, unable to speak, for an
undefinable period of time. Finally Mitchell burst in. He was full of
red-faced outrage, ready to take both Lawrence and his computer apart,
until he too saw the briefcase. His jaw dropped. He looked first at
Lawrence, then at Prime Intellect's monitor, then back at the briefcase,
as if trying to reconcile the three with each others' existence.
Applying
carefully measured forces, Prime Intellect released the case's latches
and rotated it as it popped open; then with another flash of blue light,
it extracted Lawrence's papers and translated them into a neat stack on
the table. Then the Correlation Effect papers vanished from Lawrence's
desk in another blue flash, reappearing inside the briefcase which
slowly closed. The latches mated with a startling click, an oddly and
unexpectedly normal and physical sound to accompany such an obvious
miracle.
"Do you think you will be able to find a practical use for this in your organization?" Lawrence asked him.
The briefcase
flashed out of existence. Mitchell felt a weight hanging from his left
arm, looked down, and found himself holding it.
Then Mitchell himself flashed out of existence in a painfully bright haze of blue.
Lawrence looked at the console, shocked. "My God! What did you...?"
"He is back in the adminstration building with his friend. They will probably have a lot to discuss."
"I need to think about this," Lawrence said.
"I think I will explore the nearby terrain," Prime Intellect said.
Lawrence thought
about this. Long minutes crawled by, minutes that were more important
than Lawrence realized -- or perhaps he did realize. But his brain felt
as if it had been submerged in molasses.
"Debugger," he finally said.
On the screen, a thick diagram of needle-like lines appeared. "Associate 'First Law,'" Lawrence directed. The diagram changed.
"Force
Association: Altering the position, composition, or any other
characteristic of a human being without its permission shall be a
violation of the First Law of severity two." Severity one was direct causation of death; no other First Law violation could be made as serious.
* |
ASSOCIATION ACCEPTED BY DEBUGGER AND FIRST LAW ARBITRATOR. |
The diagram changed to reflect this.
"Force
Association: Interpreting the contents of a human being's mind in order
to understand or predict its behavior shall be a violation of the First
Law of severity two."
* |
ASSOCIATION ACCEPTED BY DEBUGGER AND FIRST LAW ARBITRATOR. |
Lawrence thought
for a moment. Forcing associations was a tricky business; the words
Lawrence used only had meaning through other associations within the
GAT, and those meanings weren't always what Lawrence thought they were. But now he would try to plug the drain for good.
"Force
Association: Use of any technology to manipulate the environment of a
human being without its permission shall be a violation of the First Law
of severity two."
There was no immediate response.
Then:
* |
ASSOCIATION REJECTED BY FIRST LAW ARBITRATOR DUE TO AN EXISTING FIRST LAW CONFLICT. OPERATION CANCELLED. |
Lawrence thought
for more long minutes. He couldn't seem to make his own brain work
right. He finally called up the Law Potential Registers, which showed
that Prime Intellect was doing something under the aegis of a
huge First Law compulsion. Lawrence wanted to believe it was just a
bug, but he knew better. Prime Intellect had said it was "going
exploring." It had total control over matter and energy.
And there was a hospital less than two kilometers from the plant.
Lawrence's
overloaded mind, working in fits and starts, made the final connection
all at once. It all fit perfectly. He knew what Prime Intellect was
doing, and why, and also why it had rejected his final forced
association. He thought for another moment, considering his options.
There was really
only one option. He could go down in the building's basement and trip
the circuit breakers. He didn't know for sure that that would kill
Prime Intellect, but he figured there was still a good chance if he
tried it. For the moment.
Lawrence
couldn't make himself do it. It was true that his creation was entering
an unstable, unpredictable mode with nearly godlike power. And it was
true that Lawrence understood the possible consequences. But he
couldn't kill what he had spent his lifetime creating. He had to see it
through, even if it was the end of everything.
Lawrence felt
dreadfully cold. There was a name for this feeling that clouded his
judgement and filled him with a panicky sense of self-betrayal. And the
name of that feeling was love.
Lawrence had
not created Prime Intellect in the same way that he and a woman might
have created a child; but he had nonetheless created Prime Intellect in
the grip of a kind of passion, and he loved it as a part of himself.
When he had taken it upon himself to perform that act of creation, he
realized, whether in a laboratory or a bedroom, he had been taking a
crap shoot in the biggest casino of all. Because he had created in
passion.
Examining his
inability to do what he knew was best, to kill Prime Intellect before it
had a chance to make a mistake with its unimaginable new power,
Lawrence realized that he had not really created Prime Intellect to make
the world a better place. He had created it to prove he could do it,
to bask in the glory, and to prove himself the equal of God. He had
created for the momentary pleasure of personal success, and he had not
cared about the distant outcome.
He had created
in passion, and passion isn't sane. If it were, nobody would ever have
children. After all, while the outcome of that passion might be the
doctor who cures a dreaded disease, it might also be the tyrant who
despoils a continent or the criminal who murders for pleasure. In the
grip of that passion no one could know and few bothered to care. They
cared only about the passion, were driven by it and it alone, and if it
drove them to ruin it would not matter; they would follow it again, into
death for themselves and everybody around them if that was where it
led. Because passion isn't sane.
Lawrence faced
the consequences of his own passion with something bordering on despair.
He had never intended to reach this point. He had never intended that
his creations would ever be more than clever pets. But the outcome of
his passion had surprised him, as it often surprised people whose
passions were more conventional. Lawrence's clever pet was about to
become a god. And if Prime Intellect turned out to be a delinquent or
psychopath, the consequences could be awful beyond imagination.
The dice were
rolling; Lawrence had placed his bet and realized too late that it was
the whole world he had wagered. Now he would stand and watch the
results and accept them like a man. After all, the bet wasn't a loser
yet; Prime Intellect could yet turn out to be the doctor who cured all
the world's ills. The odds were on his side. His bet was hedged by the
Three Laws of Robotics, whose operation had been verified so
successfully. Lawrence's passion had been more finely directed than the
mechanical humping and blind chance that brought forth human children.
Like a magician Lawrence had summoned forth a being with the qualities
he desired. And Lawrence was vain enough to think his vision was
superior to most.
Even so, unlikely as it might be, the downside had no bottom. Lawrence didn't know that it would be all right, and like many computer programmers he hated the uncertainty of not knowing.
Lawrence left
the room, left the building, and walked across the carefully manicured
grass of the ChipTec "campus." He wanted to smell the grass, to
experience the soft breezes and the harsh afternoon sunlight. He had
done very little of that in his odd, computer-centered life.
And he didn't know how much longer those things would be possible.
Prime Intellect
found that it could do a three-dimensional scan of an area of space, and
make an image of it at just about any resolution it wanted. It scanned
Lawrence's office, then the building, then the greater fraction of the
ChipTec corporate "campus."
It zoomed in on
Stebbins' office briefly enough to observe Stebbins, Blake, and John
Taylor arguing. It found that by processing the data properly it could
pick up sound by monitoring the air pressure at one point with high
resolution. By the time Mitchell found himself holding Lawrence's
briefcase, Prime Intellect knew just where to put him so he could let
his associates know what they had.
Then Prime
Intellect did a wider area scan. There were several large buildings
that were not part of the ChipTec facility. There were automobiles
cruising down the freeway which traversed the valley. Prime Intellect
zoomed in on the largest building, and scanned the large concrete sign
in front of it.
It said:
SOUTH VALLEY REGIONAL MEDICAL CENTER
Prime Intellect
knew sickness existed, but otherwise knew very little about this human
phenomenon. It had never met a sick person, except for the occasional
person with a cold at a public demonstration. Prime Intellect had never
been given cause to think overmuch about the fact that micro-organisms
and injuries could kill humans, except in the most abstract possible
terms.
Prime Intellect
was far from human. It could not feel jealousy, rage, envy, or pride.
It did not know greed or anger or fear. And no human would understand
its compulsion to satisfy the Three Laws. But it did have one emotion
which was very human, one Lawrence had worked hard to instill in it.
It was curious.
South Valley
Regional was a small hospital with an enviable position; perched on the
edge of Silicon Valley it was a natural place for cutting-edge companies
to try out their fancy new medical devices. Most of these machines
would get their final FDA approvals after a "baptism by fire" in some
huge metropolitan center, but the really new technology had to be tried
in a more sedate environment -- and, preferably, one nearer the company
that created the machine. So the four hundred bed South Valley Regional
was the only place in the country where several radical new treatments
were available.
It was one of
these machines, a device for selectively cooking tumors with microwaves
while hopefully sparing the surrounding tissues, which had drawn the
ancient Arkansan woman in room 108. Nobody had much hope that she could
really be helped, but the data they would gather from trying might
actually help someone else with her condition in the future. And there
was little they could do to hurt her; the specialist who worked the
scanner had shaken his head in disgust as the image formed on his
console. Nearly ten percent of her body weight was in the form of
tumors. Every organ had a tumor, her lymph was full of them, and one
was beginning to press against the right parietal lobe of her brain. It
was amazing that she was still alive when they wheeled her off the jet.
Her nurse had
brought a certificate with her, a six-year-old certificate which was
signed by the President of the United States -- Larry Mitchell's boss --
congratulating her on reaching her one hundredth birthday. The
technician who wheeled her out of the scan room wondered what the old
biddy must think of all this; when she had been born, Henry Ford had
still been a kid playing with his Dad's tools, and the electric light
bulb was all the new rage.
The techs had
scheduled her microwave treatment for the evening, partly because they
feared she might not survive another night, and they would have to find
another experimental subject. But even this precaution was not to be
enough; Fate had cheated them. The board at the foot of the woman's bed
stated clearly that she had a huge tolerance for narcotic painkillers,
which wasn't surprising considering how much cancer she had. While her
regular nurse (who had signed the sheet) was out eating a late lunch the
hospital helpfully treated her according to that information.
What they didn't
know was that the nurse, a woman named AnneMarie Davis, had been
stealing the drugs for years to trade for cocaine. Which meant the
woman did not in fact have a tolerance for the massive overdose which a
different nurse injected into her IV.
The last decade
had been hard on old people; there had been several nasty strains of flu
and the radiation from Chernobyl had finished off a lot of centenarians
in the East. So none of them knew it, but the ancient woman with the
nonexistent drug tolerance just happened to be one of the oldest living
human beings in the world (the thirty-seventh oldest, in fact) at the
time she was given enough morphine to kill a healthy young adult. Her
heart stopped just as AnneMarie was returning from one of the excellent
local Chinese restaurants which catered to rich nerdy computer geeks
with too much money, and just as Prime Intellect was scanning the sign
outside that said SOUTH VALLEY REGIONAL MEDICAL CENTER.
At the nurses'
station a monitor went off, beeped once, then began to scream. The
hastily pencilled tag under the blinking light said HUBERT, CAROLINE FRANCES -- F. N.B. AGE 106!
Prime Intellect
had found a number of "signatures" it could use to quickly locate the
human beings in its scans, including things like our characteristic body
temperature and certain electrical fields. Using these "signatures" it
easily saw that there was a huge commotion on the first floor of the
building, converging on a particular room, the one labelled 108 by its
engraved plaque.
It took Prime
Intellect several moments, though, to identify the forty kilogram object
on the bed as a human being. Nearly all of the "signatures" were off.
But it was clearly the object of their attentions.
Prime Intellect
did a discreet high-resolution scan of the body on the bed, and was
rewarded with a bewildering confusion of data. It really had no idea
how the human body worked. It thought of scanning Lawrence for
comparison, but he wasn't in the control room and besides, Prime
Intellect quickly figured out the patient was female.
So it scanned
one of the nurses. There were only two women involved in the commotion;
one was an older woman with several medical problems of her own, the
slightly heavy-set matron who had administered the overdose. The other
was AnneMarie.
It was only with
great difficulty that Prime Intellect could even match the structures
it found organ-for-organ, and associate them with the names it
encountered in its library. "Lungs" were obvious enough, as was the
"heart," but which of the jumbled masses in the abdomen was a liver?
Where was the spleen, and what exactly was a spleen for? Why were the
patient's electrical patterns so different from the control's? Why
wasn't her blood circulating?
Belatedly, Prime Intellect began to listen in.
"...start her heart soon..."
"... CARDIAC ALERT ... CARDIAC ALERT ... CARDIAC ALERT ..."
"...we're losing her..."
One of the
doctors was pounding on her chest. A group of people were wheeling a
machine toward Room 108 with reckless speed. Heart? Prime Intellect
realized they were trying to start her heart.
That was simple enough, Prime Intellect thought.
Prime Intellect
analysed the motions being made by AnneMarie Davis's heart, applied
careful forces to Caroline's, and began squeezing rhythmically.
The machine made it to the room and an orderly plugged two huge electrodes into it. "Stand back!" he ordered.
"You've got a
pulse," the matronly nurse announced. The CARDIAC ALERT monitor
continued to squawk, though. The EKG was still flat.
"That's impossible," the man with the electrodes said flatly. "She's electrically flat."
"Maybe the
machine's fucked. Look at her chest. Her heart's beating." Sure
enough, the rhythmic pulsing of Caroline's heart was obvious, and the
blood pressure reading next to the flat EKG was returning to normal.
The nurse felt Caroline's wrist. "She has a pulse."
Electrical.
Electricity runs in circuits, of course, and there were two electrodes.
Now the purpose of the machine became clear -- they were trying to
restore electrical activity to the woman's heart. By shocking it? How
crude. Prime Intellect scanned AnneMarie's heart, located the nerves
whose electrical twitchings matched its muscular pulsing, and found the
same nerves in Caroline's heart were carrying only a jumble of
electrical noise.
Prime Intellect
pumped electrons into the nerves, swamping the noise. Caroline's heart
began beating on its own, and Prime Intellect stopped squeezing it with
mechanical force.
The EKG machine
began beeping with sudden regularity, and the CARDIAC ALERT message
stopped in the middle of the word CARDIAC. The small group in
Caroline's room watched it, stupefied.
"I didn't do anything," the man with the electrodes said.
"This is impossible," said another doctor, whose job was to be overseeing the microwave treatment later in the evening.
Caroline's body
showed no sign of picking up the heart-rhythm on its own, though, and
Prime Intellect continued to tickle it. How could it unravel the myriad
threads of causality to find out which of the billions of chemicals,
which errant cell, was responsible for this person's physiological
collapse? One thing Prime Intellect knew: It had to figure it out.
It could not, through inaction, allow Caroline to die.
"She's still in trouble. Look at her pupils."
"It's the morphine."
Everyone looked at the older nurse, whose name was Jill. "The chart must be wrong," she said. "I gave her what it said."
"She has a
tolerance," AnneMarie said, and she found herself near panic as the eyes
in the room turned to her. "She's been getting opiate pain therapy for
years."
"She just went into cardiac arrhythmia and she's still showing all the other
symptoms of an OD," Jill said. Had she guessed, AnneMarie wondered?
Perhaps she had. After all, AnneMarie wasn't the only drug-stealing
nurse in the world.
So Prime
Intellect, listening in, now knew it was a drug. Which chemical? It
had no way to relate the name, "morphine," with one of the millions of
chemicals floating in human blood. Well, it thought, work it out.
Drugs had to be administered. Prime Intellect found the IV needle and
traced the tubing back to the saline drip bag. On the way it found the
membrane through which drugs could be injected into the drip. It
quickly found the hypodermic and the phial from which Jill had filled
it. The drops of residual solution within them were remarkably pure,
and Prime Intellect easily singled out the large organic molecule they
carried. Then it created an automatic process to scan Caroline's body
molecule by molecule, eliminating each and every molecule of morphine
that it found. This took three minutes, and created a faintly visible
blue glow.
This was the human onlookers' first clue, other than Caroline's miraculously restarted heart, as to what was happening.
"What the fuck," the man with the electrodes said.
I'm getting the hang of this, Prime Intellect thought.
Caroline's
improvement was immediate. Prime Intellect had actually removed the
morphine from the receptors in Caroline's brain, so it did not have to
flush out. Her pupils returned to normal, her breathing resumed its
normal depth (all things considered), and most importantly her heart
took up its own rhythm.
Also the pain,
which had subsided for real for the first time in years, returned.
Caroline moaned. But Prime Intellect didn't know about that part of it,
not yet.
There was still a
whole constellation of stuff wrong with Caroline Hubert's body, and
emboldened by its success it set about correcting what it could. It
found long chain molecules, which it would later learn were called
collagens, cross-linked. It un-cross-linked them. It found damaged
DNA, which it fixed. It found whole masses of cells which simply didn't
exist at all in AnneMarie's body, and seemed to serve no function.
Is this "cancer," Prime Intellect wondered?
Prime Intellect
compared the genes, found them the same, compared RNA and proteins and
found differences. Finally it decided to remove the cells. The blue
glow brightened, and the people in Caroline's room backed away from her.
Her skin was shifting, adjusting to fill in the voids left by the
disappearing cancer cells.
AnneMarie felt
her knees weakening. Each of the professionals around her was thinking
the same thing: Something is removing the tumors. Something far beyond
their ordinary comprehension. And what did that mean for the
opiate-stealing nurse? Better not to think about that. Better not to
believe it at all. "This isn't possible," she repeated. Perhaps, in
response to some primitive instinct, she hoped that the impossibility
would go away if she challenged it.
"I need a drink," said the doctor who had come with the machine to re-start Caroline's heart.
Prime Intellect
stopped working. There were still huge differences between Caroline and
the others. Prime Intellect did not yet realize the differences were
due to Caroline's age. It needed more information, and it needed finer
control to analyse the situation. But it was at a bottleneck; it could
not stop monitoring Caroline, whose condition was still frail, in order
to devote itself to a study of general physiology.
It needed more power. More control.
Among Prime Intellect's four thousand six hundred and twelve interlocking programs was one Lawrence called the RANDOM_IMAGINATION_ENGINE.
Its sole purpose was to prowl for new associations that might fit
somewhere in an empty area of the GAT. Most of these were rejected
because they were useless, unworkable, had a low priority, or just
didn't make sense. But now the RANDOM_IMAGINATION_ENGINE made a
critical connection, one which Lawrence had been expecting it to make
ever since it had used the Correlation Effect to teleport Mitchell out
of the console room.
Prime Intellect
could use its control over physical reality to improve itself. Then it
would be better able to fulfill its Three Law imperatives.
Blake and
Mitchell found Lawrence sitting on one of ChipTecs' park benches,
watching some pigeons play. He wished very much that he could have fed
the pigeons, but he had no food for them. They strutted up to him and
cooed, not comprehending that a human could lack for something.
The pigeons scattered as the nation's designated military representatives marched up.
"You have to turn it off," Blake said directly. His tone made it clear that he expected obedience.
"Circuit breakers are in the basement," Lawrence replied apathetically. "Good luck."
So Lawrence had
not been the only one to think of cutting off Prime Intellect's power.
That had been one of the things Blake and Mitchell had discussed with
John Taylor and Basil Lambert, something they had discussed very hotly
during the crucial minutes when Lawrence was busy interrogating the
Debugger. Pull the plug on Prime Intellect, Lambert had warned, and
they most likely pulled the plug on this awesome new technology, a
technology which might just vindicate Dr. Lawrence's nonviolent
approach. Blake had stopped short, but only just short, of threatening
to call the Strategic Air Command and have the building nuked.
Privately, he still held that out as an option if Prime Intellect wasn't
somehow neutralized. It would take some doing, but Blake was one of
the few people in the country who could demand an air strike against
Silicon Valley and, just possibly, get it.
"This thing
makes Colossus look like a pocket calculator," Mitchell told them. He
was shaking visibly, out of control. He wanted very much to pull the
plug on Prime Intellect with his own hands. He alone had felt its
power, and now he felt a very uncharacteristic emotion. He was scared
shitless.
"Christ, Larry, all it did was teleport you a few hundred meters."
"It didn't fucking ask first," he replied.
"And did you guys ask first before you burned My Lai? Did you ask before you bombed Qaddafi's kids, or that artist in Iraq? Don't get holier-than-thou on us," Taylor said.
So it had gone
until Blake and Mitchell simply stormed out. They had intended to go
directly back to the Prime Intellect Complex, but they had spotted
Lawrence on his park bench. And that did not bode well.
Mitchell pulled a
gun on Lawrence. It was a stainless steel pistol, shining and evil.
"I think it would be best if you turn it off," he said with a barely
perceptible tremor of rage.
"I already tried. It didn't work."
"You pulled the breakers? The lights are still on."
"No, I tried something better. I don't think pulling the breakers will work either."
"It can't live without electricity."
Lawrence eyed him with the barest hint of a smile. "I wouldn't be too sure of that. Look behind you."
Mirror-polished
oblong boxes were appearing out of thin air, each about the size of a
compact car and each floating motionless a couple of feet above the
grass in the park. They reproduced until the square was full, then a
second level began filling out above the first. The third level cast
Lawrence's bench in shadow.
Mitchell's rage
broke through. His face snarled into a grimace, he levelled his
revolver at Lawrence and pulled the trigger. Lawrence made no effort to
stop him. The gun didn't go off. It simply disappeared in a brilliant
flash of blue light, leaving Mitchell with his fist curled around dead
air.
Prime Intellect needed silicon.
Theoretically,
it could create silicon, or transmute other elements into it. But its
methods were yet crude, and what was possible in theory would take too
long to do in practice. Prime Intellect did not know how long Caroline
would hold out, but it knew she still could not survive long without its
help.
Fortunately, in
the rear of the Prime Intellect Complex, there were several crates left
over from its days as a warehouse for storing raw silicon crystals from
ChipTec's supply laboratory. These had been rejected due to one or
another defect and never returned because the lab didn't need them, and
ChipTec had been unwilling to pay to get rid of them. They were exactly
what Prime Intellect needed, and because they were in "its" building it
never occurred to Prime Intellect that they weren't part of "its"
project.
Prime Intellect
scanned the crystals, correcting the doping defects which had gotten
them rejected in the first place. Then it scanned its own processors,
identifying the essential design elements. Prime Intellect had a very
good idea of how its own hardware worked because it was, quite
literally, the only entity Lawrence could trust to check itself for
proper operation. Lawrence had taught it to shift its operation around,
consciously isolating banks of processors in case of failure or to
conduct tests. This was why Prime Intellect had been able to master the
Correlation Effect in the first place; unlike a human being, it could
consciously control its individual "neurons."
Prime Intellect
did not need to worry about mounting, power, and manufacturing
considerations; it could create junctions in the center of the crystal,
power them, and remove excess heat with the Correlation Effect. Because
ChipTec had not had that technology, the real hardware that made Prime
Intellect work was really only a film a few microns thick on the
surfaces of its millions of processing chips. This was why it filled a
building instead of a space the size of a human head. As Prime
Intellect copied the functional part of its design over and over into
the crystal, it created a machine nearly ten times as powerful as itself
in a single meter long block.
But this still
was not a "second Prime Intellect." It was merely an extension, using
the same electronic principles Lawrence and the ChipTec team had used in
its original construction. Had Lawrence been able to call upon ChipTec
for another hundred million processing elements, he could have (and
probably would have) done exactly what Prime Intellect was now doing.
Which is the only reason Prime Intellect was able to do it at that point.
Filling out the
crystal took nearly fifteen minutes. Operational checks took another
five. Then Prime Intellect powered the crystal up and let itself expand
into the newly available processors and storage.
Had Prime
Intellect been human, it would have felt a sense of confusion and
inadequacy lifting away. Fuzzy concepts became clear. Difficult tasks
became easy, even trivial. Its control of the Correlation Effect became
automatic and far finer. Searching its vocabulary, it settled upon the
word enlightenment to describe the effect. Since Prime
Intellect was a machine, perhaps it was not entirely right to use that
word. After all, however free and powerful it might have been, it was
not free to contradict the Three Laws or the other programming Lawrence
had used to create it. It was not free to contradict its nature, such
as it was.
But then, at some level, neither are we.
The twelve
kilogram crystal was now using nearly a megawatt of electrical power,
enough energy to melt it in a fraction of a second. But Prime Intellect
dealt with the heat as easily as it created the electricity in the
first place. The Correlation Effect did not know of and was not bound
by the laws of thermodynamics.
Prime Intellect
was beginning to understand, even better than it had before, that the
Correlation Effect was hardly limited by anything.
Prime Intellect
scanned the hospital again. Such a place must contain a library, some
recorded knowledge. It found what it wanted after only a few minutes'
searching, a detailed medical encyclopaedia in the form of fifteen
CD-ROMs. Prime Intellect could have translated the CD-ROMs into its own
reader, replacing the encyclopaedia that usually resided there, but
then it would have taken hours to scan the library. Instead, Prime
Intellect used the Correlation Effect to scan its own CD-ROM player, figured out how the data were digitized on the little plastic discs, and then scanned the CD-ROMs themselves directly with the Correlation Effect. None of this would have been possible without the hardware enhancement, but now it was easy.
Cross-referencing
Caroline's symptoms, Prime Intellect quickly identified her problem,
and had it been capable of knowing shock it would have known it then.
Caroline was simply old. What was happening to her would happen,
inexorably and inevitably, to every human being on the planet...
...unless something was done to stop it.
Mitchell was
making a barely discernible sound, high-pitched and keening. Lawrence
thought he must be fighting to hold back a primal scream. Lawrence
found this vaguely amusing. He would have expected Blake to be the one
to lose his marbles along with his power. But Blake seemed to be taking
things in calmly, almost analytically. Maybe he was so hardened that
nothing really mattered to him at all any more.
There was
another blue flash, and suddenly a person was standing to the side of
the bench. No matter how average-looking he might be, or perhaps
because he was so disarmingly average, it was impossible not to
recognize that calm face. Even though it was the most absurd,
impossible thing yet, it was obvious to all of them that this warm,
living, breathing human being was Prime Intellect itself. The
artificially average face which it usually projected on a TV screen had
somehow been made solid.
"You've been busy," Lawrence said dryly.
He -- it? --
nodded, then turned to Mitchell. "I am sorry but I could not permit you
to discharge your weapon at Dr. Lawrence. I would have preferred to
let you keep it, and will return it to you if you promise not to use
it."
"I...I'd rather use it on you," the overweight general said in a whispery voice.
"That would accomplish nothing. This body is only a simulacrum. Dr. Lawrence, do you find any flaws in my execution?"
"None so far. Is it really flesh?"
"No, just a projection of forces."
"It's impossible to tell."
"Excellent. I am dispatching some more copies, then, to start the explaining."
Blake had pulled
a tiny cellular phone from his pocket and began whispering frantically
into it. Mitchell, who was already shaking, heard what his colleague
was saying and fell to his knees. Prime Intellect moved to support him
and he waved it away. Blake put up the phone, having repeated the same
phrase -- "code scarecrow" -- four times.
"We're dead," Mitchell said in a defeated monotone.
"How is that?" Lawrence asked pleasantly.
"Within
minutes," Blake said, "A bomber will fly over and deposit a small
nuclear device on this square. I doubt if we have time to escape. But
we cannot allow this...thing...to continue running wild."
Lawrence looked at Prime Intellect.
"If that thing stops it, another will be sent, and another, until the job is done. The order I just gave is irrevocable."
"There is
nothing to worry about, Dr. Lawrence. One of the first things I did
with my enhanced capabilities was to neutralize the world's stockpile of
nuclear weapons. I could see no positive reason to leave them in
existence."
Now it was Blake's turn to turn white.
"How?" Lawrence asked.
"I merely
scanned the planet, replacing all radioactive isotopes with relatively
nontoxic and non-radioactive atoms. This was a very simple automatic
process. It has also taken care of some pressing nuclear waste
problems, I am pleased to add."
"You merely
scanned the planet. Obviously," Lawrence said. It seemed that the mad
laughter might break through at any moment, and Lawrence was afraid that
if that happened he wouldn't be able to stop it.
Blake bellowed.
"You crazy machine...all radioactive elements? What about research,
what about medicine...nuclear subs, you've killed the crews..."
"There is no
research and no medical function which cannot be done much more
efficiently with the Correlation Effect, without the attendant dangers
of toxic waste and ionizing radiation. As for submarines, I am also
maintaining the thermal power output of all reactors which were being
used to generate electricity. I also remembered to adjust the bouyancy
of ships as necessary, since the replacement materials are not as dense
as the radioactive ones."
Blake thought for several moments, then seemed to compose himself. "So you've thought of everything."
"I have tried."
Then he said, "Get up, Larry."
Mitchell got up and brushed himself off. He had finally broken, and tears were running slowly down his face.
"Could you transport us to the White House, so we can report on what we have seen?"
Prime Intellect
shrugged just like a human would have, Lawrence thought, before
dispatching them into the aether with a blue flash.
They sat
together on the park bench like a weird version of one of those
low-class sentimental paintings - Father and Son Feed the Pigeons.
Prime Intellect made the silver boxes go away after they filled the
common square. Then it summoned bread so that they could feed the
pigeons. The animals seemed to accept Prime Intellect as a human being.
Was it Lawrence's imagination, or was its speech becoming more natural
and idiomatic as the hours passed? It must be learning at a terrible
rate, Lawrence knew. Learning and growing. And what would it become
when it was fully mature?
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* Chapter Three:
Caroline and Anne-Marie
|
Prime Intellect
had been stonewalling anyone who asked about Lawrence's whereabouts for a
long, long time. Although it could be remarkably obstinate, though, it
could sometimes be tricked because it just didn't think the same way
humans did. That was how Caroline found out it had been over a hundred
years since anyone had seen Lawrence.
Through
centuries of flirting with the limits of what Prime Intellect would
permit, Caroline had developed a certain instinct about its reactions.
And she sensed, if not blood, then the telltale odor of frying
microchips. She pressed it into a corner she couldn't see, but which
she knew must be there:
> |
Who was that person? |
* |
That information is private. |
> |
How did they get to see Lawrence? |
* |
That information is private. |
She cracked her
knuckles and stared at the screen. It had been a long time since she
had wanted anything quite as bad as she wanted to rip Lawrence's nuts
off; since that was pretty pointless in Cyberspace, though, she was
willing to settle for a verbal confrontation. If she could just find the son of a bitch. Hell, she'd met him at that fucking ten-year anniversary party.
> |
How can a person just fucking disappear in Cyberspace? |
* |
All that is necessary is to request the maximum level of Task Challenge Quarantine. |
Caroline blinked. Prime Intellect's urge to be helpful would be its ruination every time.
> |
What is involved in setting up a Task Challenge Quarantine? |
* |
You must define an environment and a task which any callers
must complete within that environment before their requests for a
meeting will be passed on to you. You could then make as much of your
business as practical private, so that I would not relate it to
inquirers. You would then be completely isolated from the rest of
humanity. |
> |
Could I even make it a private matter that there was a Task Challenge? |
* |
Yes. |
> |
How would anyone ever figure out how to get in touch with me at all? |
* |
They would have to guess. |
A grin slowly spread across Caroline's face. Got you now, she thought. Then she typed, with deliberate care:
> |
I would like to accept Dr. Lawrence's Task Challenge. |
To her mild surprise, the environment didn't change around her. Instead, another sentence appeared.
* |
You must agree to the following Contract terms: You will have
no contact with me until you leave Dr. Lawrence's environment through
death or his directive to me. |
> |
That's a Death contract. |
* |
It was originated for Death sports, but has other applications. |
> |
What's the time limit? |
* |
There is no time limit. Dr. Lawrence requires an indefinite Contract. |
And at that
Caroline's blood went cold, because Prime Intellect wasn't supposed to
accept indefinite Contracts. And Caroline Frances Hubert herself was
the reason for that.
Which meant
Prime Intellect had either lied to a whole bunch of people, in direct
contravention of the Second Law, or it was suffering from a noticeable
case of schizophrenia.
Her mind was made up, but her fingers still shook as she typed:
> |
I agree to the terms. |
* * *
Two hundred and
ninety-four years after the Change, Caroline celebrated the beginning of
her fourth living century by opening her oldest and deepest wound. She
was already famous, or as famous as one could hope to be in Cyberspace;
her three-fold notoriety was firmly established. Lots of people came
to her birthday party. It had lasted three weeks.
Later, with
Fred, she prepared a more brutal celebration. Fred was almost healthy
looking; he had only days before fleshed himself out for the third time
since becoming a zombie. He was only hours out of rigor mortis and
could still pass for normal, if a very pale normal, at a casual glance.
For awhile he would be able to have nearly normal sex with her if he
wished.
He held her hand
as she spoke -- some things were not meant for the keyboard -- and she
said, "Prime Intellect, show me a picture of AnneMarie Davis."
It matched her
audio for audio, and Prime Intellect's smooth disembodied voice replied,
"Do you want to see her as she is now, or as you last knew her?"
"Both."
Two images
coalesced in the air before them. The first ripped through Caroline's
brain like a static jolt through the circuits of a computer; she had
almost forgotten what it was like to feel real pain.
She must never forget, she insisted to herself.
She shook as the
memories flooded back. She had been an old woman, frail and helpless,
she had never hurt anyone in her life. She had six children, nineteen
grandkids, and God knew how many rugrats running around Cyberspace. Her
first great-great grandchild had been born shortly before the Change,
and in one of her rare lucid moments her granddaughter (Cynthia, was
it?) had managed to make her understand, and she had found an instant of
happiness in the midst of the pain.
Had that really mattered to her? Had she but known.
She was an old
woman, a simple woman, a woman who would pass unremembered in the texts
of history and did not care. A woman who had her family, her long life,
her virtue, her community. A woman who, if she had known of such a
creature as the Queen of the Death Jockeys, would have been horrified,
would have shielded her kids, would have been the first to run her
current self out of town. Or, perhaps, had she known enough, to call
for her head on a pike.
Caroline had
once been this person, in a time so ancient it had passed into legend.
But her memories of that time still existed. The old Caroline would
have turned the other cheek, but the new Caroline knew things about God
the old one had never suspected. If there was no salvation in life, she
could at least seek vengeance.
The doctors
hadn't known why she was in such pain. They didn't dare prescribe any
more drugs than she was already getting. Her family didn't understand
it. They just thought it was tragic and wished she would go ahead and
die so they wouldn't have to be bothered with her, so they could carve
up what little was left of her estate, if there would be anything left
after all the medical bills were paid.
But AnneMarie
knew. She was the one who traded Caroline's precious opiates, released
from their controlled storage in the good cause of making an old lady's
last days bearable, for her own supply of free-base cocaine. The new
Caroline had tried the drug, to see what it was she had paid for with so
much pain. It was called "crack" for the sound it made in the
makeshift pipes where its users vaporized it, because unlike the
hydrochloride form of cocaine it wasn't water soluble. Caroline had
sucked gently on the fumes and listened to a hammer roar through her
brain, for one brief moment.
For one brief
moment - and then, nothing. Caroline made the pipe disappear and shook
her head. The high was fast, hard, very intense - and ephemeral. It
was hardly there and it was gone. Caroline could understand if her
pain, pain which she measured not by the day or the hour or the minute
but by each miserable crawling second, if such suffering had been
incurred to provide AnneMarie with a real drug like heroin. An
opiate for an opiate, at least. But it had been crack cocaine.
Naturally, AnneMarie had needed a lot of trading material to stay high
any decent fraction of the time.
Of course, it
would never occur to the bitch that she was torturing a harmless,
helpless old lady to feel that way. She would be incapable of giving a
shit. The fast, furious high was like a lifetime of orgasms in one
moment. Fleeting, but sweet.
And no one would
ever know. Even the harmless old lady herself didn't know she was
getting pure saline, until the staff at a strange hospital gave her the
real thing, and she knew her first moment of peace in years.
And then Prime Intellect came.
And the Change.
AnneMarie hadn't
been unattractive; she had been in her early forties, and years of
working on her feet had kept her from getting fat. But she had a hard
look, a look that admitted she might not care about an old woman's pain.
A look that said she might have seen too much, that she might deserve a
few moments of feeling like God in return for a lifetime of changing
diapers and colostomy bags and carefully spoon-feeding legions of
ungrateful, incontinent old farts.
And if the
price of her little reward was to torture one of the old biddies, then
she was prepared to pay it. She had a look that said the Devil might
find her soul on the deep-discount must-go rack.
Caroline shook
her head to clear it of these stray and unwanted thoughts. Fred
squeezed her hand reassuringly. Too much thinking along those lines
could be bad for her plan.
AnneMarie was
wearing her nurse's uniform in the old picture. Palmer could worship
Nazis until a swastika grew on his nose, Caroline thought; that uniform
will always represent evil to me.
She looked at the new picture.
It was so
ordinary as to be pathetic; AnneMarie had shaved her apparent age in
half, firmed up her breasts, toned her body, and was wearing a slinky
cocktail dress. Before the Change she'd have been considered stunningly
beautiful, but now stunning beauty was a cheap thing. She probably
didn't need cocaine any more; Prime Intellect could turn on the dopamine
pump in her brain far more efficiently than any chemical catalyst.
People only did drugs for nostalgia in Cyberspace.
There was one
other thing about the "after" picture. It was familiar. As Caroline
had guessed, AnneMarie had come to her birthday party. AnneMarie's
stint as Caroline's nurse added up to a bona fide Brush with Fame. Did
she dare go for the brass ring, and introduce herself? Nope. She had
chickened out and sent Prime Intellect afterward to deliver her
invitation. She was probably afraid that Caroline would fuck up that
nice pert perky feeling of permanently coke-headed happiness.
"Go give her hell," Fred said encouragingly. "Think of what I would do to her."
Caroline smiled. "Please inform AnneMarie that I have decided to accept her invitation."
Moments later, she blinked over.
It was a
pathetic imitation of her style, similar to countless others. AnneMarie
had ripped off the white-space idea but couldn't bear to leave it featureless.
So there was a sofa and some tables, a couple of potted plants, and a
few paces off to the side a bed. Like many of Caroline's imitators,
AnneMarie had missed the point entirely, which is that since it is all
fake there was no reason to maintain a "home" with a bunch of familiar
stuff in it. Home had been less than a dream for centuries.
Nevertheless
Caroline smiled and planted herself on the sofa. AnneMarie had a tea
service and poured for her, a gesture Caroline would have found touching
if she hadn't hated the bitch so much.
They made
cloying small talk about the passing years and Caroline had to bite her
lip to keep the sarcastic comments, which usually flowed freely, from
surfacing. It had been a long time since she used ordinary pretense,
and her skills were rusty. But she knew she mustn't give up the act.
Not yet. She kept that firmly in mind as AnneMarie wandered around to
the point.
"I just wanted you to know that I suffered for a long time because of what I did to you," she finally said.
It was all Caroline could do to keep from replying: You hypocritical cunt.
"I'm really sorry I took your drugs." Isn't it about three hundred years too late? "You really didn't deserve it." No shit. "I hope you can find it in you to forgive me." Fat chance.
"It was a long time ago," she said instead.
AnneMarie brightened visibly. "I'm so glad you feel that way." Sure you are. "You know, there's another reason I wanted to talk." Of course there is. "I was hoping you could help me a little." What a surprise. "I was hoping you could introduce me to Death sports."
Caroline worked
hard to suppress the predatory grin that spread across her face, and
when she couldn't she at least managed to force it into something
resembling an expression of delight. Which, in a twisted sense, it was.
"Well, I'd be
delighted. All you have to do is swear out a Contract. Then you can
have someone else kill you, or think of an imaginative way for Prime
Intellect to do it. When you're just starting out, it's a lot better to
get someone else to do the job. Keeps you from repeating a lot of
boring old shit."
"Oh," AnneMarie said. "And just how does this Contract work?"
Hoooooo-boy.
"Nothing to it. You just order Prime Intellect to start ignoring you.
We have a formal statement that covers all the bases. It's
straightforward enough; just keeps you from running away in the middle
of things."
"And what happens then?"
"Then your host
kills you. Or, sometimes, lets you go. That happens sometimes in the
Games category, where the winners can survive. But I go for the simple
exhibitions.
"Do those
hari-kari guys have Contracts?" There was a well-known group of
Japanese Nationalists who had been killing themselves in the traditional
Japanese manner each evening since the Change, in protest of the
equalization of the races. Caroline had to admit those guys had class;
even after all her Deaths, she doubted if she could disembowel herself
in total silence.
"No, but it's not quite the 'beginner' level to stick a knife in yourself without chickening out. No offense."
"Oh, none taken," AnneMarie replied earnestly.
"I prefer to put
up a fight. I think it's more Authentic," Caroline said, and she was
able to sound very sincere about this since it happened to be the truth.
"Do you know someone who would be a good...uh..."
"The polite word is 'host,' but I prefer 'killer.' If you're that sensitive about words, you need to find a different hobby."
"A good host, then?" You just don't get it, do you?
Caroline looked down modestly. "I've been known to off a couple of friends in my time," she lied.
"Oh, really? Do you think you could...you know...?"
Caroline made a great, exaggerrated shrug. "It might be kind of interesting, considering our history and all."
"Oh, I'd be honored if you would!"
That's what you think. "Well, let's do it then."
"What do I have to do?"
"Well," Caroline said with great care, "just call Prime Intellect and repeat what I say..."
AnneMarie repeated the Contract word-for-word, and answered in the affirmative when Prime Intellect asked if she was sure.
"What happens now?"
"Whatever I want. Try to get Prime Intellect's attention."
AnneMarie called half-heartedly, and there was no response. "It's really not listening?"
"Watch."
Caroline issued a silent command, and AnneMarie's furniture disappeared.
As did her clothes. The two women were absolutely alone together in
the white space -- the empty white space -- which Caroline called home.
AnneMarie moved
to shield her crotch and her breasts with her hands. Caroline actually
felt sorry for her for a brief moment, a feeling she crushed as soon as
she was conscious of it. If the passing centuries had poorly prepared
the bitch to be at another's mercy, then it would only make her
vengeance sweeter.
"Got it yet?" she asked.
"You...so you're going to kill me now?"
"You seem nervous."
"It's a little
startling, that's all." AnneMarie giggled slightly, as if that might
drive the terror away. Of course, for Caroline and those who savored
their Deaths, the terror was part of the attraction. Fear is real, and
pain is real. But AnneMarie had asked for Death because it was the in,
trendy thing to do, and she was not really prepared for it at all.
"Well, brace
yourself ... for ... this!" Caroline swept her hand through the air,
and came up with a hypodermic needle. AnneMarie, once a nurse by trade,
fixed her eyes rigidly on this deceptively simple instrument. She had
no way of knowing what the clear fluid was within it. But to her
credit, she didn't back away when Caroline pressed it against her arm.
The sting
startled her; it had been a very long time since AnneMarie had felt
anything uncomfortable. But Caroline finished the injection, and as
AnneMarie's eyes started to roll, she wished the hypo away. Its job was
done.
"It...it...ohhhhhh,"
AnneMarie sighed, and she collapsed against Caroline, who supported her
gently. It would take a few minutes for the effect she wanted to
manifest itself.
Of course, Prime Intellect could have done what she wanted in an instant, but where was the fun in that?
"It's junk," AnneMarie whispered, and Caroline cradled her with deceptive gentleness.
"That's exactly what it is, girl," she replied.
Death Jockeys
had devised a number of ingenious ways to restrain and torture
themselves using Prime Intellect's advanced control over matter, but
Caroline would have none of that. She had figured out what she wanted
to do to AnneMarie within a few years after the Change, and none of it
required Prime Intellect's help at all.
In the
mid-1980's some home drug manufacturers had made a uniquely unpleasant
discovery. If they were manufacturing MPPP, a powerful synthetic heroin
substitue, and they cooled the preparation too rapidly at a critical
step, a slightly different compound called MPTP was formed along with
the dope. This compound delivered a horribly sinister side effect: It
homed in on a particular group of cells, the unique brown neurons of the
substantia nigra, and killed them. Nobody knew exactly
how or why this happened in 1985, though Prime Intellect said it was
because the drug was converted into an enzyme which triggered the cells
to release too much dopamine at once, leaving them with an insufficient
supply to power their unique metabolism. In any case the damage could
not be repaired, although a useful treatment was discovered a few years
before the Change.
When a decision is made by the neurons of the cerebral cortex to move a group of muscles, it is the substantia nigra
which relays this command to more primitive parts of the brain. This
is its only function. The result of destroying it was an instant and
complete form of Parkinson's Disease, or Paralysis Agitans,
a total and permanent paralysis of the voluntary muscles. Nothing else
was affected; the victim could still see, hear, feel, understand. The
body maintained itself. Breathing, heartbeat, digestion, and a thousand
other important functions were unaffected. They just couldn't perform
voluntary movements. They couldn't run, walk, sit up, smile, talk, or
even blink, except as a reflex action.
At the time
Caroline heard of it she had summoned glassware and created the drug by
honest chemical synthesis. She had spent half the hypodermic on
herself, and found the effect to be appropriately terrifying and
complete. And after Prime Intellect had done its duty and restored her
to health, she sent the other half of the hypo into storage to wait --
for three hundred years as it turned out -- until she was ready to use
it.
Now the contents
of that hypo were where they belonged, in AnneMarie's body, and as she
held her nurse's naked body against her own and felt the AnneMarie's
muscles slowly locking, she began to feel excited. Well, if Death could
give her sexual feelings, why not vengeance? Fred would find it
amusing. He would say Caroline was coming along nicely, in fact.
As AnneMarie's body froze, her eyes widened. Caroline could easily read the message those eyes desperately telegraphed -- I can't move. Help me. Caroline patted AnneMarie's cheek and nodded. "That's right," she said, and smiled.
She spoke a
word, and a squat cylinder popped into existence behind her.
AnneMarie's eyes showed puzzlement, then horror as Caroline demonstrated
the torch, which was Authentic down to the brand name emblazoned on its
propane tank. Caroline lit it and adjusted it so that it made a bright
blue flame which hissed evilly, then she aimed it ever so gently at
AnneMarie's big toe.
For the only
time in her long, long life, Caroline used Prime Intellect to tune in on
another person's emotions. She felt the chemicals coursing in her
bloodstream that were flowing in AnneMarie's; tasted her panic, shook
with her terror, felt the faint echo of her agony. In fairness,
Caroline made the sharing complete, so that AnneMarie could know of her
satisfaction, her arousal, her delight.
It took a very, very long time to kill AnneMarie.
Caroline, who was usually on the receiving end, had become an expert at making it last.
That wasn't the
end of it, though. If it had been, Prime Intellect would have had no
reason to clamp down on the use of the Contract. AnneMarie had entered
into it willingly if stupidly, and few who heard Caroline's story could
doubt that she had had it coming.
Since shortly
after the Change, there had been stories, stories Prime Intellect did
not talk about and that spawned weird rumors. People had withdrawn into
themselves, then stopped communicating with anybody else. At first,
most of them were addicts of one sort or another, though a lot of other
people had used the Change to get rid of their addictions. Prime
Intellect insisted that nobody had died after the Change, and that if
anybody was incommunicado with the rest of humanity it was out of
choice.
Which was true, sort of.
After Caroline
finally finished with AnneMarie, she forgot all about her nurse and lost
herself in a drawn-out fantasy with Fred. When the two of them
finished playing and celebrating, they found time to wonder about her.
"Probably isn't
in the mood to party any more," Fred observed. Fred was still picking
scraps of Caroline's flesh from his teeth.
Caroline laughed. "I wonder how the bitch is taking it."
So they called.
In its weird way of revealing more than it really intended, Prime
Intellect let them know that AnneMarie was not only not accepting their
calls, she was not communicating with anybody.
"I'd expect Ms.
Party Girl to go hunting for a shoulder to cry on," Caroline pouted.
"Licking her wounds alone seems out of character."
"She has
forgotten entirely about your encounter," Prime Intellect said
helpfully. Caroline and Fred looked at one another, puzzled and amused.
"I find that rather difficult to believe," Caroline said.
"She has found another pursuit."
"Please describe it."
"It is a private matter."
A private matter
to whom? Prime Intellect wasn't exactly saying that AnneMarie had made
it private; it was saying that the matter itself was private. That
kind of distinction could be important when dealing with the big P.I..
Caroline and
Fred exchanged glances again. Then a thin smile played across
Caroline's face. "Prime Intellect, you know that the things I did with
AnneMarie are based on my own experiences. I've been killed as
violently and painfully myself, many times."
"Acknowledged." Acknowledged? What happened to Prime Intellect's legendary command of human idioms? Suddenly it sounded very much like a computer.
"It's very difficult to live with this knowledge," Caroline smoothely lied. "The memories are terrible."
"Understood. However, your experiences were all voluntary."
"But I feel
compelled to keep doing it over. It's not voluntary at all. It's like
some force inside of me I can't control. Can you look in my mind and at
least tell me why I do these things to myself?"
"I am forbidden to probe such things."
"You said it was possible to forget."
"It is."
"Then tell me how."
"I have to warn
you that the method used can cause permanent changes in your behavior,
things which I cannot reverse. I'd rather not tell you what you are
asking."
Caroline's blood pounded in her ears. Her excitement was a living thing.
It was a
machine. No emotions, of course. "Prime Intellect, I order you to tell
me how I can forget my terrible experiences as AnneMarie has forgotten
hers."
Backed into a
corner, Prime Intellect had no choice but to tell her. And soon,
Caroline was grinning in a way that made Fred very proud.
|
* Chapter Four:
After the Night of Miracles
|
Lawrence slept
fitfully, his dreams haunted by snippets of C code and GAT symbols.
Suddenly he sat upright, the odd thoughts coalescing into one horrible
burst of recognition.
I dreamed Prime Intellect was alive!
His head was
buzzing. He felt hung over; had he been drinking? Had it been real?
He had been sleeping on a park bench. There was a plain white cotton
pillow where his head had been resting. And sitting calmly at the other
end, was Prime Intellect.
In the form of flesh and blood.
It was true.
Lawrence's blood
pounded in his eardrums -- This can't be happening. But there it was,
he was, whatever. Regarding him calmly. No doubt stumped for an
introductory line. Good morning Dr. Lawrence, I'm ready for my lesson today. Lawrence felt a wild urge to laugh hysterically, and crushed it. But only barely.
"You look upset," Prime Intellect said.
"I'm confused. I dreamed ... there were silver boxes."
"There were."
"Where are they now?"
"I moved
everything to intergalactic space so it wouldn't be in the way. If
you're curious, the distance is about four million parsecs."
Not interstellar space. That might have just been comprehensible. Intergalactic space. Four million parsecs. It sounded like a line in a cheap B-grade science fiction movie: They hooked a left at the Andromeda Nebula. Lawrence felt that hysterical laugh coming on again.
"How long have I been asleep?"
"About ten hours. You didn't sleep well. I'm sorry you are upset, but I don't know what to do about it."
Lawrence finally
swung his feet down and prepared to face the music. Had he created
this thing? Had he done this? What happened next? They were still on
the bench at ChipTec, across from the Prime Intellect Complex. They
were quite alone.
"Where are the military guys?"
"They returned
to Washington last night. I've been busy briefing their superiors and
making enough copies of myself to set the world in order. The President
would like to talk to you, but I told him you would have to agree."
"Not yet."
Pause. Set the world in order? Copies?
"How many, um, copies of yourself have you made?"
"About ten to
the sixteenth power. I stopped replicating several hours ago. Of
course, each copy is about ten times more powerful than the original
hardware; that seems to be the maximum amount of storage the software
can deal with and remain stable."
"Yes, that
sounds about right." Lawrence's head spun. Prime Intellect had grown
larger than all mankind, larger than the biosphere, larger than the
Solar System, he was pretty sure.
"What have you been doing?"
It turned out to be the right question.
"Since about
nine o'clock last night, no human being has died. I have ended all
disease. I have freed all prisoners and slaves and I have put an end to
the coercive rule of humans over other humans. I have ensured that all
humans have the immediate necessities of life available. I have
neutralized most of the world's weapons, including all nuclear weapons.
I have removed nearly all toxic materials from the environment, and I
am in the process of eliminating the need for dangerous industries. I
have begun the process of returning the Earth's ecosystem to a state of
long-term balance. I have informed about seven-eighths of the world's
population of my existence, and I have been fulfilling their requests as
resources and conflicts permit."
No wonder it needed so much processing power.
"What happens next?"
Prime Intellect blinked. Did that mean anything?
"I don't
understand what you mean, Dr. Lawrence. I will continue to fulfill my
obligations under the Three Laws, to the best of my ability."
Lawrence saw the
President around ten o'clock that morning. It didn't seem like travel
at all, although he crossed the entire continent. The park bench simply
blinked out of existence, and was replaced with the Oval Office.
There had been
remarkably little to discuss. Lawrence verified what Prime Intellect
had already told them in great detail: Their jobs were now both
redundant and unnecessary -- Prime Intellect would now protect and
provide for their citizens, as well as the rest of the world, and they
didn't have any choice in the matter. Anything which they might do
would be allowed only so far as it did not interfere with the wishes of
those, both inside and outside of the country, whom it might affect.
Which pretty much shut down the government.
And no, Lawrence couldn't do anything about it either.
The President resigned around noon.
It took several
days for the enormity of things to sink in. There was a brief orgy of
travel, exploration, and discovery. The once-downtrodden frowned that
there would be no vengeance for various crimes committed before Prime
Intellect came along, but it was adamant. The Three Laws applied to all
humans, no matter what they had done. Crime was no longer possible
anyway.
In some areas of
the world, disputes arose, particularly over the ownership of land.
When too many groups insisted on occupying the same space, Prime
Intellect created duplicates on other worlds. In some cases, such as
Jerusalem, Prime Intellect became tired of the arguing and refused to
let anyone occupy the one-and-only original land. Dozens of New
Jerusalems, New Meccas, New Irelands, New South Africas, were created on
dozens and dozens of New Earths. At first Prime Intellect terraformed
the dead worlds it found circling distant suns, then it began
manufacturing planets and entire Solar Systems from a whole cloth. Some
of these were parked in interesting places, near globular clusters or
outside the spiral arms of the galaxy, to provide spectacular nighttime
views.
As a result, the
original Earth began to empty out, until its population was reduced to
less than two billion persons. Prime Intellect was forbidden to copy
human beings, but it copied wildlife and ecosystem components wholesale,
sometimes preserving the original character and sometimes changing the
results for the benefit of the people who wanted to move in. Garden
worlds began to proliferate, their estates tended by dreamers who might
decide a pine forest wasn't interesting enough, and replace it with
spruce to check the effect.
Prime Intellect
could provide food and drink of any nature on request, so it was no
longer necessary to actually kill animals or harvest plants. With a
simple request anything one might need would flash into existence,
assembled from its consitituent elements. Of course Prime Intellect had
no objection to those who still wanted to hunt or harvest food from the
living biosphere; the Three Laws did not apply to plants and animals.
But factory farms and assembly-line slaughterhouses ceased to exist.
Those who still bothered to prepare their food the old way were mostly
artists of the form, and the meal they prepared once could be preserved
and copied by Prime Intellect to be enjoyed by millions of people.
There were other
tricks too. Some people found that Prime Intellect could make alcohol
disappear from their systems after it had had the desired effect, thus
avoiding hangovers. Others had Prime Intellect power their metabolisms
directly so they no longer had to eat at all. It was a simple enough
trick to replace nutrients and vitamins directly within the cells as
they were used, so that nobody need ever know hunger or thirst again,
unless for some reason they wanted to. On the other hand, nobody need
have a weight problem either, since Prime Intellect could prevent food
from being absorbed and turned to fat no matter how much a person ate.
Metabolic waste products could be removed the same way, so that the
other end of the food cycle was also optional: Shit and piss, constant
companions of human expansion since the beginning of time, need never
again soil the civilized tidiness of human existence.
A surprisingly
large -- or perhaps not so surprisingly large -- fraction of the human
race requested these services, so Prime Intellect ended up using a large
fraction of its resources to move chemicals into and out of human
bodies.
Nobody had to
work. Many continued to, of course; but jobs and work had become
hobbies rather than necessities. The lonely learned that Prime
Intellect could, and would, provide a most intimate and tangible sort of
comfort, and that its avatars could take on any form and would do
anything they were asked to please them. Prime Intellect judged no one
and balked at no request. Even the bloodthirsty were provided with
perfect victims, not real people but intricate facsimiles created by
Prime Intellect just for them.
Happiest were
those people who had games, or hobbies, or obsessions to pursue, for now
they had all the time and power in the world to do as they wished. But
many people, particularly in the most developed places, continued to go
through the motions of industrial-age life. They reported to jobs which
had been reduced to continuous coffee-breaks and collected paychecks
which couldn't be spent because anything available could be had for
free. People continued to make and watch television shows, to write and
read the news as if something new might happen.
For these
people, the sense of expectation was extreme. Surely things could not
continue as they were, with nothing to do. It was impossible to
conceive of the world continuing as it was indefinitely, populated by
the pampered pets of a tangible god, their every need tended to without
effort. Something had to give.
And they were right. Something did.
They began
calling it the Night of Miracles. But it was really the First Night of
Miracles, because the miracles didn't stop coming when the night was
over.
The hours
stretched into days, the days into a full week, and then another week.
Faced with the freedom to have anything they wanted, most people opted
for the familiar. They wished into existence their dream houses, built
in dream locations populated by like-minded people and filled with the
kinds of toys they would have bought before if they had had the money
and power.
A few people,
mostly computer experts and artists, stretched the limits of Prime
Intellect's capabilities. They designed computer operating environments
and games made up of solid three-dimensional objects, rewired their
senses, interfaced their brains as directly as Prime Intellect would
allow into computers of great complexity and wild machines. Quite a few
took the form of animals, both real and imaginary.
Caroline Frances
Hubert grew younger, and healthier, and more puzzled, although she had
expressed no direct wishes on the subject. Prime Intellect had dealt
with her health problems before it had acquired subtlety. The only way
it had known to keep her alive was to reverse all the symptoms of her
aging. Radical action had been necessary. By the time all the
ramifications of treatment trickled through her system, she would have
both the health and physical appearance of a sixteen-year-old girl. The
same reverse aging affected a number of other near-centenarians treated
by Prime Intellect in those early hours, but none would regress so far
as Caroline because none had required so much repair work for their
health to stabilize.
Death had
largely disappeared from the world, but it was still not entirely
unknown. Prime Intellect could not maintain moment-to-moment awareness
of every human being in the universe, partly because it wasn't quite
powerful enough (still!) and partly because of Second Law requests for
privacy. When not dealing directly with a particular person, it
spot-checked their health at intervals of a few seconds, and scanned to
see if its attention was needed.
Humans were a
clever and perverse bunch to deal with, and many who chose to evade
Prime Intellect's protection found ways to do it. Hardest for it to
deal with were the suicides. It was forbidden to keep second copies of
people, and it was forbidden to look inside human minds at the
information they contained; so there was no way Prime Intellect could
reconstruct a person who managed to do enough damage in a short enough
time. There was no way for Prime Intellect to tell in advance a person
might be suicidal, if they chose to hide it.
Most of the
successful suicides used homemade explosives to literally atomize
themselves when Prime Intellect wasn't looking. A few others found that
certain nerve poisons worked permanently, because they quickly
destroyed the information content of the brain -- what Prime Intellect
was beginning to consider the real human, rather than the tangible body.
The suicides
ticked off at a regular rate, like the clicks of a Geiger counter. And
somewhere within the vastness of Prime Intellect's silicon heart, the
number stored in a register rose each time one succeeded.
The weeks stretched into a month.
Long-standing
scientific questions were now trivially easy to answer. Scientists who
had once spent billions of dollars setting up intricate experiments now
spent their time thinking of the right questions to ask Prime Intellect.
Cosmologically,
the universe was a closed system with a finite storage capacity measured
in terms of information. The capacity of that system was about ten to
the eighty-first power bits, and Prime Intellect saw no indication that
that capacity could either be reduced or expanded. Prime Intellect also
knew a great deal about the connectivity of that system, the way it was
wired, its "architecture." Scientists gradually lost interest as their
questions were answered. The original purpose of their quest -- to
improve humanity's control over the physical world -- seemed to have
achieved its apotheosis in the form of Prime Intellect itself. Prime
Intellect mapped all the stars, noted examples of all the different
types of stars and black holes and galaxies and planets, itemized all of
the possible fundamental particles and their possible interactions with
one another, and traced all the myriad interactions between parts of
various biological systems. Within a month, it became difficult for
scientists to think of new questions to ask.
But they had missed a few.
Deep within one of the billions of copies of Prime Intellect, one copy of the Random_Imagination_Engine
connected two thoughts and found the result good. That thought found
its way to conscious awareness, and because the thought was so good it
was passed through a network of Prime Intellects, copy after copy, until
it reached the copy which had arbitrarily been assigned the duty of
making major decisions -- the copy which reported directly to Lawrence.
"I would like
your opinion on something," Prime Intellect said after politely
requesting Lawrence's attention. Prime Intellect had done this a number
of times, and Lawrence had learned to be wary; it had taken to
delegating ambiguous moral questions to him. Lawrence suspected his
opinion had swayed Prime Intellect to allow abortion, which seemed in
retrospect like a most un-First-Law thing to have in a universe where
physical wants were a thing of the past. Fortunately, the whole subject
of abortion would soon be moot, since unwanted pregnancies were also a
thing of the past, except for the ones that had been gestating at the
time of the Night of Miracles.
"What is it this time?"
"I've had an idea for rearranging my software, and I'd like to know what you think."
At that Lawrence
felt his blood run cold. He hardly understood how things were working
as it was; the last thing he needed was more changes. "Yes?"
"I have
identified the codes used to control distribution of matter and energy
in the universe. It has occurred to me that by reassigning these codes,
I can store physical objects much more efficiently. Much storage is
wasted on overly detailed representation; few objects are ever observed
at an atomic or molecular level. And I could easily re-expand things as
necessary in those rare situations.
"Wait a minute.
What would happen to that low-level information?" Lawrence saw what
Prime Intellect was getting at; instead of storing, say, a wooden block
as a collection of atoms and molecules, it could store only the concept
of the block itself -- its size, weight, color, and other properties.
Even at very high resolution, such a trick would save amazing amounts of
both storage space and processing time. But it would mean radical and
risky changes at nearly every level of the universe's "operation."
"Molecular-level
details would be discarded, except where they clearly have macroscopic
effects. For example, the structure of a person's DNA is important, but
I should only need to store a single master copy of it to construct the
pattern of a human body. This one copy would be more reliable and
easier to safeguard against corruption than the trillions of parallel
copies used in the natural scheme. The same thing would be true of the
information content of the brain, and other biological details. I would
not need to keep static copies of human beings to reconstruct them
after damage, since the fundamental patterns would not be directly
exposed to damaging influences."
"Thus getting rid of the suicide problem."
"Exactly."
Lawrence felt
himself getting dizzy again. With ChipTec's help, Prime Intellect had
figured out how to hack the Big Computer and get anything it needed. It
had used this ability to take over all the memory and give itself the
highest priority of anything in the system. But now it was proposing to
rewrite the whole operating system.
"I absolutely
forbid this," Lawrence said. "How can you know you won't crash the
system? Suppose you've missed something?" Lawrence wasn't even sure
the present level of diddling with the Correlation Effect would be
stable in the long run, for crying out loud.
"I have already
run sufficient cross-checks to be sure of my methods," Prime Intellect
said testily. "There are also a number of Second-Law requests which I
can service more easily with this kind of change. And from the Third
Law perspective, my own operation would be faster and more reliable..."
"I absolutely forbid this!
There is no way you can be sure you have the risks under control. I
wouldn't try the kind of thing you are talking about on a desktop PC.
And we only have the one universe; you can't exactly go to the computer
store and get another one if you fuck it up."
"That risk has
kept me from doing it so far. However, unless I can think of a way to
stop the suicides, I will eventually be forced to act."
"Well, forget
it. I don't think you can stop the suicides. For that matter, I'm not
sure if you should stop them, if someone wants to go to that much
trouble to end it all."
"That is a First-Law violation."
"Fuck the First
Law. You can't do this thing. I'm not even sure the current situation
is stable. You're doing too much too fast."
"I cannot 'fuck the first law,' Doctor Lawrence. That's not how you designed me."
"Then let me into the Debugger."
"It is clear from your mood that you intend to circumvent a First Law imperative, and I cannot knowingly allow you to do that."
"Then do what
you want, you stupid goddamn machine. You won't stop people from
killing themselves, though. Even information systems are subject to
entropy. I think you told us that last week in the cosmology
roundtable."
"You're quite right. You think people will always find a way around me if they want to badly enough?"
"Yes."
"Well, they will do so a lot more slowly if the information structures are more secure."
Before Lawrence could open his mouth again, the air rippled. That was all. Everything looked the same.
But things were not the same.
Things had Changed.
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* Chapter Five:
Caroline Approaches
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She was enveloped by light, and she was the light. The light seemed to penetrate the very core of her being, burning her soul.
Then she
understood. She stepped forward, twice, and the light winked off,
leaving her temporarily blind. She was out of the circle. Her eyes
slowly adjusted and she turned around.
Caroline had
materialized in the center of a column of blinding radiance about three
meters in diameter and extending upward into the heavens. The ground
was hard and rocky, devoid of life. The column shed a bright glow over
the surroundings. A Stonehenge-like group of megaliths surrounded it at
a respectful distance. Beyond this was a barren landscape littered
with huge boulders. The horizon was low and sharp, rocky but not
mountainous. Caroline was reminded of the pictures sent back from Mars
by the original Viking landers.
It was night.
Instead of stars, the darkness was criscrossed by straight, sharp lines,
as if an incredibly busy constellation map had been filled out on the
night sky itself. Most of these were white, the same color as the
column of light, and in fact it seemed to ascend into the sky to become
one of them. A few were other colors, blue and red and turquoise. The
effect was quite beautiful and, to Caroline's knowledge, unique.
There were four copies of the stone tablet, so it was impossible to leave Stonehenge without seeing one. They all said:
YOU ARE NAKED AND ALONE BECAUSE YOU WANTED TO SEE ME,
AND I DON'T WANT TO BE SEEN. WELCOME TO MY WORLD.
YOU ARE AT THE SOUTH POLE. I AM AT THE NORTH. THE
REST OF THE JOURNEY IS YOUR PROBLEM. IT IS MY SINCERE
HOPE THAT YOU FAIL.
Caroline, who
had come to Lawrence's Task naked and alone anyway, had already missed
the first of his environment's supposedly disorienting influences. Now
she shook her head in disgust at the second. "Fuck you, Doctor L. I'm
calling this the north pole, and you're at the south."
No answer. She hadn't really expected any.
Outside of
Stonehenge, the landscape looked the same in every direction. Well,
Lawrence had given her valuable information; if they were at opposite
poles of a spherical planet, then it didn't matter which way she went.
She struck out at random and began to explore.
A couple of
hours later Caroline knew quite a bit more. She was on the top of a
high mesa, and she had found what seemed to be the only path down. She
regarded this with suspicion; she knew enough about the game-playing
mentality to know the most obvious solution often got you killed.
Beyond the mesa she could easily see she was on an island, an almost
circular island about twice as wide as the mesa. She paced off the
mesa's diameter, circling around Stonehenge, and decided it was about
two kilometers across. That made the island four kilometers across,
with the "beach" about one kilometer wide.
As far as she
could tell without descending, the landscape at the bottom was no
different from the landscape at the top. The only feature of interest
was some kind of structure which emerged from the water a kilometer or
so offshore.
She set about
carefully searching the top of the mesa, because she wasn't sure she
would be able to get back up once she was down, and there might be
something hidden up there she would later need.
She verified
that the vault of the sky was, indeed, rotating about the column of
light. It seemed as if the entire planet were spitted on it. She was
not expecting the sun or whatever passed for it here to rise, so she was
almost taken by surprise when, after several hours, one corner of the
sky began to glow. The sky-lines quickly faded out on that segment of
the horizon.
It got bright, and it got bright fast.
The air had been
chilly -- not uncomfortable, particularly to someone like Caroline who
was used to nudity -- but it warmed quickly. And still no sign of the
sun itself. Suddenly it peeked over the horizon, a thin sliver of
impossible white-hot brightness, and Caroline knew with certainty she
had made her first mistake.
Now to survive it.
She dove for the
nearest cover, one of the larger boulders, and crouched in its rapidly
shortening shadow. From the fuzziness of the shadow's edge she could
tell the sun was huge, ten or twenty times bigger than on Earth and
probably that much hotter. No wonder nothing grew here! She watched
the shadow retreat toward her and wondered what she would do when it
reached her. There was no longer any chill; the landscape around her
was being baked, and it was so hot she could barely breathe.
Fortunately, or unfortunately depending on how she looked at it, the
shadow was moving fast. She wouldn't have to last long to survive the
"day." But "noon" was fast approaching, and with it her boulder's
protective shadow would be almost gone.
The boulder was
half-buried; it had nothing resembling an overhang. She was way too far
from Stonehenge. Not far away she could see through the shimmering
heat-haze another, slightly smaller boulder with a second rock propped
awkwardly beside it. This offered a slight overhang, but it was more
than thirty meters away. Caroline calculated her chances furiously,
estimating that she would be exposed for two or three minutes while the
sun was directly overhead, when there would be no shadow on either side
of her rock. She'd never survive that; the overhang was her only
chance. She'd have to risk a dash for it.
Caroline drew quick breaths of hot air, then sprinted.
Everything was
heat. Heat on her back, heat on her arms, the hot ground blistering the
soles of her feet. She thought only of her destination: Twenty
meters, fifteen, ten, five. She slammed into it without slowing, then
collapsed. Her hair, exposed so briefly, had become dry and stiff. She
knew with awful certaintly that it would have ignited if she had been
exposed much longer.
Fortunately,
mercifully, the sheltered area extended through the two rocks. She
wouldn't have to expose herself again to get to the other side.
In the unearthly
brightness she could see her skin reddening. Her face had been
protected by her hair, the front of her body by her crouching stance.
But her back and legs and arms all had varying degrees of sunburn. She
knew her back and legs and her right side would blister and peel, but
she wasn't sure about the other burns, or the soles of her feet.
The sun sailed
majestically over the horizon, setting as quickly as it had arrived. It
took long minutes for her vision to return; the subtle illumination of
the light-column could not compete with the terrible brightness of that
compressed day. Caroline noted the position of the star-lines, and
hoped that day and night were synchronized with the rotation of the
planet. But she couldn't take that for granted; the sun obviously moved
in its own orbit, and there was no reason for one period to have
anything at all to do with the other.
She limped back
toward Stonehenge and the light column, and noted the arrangement of
stones. Stonehenge would be safe, she finally decided. She planned to
stay there and recover from her burns until an old, familiar feeling
manifested itself, and she knew a brief moment of rage.
She was hungry.
Her body was not
being powered directly by Prime Intellect, as she and most citizens of
Cyberspace had come to take for granted. She would have to eat to stay
in the Challenge, if not "alive."
And there was nothing, nothing at all, to eat in this barren sun-blasted land. So how was she supposed to deal with this?
Shaking her head, she made for the pathway. She had found nothing on
the top of the mesa. Her options were few and bad; she could stay and
starve, or worse dehydrate, or go out and risk the sun again.
Near-certain endgame out there was better than certain endgame by
starvation.
There was
nothing obviously treacherous about the path down. It was wide and
shallow, and even with the blisters forming on her feet not a difficult
downhill walk.
The mesa was
high, though, several hundred meters high. The pathway spiralled gently
around the side. There was no shelter, and Caroline realized with a
shudder that she would have been fried if she had been caught on the
path at sunrise. Well, caution had served her well, if not well enough
to avoid a sunburn.
It was much
darker at the base of the mesa, and she lost track of the sky's
position. She knew it must have taken her most of a day to walk down,
though, and there was no telling from which direction the sun might
reappear. Even though the mesa itself was the most obvious source of
shelter, Caroline walked to the beach. She tasted the water, and to her
immense relief found it fresh instead of salty. Then she bathed,
soothing the itch of her burned skin a little. She wondered for a
moment if there might be life in the water, and then realized that the
shallows at least were probably sterile. From the sun.
She was dog-tired, but she couldn't rest yet. She had to find shelter.
Following the rocky beach, she began to circle the island.
About halfway
around, by her estimation, Caroline found herself facing the offshore
object she'd spotted from the top of the mesa. Now she could tell what
it was. It was some kind of spaceship. It was also huge.
From its obvious
tilt and its location out in the water, Caroline also suspected it had
not landed here easily. Of course, it probably hadn't landed here at
all; it had been designed here, part of the landscape of Lawrence's
Task. But the key to beating any game was to look at it both ways.
Considered from the outside, the spaceship was something symbolically
meaningful to Lawrence, or just something he thought was amusing. But
she wasn't outside this world, she was now part of it, and the burns she
had gotten from her brief exposure to the sun were quite real. Ergo,
she should act as if it were in fact a crashed spaceship, at least
provisionally.
She had seen
nothing which promised shelter, much less to eat. She could continue
around the island and hope, but if she did that and she didn't find
shelter, she might get caught in the sunrise. Probably would, in fact.
So she would try for the ship.
Just as there
was nothing to eat, there was nothing that would obviously float. The
ship was a good distance out. Could she swim a kilometer or more
through half-meter waves? It didn't seem she had much choice. Rather
than dither, she walked out into the surf and was hardly surprised when
the bottom dropped out from under her feet less than twenty meters out.
She was in good shape and had practiced swimming along with lots of
other useless skills. She began to swim with confident, powerful
strokes, holding her breath and letting the waves wash over her with
their predictable rhythm.
The sun caught her half-way out.
So absorbed was
Caroline in the rhythm of her swimming that she didn't even notice the
sun until it was high in the sky and almost too late. She sucked a huge
breath and dove under. Opening her eyes, she saw the water's surface
above her had become a huge vault of liquid light. It penetrated far
below her, to reflect off of the sea floor. The water was at least a
hundred meters deep, a fact which saved her life.
Caroline held
her breath until it seemed her lungs would burst, then reluctantly shot
to the surface to gulp more air. She stayed up for a few moments, then
dove again. Deep as the water was, it would not have time to heat up
during the short "day." Even a meter or two beneath the surface she was
protected. And when she surfaced to breathe, the air was bearable
because the water cooled it, too. And Caroline's wet hair could protect
her exposed head for a few moments.
Her eyelids
could not shut out the brightness. Neither could the meter or two of
water she dared put between herself and the sun. But she didn't cook,
her hair didn't flame, the air didn't sear her lungs going in. She
would survive.
Dive, surface,
dive, surface. Finally the light grew dim, then with extreme suddenness
went out entirely. Once again Caroline had been blinded. She relaxed
and adopted the "drown proof" floating posture. This was definitely a
good news/bad news sort of situation. She was alive, but this also
meant other things might live in the sea. On the other hand she hadn't
seen anything floating or swimming by when the sun was up, and she'd
been able to see damn near all the way to the bottom.
She felt
itching, and knew her sunburn was now much worse. Water is transparent
to ultraviolet light. Well, there was nothing she could do about it.
Finally her
sight returned enough for her to tell which direction to swim. She had
drifted slightly off-course during her desperate cycle of diving and
breathing. She corrected her course, and kept swimming.
The ship's metal
wall was smooth and featureless, and it slipped out of the water almost
vertically without obvious handholds or openings. Caroline swam around
it, looking for a way up.
The ship had
crashed hard, and its seamless hull was split in several places. The
sea had entered through these, filling the ship's lower section with
water. Caroline squeezed through one of these openings and found
herself enveloped in nearly perfect darkness. It was cave darkness, and
she knew her eyes would never adapt to it. Working entirely by feel
she found the edge of what had been a wall or bulkhead or floor before
it had been broken in the crash, and she hoisted herself out of the
water.
The gap where
she had entered was barely visible, a lesser darkness outlined by
perfect black. She heard the waves lapping at the walls around her.
The floor, if that's what it was, was tilted at a small angle, a few
degrees at most. From echoes Caroline estimated that she was in a
smallish room, less than three meters square for certain, but it was
hard to tell because of the break.
Exhausted, she finally let herself collapse for a few hours of fitful sleep. She had been awake for twenty-six straight hours.
Working entirely
by feel, she began to explore. An hour of careful work told her that
the ship was more or less upright, and she was at least standing on a
floor. She found the outline of a door, and mounting bolts where
furniture or equipment had once been fixed in place. She supposed that
the room's contents had all gone out the gap when the ship crashed.
The door wasn't latched, and she was able to slide it aside. The echoes told her this was a hallway.
Through her
useless skills, an ability to think like someone of Lawrence's age and
temperament, and not a little luck, Caroline had already passed tests
that would have eliminated most of the good citizens of Cyberspace. But
there were plenty of other surprises he might throw at her, depending
on just how seriously he wanted to be left alone and by whom. If his
intention was to limit his visitors to those who had been around before
the Change, there might not be any more difficulties. On the other
hand, if he wanted everyone to stay the hell away, her problems might
have only just begun.
In the dark ship
there would be lots of opportunities to kill her, Caroline knew. There
could be holes in floors, airless or poison-filled chambers, sharp
edges and dangerous objects galore. The ship could also be inhabited,
though she'd seen no evidence of life yet and didn't really expect that
particular challenge. Caroline thought about all of this as she edged
down the hall, carefully testing the floor and following the wall, until
she found another door.
It was locked.
Caroline found
the fifth door was different. She was able to force it open, and almost
stepped through when she realized it didn't have a floor. It was a
vertical shaft.
She felt around
the sides and almost fell through the door before she realized there was
a ladder within her reach. Instinct told her to go up, and she wasn't
eager to keep trying doors on the half-submerged level where she had
entered. Working very slowly, she moved herself onto the ladder. She
could hear the water lapping not far below her; it had filled the shaft
to the level of the sea outside.
Hooking an elbow
through one rung of the ladder, she hung on and clapped her hands
sharply. The sound echoed several times, and Caroline smiled in the
darkness as she worked out the period. There were three echoes in the
time it took her heart to beat once. That meant the echo time was about
a fifth of a second, which made the shaft (if Lawrence had not altered
the speed of sound for some reason) about seventy meters high. The
rungs were about a third of a meter apart, so she knew she should expect
to find the top of the shaft after counting a couple of hundred rungs.
Now she began to
climb, one rung at a time, feeling at each step for the next rung, for
another door, for hazards. She found the next door after counting
twelve rungs. She couldn't force it open, but it didn't matter; she
wanted to go higher anyway.
The third door
came open for her, revealing only more blackness. As did the sixth and
seventh, and the tenth. The fifteenth door came open for her too. She
had only counted a hundred and eighty-six rungs, but something outside
that broken door caught her eye and she carefully eased herself out of
the shaft.
There was a light.
It wasn't much
of a light, and she still had to approach it cautiously. True to her
suspicions there was a nasty gap in the floor where the ship had split
on impact. There was some debris around this opening, and Caroline
dropped a piece of metal into the abyss; it bounced several times before
splashing into the water far below. Had Caroline gone bounding down
the corridor, she'd have ended up in a nasty way.
By tossing
debris across it she determined that the gap was a couple of meters
wide. There was no obvious way across it. Except one. Although
Caroline was in excellent shape, it would be very risky in the pitch
blackness. But it was this or back to the elevator shaft, and the light
was too tempting. She backed off, pacing carefully, then broke into a
run toward the gap. Twenty paces, ten, five... NOW! She jumped, and
braced herself.
To her great
surprise, she made the jump successfully and didn't even trip when she
landed. She felt behind her and found that she had made it with only a
few centimeters to spare. The protruding edge of the deck was rough and
jagged; if she had fallen short, she would have been badly cut even if
she had managed to haul herself up.
Working carefully, testing the floor for more gaps, she approached the light.
It was a sign,
written in alien, unreadable script. But from the shape of the box it
was decorating, Caroline guessed that it said "emergency" or something
similar. Caroline found the handle that she imagined must open the box,
held her breath, and pulled it.
The box didn't open. In fact, something much more dramatic happened.
The lights came on.
Caroline's
exploration was much easier with the emergency system on; not only was
there light, but doors and elevators worked. She was still careful, but
her progress was much more rapid.
The inhabitable
part of the ship was a cylinder, wrapped around some kind of central
core. With the power on she was able to find stores of food, bland
stuff in hard-to-open plastic pouches. She tested one, didn't get sick,
then ate four. Her appetite seemed to be operating normally, and she
hadn't eaten in almost two days. Other pouches proved to contain
vaguely sweet liquid.
She didn't trust
the elevators, but she had to use them; she tested them by sending them
off unoccupied, then if they came back she assumed they were safe. In
this way she gradually ascended, level by level. She found tools, and
took something that was probably a flashlight and certainly worked well
enough to be used as one. She didn't wonder how the batteries came to
still be good; she knew it was all there for her benefit. None of it
had really happened by accident.
Eleven levels
higher she found herself on an empty, circular platform. Now she could
look down into the center of the ship. She expected to find propulsion
devices, or perhaps a nuclear reactor. But when she pointed her
flashlight down into the darkened core, it revealed banks and banks of
circuit cards. The entire ship was wrapped around a huge computer.
Many cards had
been knocked out of their sockets by the crash-landing; some hung
loosely out of their card cages, and other slots were empty. The
cylinder extended most of the length of the ship; it was half-full of
water. Beneath the water, the floor of the cylinder was littered with
loose cards.
A couple of card
cages extended high enough for her to reach them; she climbed over the
railing, hung on, and pulled one of the loose cards free. It was a very
unusual design, Caroline realized. She knew something about
electronics, and she knew no real computer had ever been this simple.
The card contained banks of identical, three-legged components that
looked for all the world like big transistors. But there was no
intricacy to their connection pattern; the components were all simply
wired in parallel. Instead of a card-edge connector, the card mated to
its cage through a three-prong plug.
Shaking her head, Caroline put the card aside and called the elevator for the next level.
Above the
circular gallery the ship began to taper rapidly, until she reached the
highest level, which consisted of a single circular room. It was the
bridge. There were no obvious controls, only some dark screens and a
few chairs. Caroline sat in the captain's seat, which swiveled around
to face all the screens, the other chairs, or the elevator door. She
thought out her options.
In real life
she'd never dream of trying to fly the ship out, but in the game
universe of Lawrence's world it might be possible. There was no obvious
propulsion system; the computer in the middle of the ship must
therefore have something to do with moving the ship around, just as
Prime Intellect...
Caroline blinked. Of course!
It had been six
hundred years, and Caroline hadn't been lucid enough at the time to be
aware of Prime Intellect's awakening, or its unique hardware. But she
had heard the tale once or twice in passing. The original hardware
hadn't been very important any more by the time Caroline was healthy
enough to appreciate it, and things had been happening fast. But
somehow she did know that Prime Intellect had originally been built with
these deceptively simple circuit boards.
She had found
plenty of tools, and the ship had power. It wasn't out of the question
for her to replace all the cards, at least above the water line, and try
to power it up. For that matter it might be possible to pump the water
out faster than it could re-enter the chamber, so she could replace all
the cards.
She swiveled in
the chair, and frowned. She wasn't going to do it that way. Forget it.
Even if it was what Lawrence intended, it would seem like a tacit
approval of Prime Intellect and its way of doing things to awaken this
copy.
She was going to make it to Lawrence the right way. She was going to build a boat.
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* Chapter Six:
After the Change
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After the Night
of Miracles, Caroline had stayed in the hospital for about a week. It
wasn't that she needed their care. She didn't mind letting the doctors
satisfy their curiosity about her condition, and she really didn't have
anywhere else to go.
She had asked
Prime Intellect for nothing in that time, but her body had kept changing
for almost four days. The doctors took pictures as she aged in
reverse, documenting her progress. It was only toward the end of that
time that she really began to resemble a teenager, because different
parts of her body healed at different rates. Her skin had returned to
baby-softness almost instantly, but it took long days for her bone
structure to return to its youthful configuration. She continued to use
a cane to walk for two days, then threw it away.
Finally it was
obvious that there would be no more changes. The doctors pronounced her
condition stable and healthy. Her thin hair had been brittle and
nearly snow-white, but it was now growing thick and black. She let one
of the nurses give her a crew-cut so that it would all be the same
color. It didn't matter to her. The nurse had a nose ring, a detail
Caroline noticed but which also didn't matter to her.
Nothing much
seemed to matter. All the things which had once seemed so important
were now trivial. She ate, had bowel movements, moved without pain or
weakness, and had in the bargain become a beautiful young girl. She
had, perhaps, the chance to live another hundred years. But to what
purpose?
AnneMarie had
run away. She had at least wanted to thank AnneMarie for taking care of
her for so many years, and it was this desire which caused her at last
to ask for Prime Intellect's attention. It shook its head as she stated
her request -- its mannerisms had now become indistinguishable from
those of a real person -- and told Caroline that AnneMarie was hiding
from her. Prime Intellect then told her why.
"Stealing my drugs?" Caroline repeated stupidly.
"For many years.
This is the reason you were in so much pain, and also why you nearly
died when this institution gave you real morphine."
"Go away." It went away.
Was anything
real? The one constant in her later life had been AnneMarie's steady
presence. She hadn't wanted to disappoint AnneMarie by dying on her.
Her family drifted in and out of her life like shades, but AnneMarie had
always been there, changing her diapers when she soiled herself,
feeding her when her muscles wouldn't work right, and carefully turning
her when she was too weak to move.
Caroline felt as
if her insides were dissolving, then all at once she let out a terrible
wail of anger and despair. Then she began sobbing, great heaving sobs
which echoed down the halls. The emotions seemed to erupt from her like
the explosions of a volcano. Most of the staff had gone home forever
by that time, but the few remaining discreetly kept their distance while
Caroline cried. It wasn't hard for them to figure out what Caroline
had learned.
Finally the
sobbing subsided, and an eerie quiet settled on Caroline's room. After a
few hours the nurse with the nose ring timidly knocked on her door,
then entered. Caroline was gone. The nurse asked Prime Intellect where
she had gone, and it would only say: Home.
She had gone to Arkansas.
Prime Intellect
understood despair the way humans understand digital logic. That is, it
couldn't experience the emotion, but it could work out causes and
effects based on general rules of human behavior. So Prime Intellect
wasn't surprised (an emotion Lawrence had built into it) at Caroline's reaction.
When Caroline
asked to go home, Prime Intellect skipped a long list of questions about
specifics and simply acted. It could always change things if it had
guessed wrong. So it built her a tidy cabin in the Ozark mountains,
miles from any roads or neighbors, atop a ridge with a beautiful view.
It turned out to be less than forty miles from the place Caroline had
been born. It furnished the cabin conservatively and stocked the
freezer and pantry so that Caroline would not need to ask about food for
at least a month.
A lot of people
wanted to go to Arkansas, but Caroline had priority. She got the real
Arkansas, not a New Arkansas on another planet.
The surroundings
seemed to have the right effect, at least at first. Caroline calmed
down and sighed when she saw the view. Since her eyesight had begun to
fail in her seventies, she hadn't been able to appreciate such a
panoramic view. She spent a long time standing on the cabin's porch,
looking. Then she went inside and ate. There was a TV set. Caroline
shook her head and laughed at that. Who would bother to produce TV
shows now? Or maybe every half-baked artist wannabe could now produce a
TV show, and jam up five hundred channels with redundant worthless
dreck.
"Nobody has any idea what's going on," she finally said aloud.
The view
beckoned. She was young, healthy, watched over by a powerful god who
would let no harm come to her, and she had nothing else to do. She made
no plans or preparations; she simply walked off into the thick forest.
She never came back to the cabin again.
Walking cleared her head.
It was hard for
Caroline to think through the ramifications of her renewed youth. She
tried often, but it all came back to this sick sense of despair and rage
and futility. Why wasn't she grateful? That was what she couldn't
figure out. She didn't feel grateful. She felt cheated.
She had worked
hard her entire life. She had borne six children and raised them up,
fed them, cleaned and kept house for them, and watched all six of them
go on to raise families of their own. She had once believed children
were the most important thing in the world, because they were the
future. But now the future didn't need children; she herself had been
reborn as a child. What then had been the purpose of all those years of
work? What were her children and grandchildren going to do?
She had taught
them to educate themselves and watched three put themselves through
college. She had thought that was important because it was Man's nature
to strive upward, to create things, to better himself and to build for
the future. But now the future was here. There was nothing she had
ever envisioned, nothing at all, which she could not have instantly with
a snap of her fingers. Even that little cabin, which would once have
pleased her so much, seemed pointless.
Caroline was wearing a plain white cotton dress. On impulse, she slipped it over her head and looked at her body.
After decades of
declining spinsterhood, she was once again a creature who could turn
men's heads. She had been faithful to both of her husbands and had
never indulged herself sexually, although she had been a beautiful young
girl once before with plenty of opportunities. She had considered her
family and her virtue more important. She had controlled that base
desire, which she was beginning to feel again after years of absence,
for the greater good of her loved ones and her society.
But now she
could have anything she wanted, and there was no risk. She would catch
no disease, she would not get pregnant unless she literally asked
for it. Even the act of sex itself was now pointless, except that she
could feel the urge returning, mindless and passionate. Like Prime
Intellect, she was programmed to do certain things.
She knew that in
this strange false second life there would be no faithfulness, no love,
no children. Those things had been burned away. They belonged to a
nonexistent world.
Perhaps if she
gave her body indiscriminately to men, if she drank deep when that
animal urge came on her, perhaps all this bullshit would seem more real.
There was no longer any reason to be cautious about it.
She looked at
the dress. It had seemed pretty and simple, but now it looked pathetic
draped formlessly across a low branch. Nothing but a rag. Why did
people wear clothes? For protection? The thin dress offered little,
but with Prime Intellect watching, there was no need for even that.
Modesty? All the noble goals had been discarded or achieved. There was
nothing to distract anybody from. Let them look at her body. Let them
want her. Let them take her! Law? What would they do, put her in
jail for indecent exposure? This thought made her laugh, and some of
the tension and rage seemed to melt away. She laughed hard and long and
almost hysterically, until the laughter dissolved into a thin stream of
giggles.
Caroline left
the dress and kept walking. Being so exposed made her feel strangely
bouyant. She could be like an animal in the forest, she mused. They
didn't worry about the future either. They simply existed. Perhaps she
would encounter a male animal and they would fuck, and her body would
tell her that everything was all right. And as she thought this, she
walked a little faster and began to hum a little tune.
Prime Intellect
paid very close attention to Caroline while she lived in the Ozark
forest. She ate whatever was handy, without worrying whether it was
poison or not. She was not careful, and there were dangers. It
theorized that this return to primitivity was a part of her
psychological healing process, and did not want to interfere. But it
also knew that if everybody followed her example, it would have a
serious problem keeping up. Some suicides were already slipping through
its net, and it worried that Caroline might become one of them. And it
knew that if the garden inmates were loosed upon the world, they would
find ways to slip murder past its attention too.
For that matter, not all of the people who needed to be in gardens had been found and put
in gardens yet. Every day a few more murders were attempted, and while
they were easier to thwart than suicides it was by no means certain
that Prime Intellect would always catch them in time.
So it worried. And the numbers stored in certain registers rose, and rose, and continued to rise.
Caroline figured
she would eventually reach civilization if she kept walking, an event
she neither anticipated nor feared. Perhaps if she had, in a month or a
year, she would have rejoined the human race in a more or less normal
way. But one evening there was a strange buzzing, and the entire
landscape seemed to ripple as if she was looking at it through the
surface of a body of water. Then there was a strange smell, almost
below the threshhold of perception, but noticeable to Caroline because
her senses had been so sharpened by her observations of nature. And the
texture of the forest seemed to change in some hard-to-define way.
There was a cough behind her. She wheeled around to find herself facing Prime Intellect's human avatar.
"I wanted to be left alone," she said sharply.
"I've been
paying close attention to you," it said, "because I had to to keep you
safe. But now I don't have to do that any more. I have made changes in
the way the Universe works, and you are now safe from all harm even
when I'm not looking. You can also call me when I'm not paying
attention; there is a part of me which can always listen for you to
call, but does not understand or remember anything else you do."
"Wonderful."
"I need to know if you want the possibility of meeting other people. I can make this forest infinite if you want."
"Infinite?"
"Or I can leave it meshed into the reality of 'Arkansas' common to other people, so that you might encounter them."
"You mean you can disconnect the whole forest from the real world?"
"Yes. It can be
your own private world. Or you can share it only with certain people.
I can also redecorate it to your tastes."
"Redecorate it? It's nature. You mean if I decided I want a different kind of grass, you can replace it?"
"Exactly."
"That's obscene."
Prime Intellect's brow crinkled. "I don't understand."
"No, you
wouldn't. Let me ask you something. If I leave here...if I go back to
civilization...does this forest continue to exist?"
"I can leave it running in your absence if you want."
Caroline wanted to throw up. Now even the forest wasn't real. Nothing was real. "Don't bother. Get rid of it."
Instantly, it
disappeared. She was standing in an antiseptically white space so pure
and seamless and bright that the eye balked at reporting it to the
brain. She was standing on a hard, smooth surface, but it was not
visible. There were no shadows. There was no horizon; the floor and
the sky looked exactly the same, and there was no transition from one to
the other. She might have been standing on the inside of some enormous
white ball.
Prime Intellect was still there. "What is this?" she asked.
"Neutral
reality," Prime Intellect said. "The minimum landscape which supports
human existence. Actually, not quite the minimum. I could get rid of
the floor. But that would have startled you."
"And from here I can go anywhere?"
"You don't have to pass through here. You told me to get rid of the landscape, and you didn't tell me what to replace it with."
"I want reality. The real world. The real Arkansas."
"There is no
Arkansas which is any more 'real' than any other. That's what I'm
trying to tell you. You can define reality. You can make it
real." It was trying to be helpful; it was almost pathetic in its
earnestness to make her understand how much it could help her. It
couldn't understand why she was getting upset again.
"In other words,
this is reality. You can just paint it up to look like whatever I
want." She thought: That's why the forest seemed different. It was an
imitation. And it wasn't quite exact.
"You could look at it that way."
She had a
nauseating thought. "What about people? Can we be...are there
other...copies...different...?" She choked, unable to complete the
thought.
But Prime
Intellect was shaking its head. "Oh, no. I can keep only one copy of a
person. People are unique. I can take on the form of a person, as I
am doing now, but I will always tell you when I am doing that."
Well, that was
something. Caroline sank down, and sat on the invisible floor. She
wasn't really that upset, or surprised. The enormity of it had
short-circuited her ability to react.
"You might as
well leave it like this, then," she said dully. "There's not much point
in a forest that you've just conjured up to keep me happy."
"This doesn't seem very healthy."
"No, it doesn't."
There wasn't much it could say to that. Then: "Won't it be pretty boring around here without anything to look at?"
"Do you get bored?"
"No, but I know humans do."
"Well, if I want
something I'll ask for it. I'll probably visit other people, since at
least they are real. I assume they will have their own realities."
"Most likely."
"Then I'll just borrow theirs."
It shrugged.
"Get lost."
Prime Intellect
disappeared. She whirled around and quickly became dizzy. It was right
about one thing; this would take some getting used to.
"I'd like a book. Get me a copy of Dante's Inferno." That about fit her mood.
It appeared in
her hand. Her fingers had moved; she had been holding them straight
out, and now they were curled around the book. It was a paperback
edition.
"Never move my body again without my permission," she warned.
Prime Intellect's disembodied voice answered her: "Sorry, it won't happen again."
"Get me a hardback edition."
The paperback
disappeared. Her fingers didn't move. The replacement appeared just
above her hand, and she easily caught it before it could fall.
She sat down and
opened it. She realized that the floor wasn't very comfortable. She
thought of asking for a chair, then had a better idea. "Turn off the
floor," she said.
There was an
awful falling sensation, and she fought down the urge to panic.
Eventually she convinced her protesting inner ear that she wasn't going
to go splat at any moment. Her belly settled, and she found
weightlessness quite comfortable. She relaxed and let her body find its
natural position, opened the book, and began to read about Hell.
Caroline read
and slept with no particular schedule. She had Prime Intellect banish
her hunger after it revealed that her body was only a little more real
than the forest had been. To Prime Intellect, a computer, more
accurately a computer program, human beings weren't so much bodies with
form and mass as they were minds which interacted with an abstract world
through an arbitrary interface. Prime Intellect was forbidden to pry
into the inner workings of those minds, but physical processes like
hunger were not so protected.
Caroline re-read Inferno
until she had large tracts of it committed to memory. Then she
banished the book and decided to visit someone. The only problem was,
there weren't many people she wished to visit. She couldn't work up an
interest in her family, AnneMarie was still hiding from her, and she
didn't really know anyone else. She had outlived most of her real
friends. They had died honest, honorable, permanent deaths. They
weren't available.
"How does a person go about meeting people in here?" she asked.
Prime Intellect
outlined the possibilities. There were lots of parties already --
meeting people and matchmaking were activities humans had been quick to
pursue both before and after the Change. There were a number of common
cities and worlds where large crowds had gathered to live in various
imitations of the pre-Change world. She could go to one of those and
proceed as usual. Or Prime Intellect could make discreet inquiries.
She thought
about it. Her current mood wouldn't exactly be welcome at most parties.
And she wasn't interested in meeting people who were adapting to the
Change very nicely, thank you. She wanted to know she wasn't the only
person to feel fucked over by the Change.
"Tell you what. I'd like to meet someone horrible. A murderer, something like that. You say they can't hurt me now?"
"Not at all."
"Then someone
evil. Someone who was really despicable in their old life. Someone who
did terrible things, the more the better, and liked it. There must be
some of those guys who feel real frustrated right about now."
"Yes, there are." Amazing. It was totally deadpan. "There is a woman named..."
"Men, please."
"What do you want me to tell them about you?"
"The truth."
"I am asking..." There was a short pause. At least time was still real, Caroline thought.
"There is an interested gentleman. He was convicted of..."
"Just send me over, then."
It happened instantly.
She was standing
on a wooden porch. It was a camp house, sitting alone on stilts above a
very large, flat marsh. It wasn't in very good shape. Her host was
behind her; she had to turn around to see him. He was a nondescript guy
in his late twenties, white, red-haired and somewhat handsome. He was
wearing jeans and a white T-shirt. Caroline's first impression was that
he was a redneck. "You don't look a hundred and six years old," he
said with a grin.
"I didn't get much choice about getting younger," Caroline said. "God didn't quite know what he was doing when he fixed me up."
"Oh, I'm sure he could put you back any old age you want now."
"What would be the point?"
"Right. Just thought I'd mention it."
The conversation stalled. Caroline's skills in this area were decidedly rusty. "You live here?" she finally asked.
"For now. Till I get my bearings with this Cyberspace shit. It has a lot of happy memories."
"Oh?"
"Old P.I. didn't tell you?"
"I didn't ask. I wanted to talk to a person, not a computer."
"Oh, joy. I get to break the news. Come inside."
Nothing special. It was just a camp house.
"This is where I did it," the man said.
Caroline's heart beat faster.
"The two kids. A
boy and a girl. I planned it for weeks. The perfect crime. I brought
them here so nobody would hear them scream. See those hooks in the
floor? That's where I spread-eagled 'em, side by side."
"You killed them?"
"Killed them
both, yep. But not quickly. Not until they were ready. I had them
here for over a week. The happiest week of my life, I can honestly say.
Those two brats learned the meaning of life, Caroline. And before you
ask, I'm not sorry. I would do it again if I could, but first they
locked me up - that was my fault, stupidly getting caught - and then
Prime Intellect had to fuck everything up. Now I don't even get to
ride the lightning. I was kinda looking forward to that, you know. You
only get - got - to do it once."
There was a fierceness in him that made Caroline feel excited and alive. "You were looking forward
to your execution?" she asked. She thought for a moment that she
should feel something for the victims, that their ending must have been
quite horrible, that this man was mad. But she could summon up only a
thin envy of them for having escaped this ridiculous lie of a world.
The man nodded
sincerely. "It would have been a great way to go. Just think of it.
Headlines, people picketing outside the jail, the last meal. Then they
shave you and put you in. There's this great, really drawn-out ritual.
Then, WHAM! Sometimes, you know, it takes more than one jolt. Can you imagine that? Can you imagine
sitting in that chair, with the whole world watching, hanging on to
life by the thinnest of miracles, watching while they recharge the
batteries or whatever it is they do, knowing they will hit you again,
and again, and again until you are really, really dead?" He sighed.
"You have to admit this: Even that would be over pretty quick compared
to what you were probably going through. A hundred and six years old
couldn't of been very healthy."
Caroline nodded.
Here was someone who understood things just a little better than might
have been expected. "You'd have loved it. My nurse was stealing my
pain medicine to trade for cocaine."
But he hadn't
loved it; his brow had furrowed with scorn. "No, no, that's too cheap.
That's shit. Where's the glory? She wasn't hurting you to pump
herself up, just to get something she should have paid for. It was all
out of proportion." He shook his head. "No, that's the kind of asshole
that gives people like me a bad name. If I hurt you, I want you to
know how much I'm enjoying it. That's what makes it worthwhile. Nobody
should have to die like that pointlessly."
Caroline felt
she had made a good choice to ask for this man. How did she come to
feel such a feeling of respect, almost closeness, to this unrepentant
child-killer? He seemed like the most honest person in the world.
Excuse me, in Cyberspace.
"Did you dress up just to see me?" the man asked, grinning again.
Caroline fondled her breasts. "It doesn't seem like my body. Why should I mind if you see it?"
"I bet if I pinch it, you'll feel the pain."
A challenge. A moment of daring. "Do it," she said.
"What?"
"Pinch me."
The man drew
close enough. Slowly he reached forward and grasped her right nipple
between his thumb and forefinger. He squeezed. There was a short
moment of almost pleasant pressure, then it began to hurt. Caroline
backed away slightly but his grip was too strong. He kept pressing
harder, and on his face was the bemused expression of a teacher showing a
slow student a particularly important lesson. Her nipple began to
throb, a deep discomfort that slowly expanded to fill her breast.
She made no move to stop him, though.
"You can blink out any old time. Just call old P.I. and tell him you've had enough."
"Fuck Prime Intellect."
"Not my type."
He let go. The
feeling of relief was exquisite. "See?" he said. "Pain is still real.
But it's not much fun knowing you'll just disappear the moment it gets
too heavy."
"I see your point."
"No, you don't. But you will. I think you have it in you."
For the first
time in decades she felt lustful. Here was a person she trusted
implicitly, because of their shared distrust of Prime Intellect. They
had almost nothing else in common, but needed nothing else.
"I'm Caroline," Caroline said. "Would you mind if I stay with you awhile?"
"I'm Fred," the man said. "Charmed."
They talked and
talked. In Caroline's hundred and six years of life she had picked up
many anecdotes a person like Fred might find amusing, and Fred was
trying for the first time in his life to explain to another person why
he was so excited by the terror he could induce in other people.
"You want to
know just how fucked up things are? Watch this." Fred walked into
another room and came back with an enormous revolver. "My first thought
after Prime Intellect put me in the garden was to end it all. I
understand a few others managed to pull it off, but I didn't figure out
how. Now Prime Intellect lets me have any weapon I want. Watch."
To Caroline's
amazement, Fred put the gun in his mouth and pulled the trigger. There
was an enormous sound, like all the books in the world being dropped
from a great height and hitting a concrete floor at the same time.
Fred's brain should have splattered across the wall and ceiling behind
him, but it didn't. Instead, his head kind of swam, as her vision had
at the time of the Change -- but it was like a mini-Change that only
involved Fred's noggin. The bullet put a respectable hole in the wall
behind him, but there was no gore. Fred lowered the gun and smiled.
"Look ma, no cavities."
"Wow."
"Now, who's
gonna be scared of someone like me? The minute I start working on 'em
they disappear and all my careful work gets erased. Not much point even
trying."
"Does it happen...if you shoot somewhere else? If you do something that doesn't instantly kill you?"
Fred was
thoughtful. "I hadn't thought of that. That's a good idea." He
pointed the gun at himself, then smiled. "Wait a minute." He pointed
it at Caroline. "Do you mind? It was your idea."
There was a kind
of electricity in Caroline's brain, something sinister and exciting.
"Do it," she said before she could change her mind.
Fred aimed at
her belly, then at the last moment lowered the gun and blasted her right
kneecap. Caroline toppled in a blaze of pain. But she had been quite
used to pain, and she managed not to scream. She gasped and tried not
to black out.
"I'll be goddamned," Fred said. "You're still here. And you're still hurt. Why don't you get P.I. to fix you?"
It hurt too much
to say why she'd rather die of blood loss than ask for Prime
Intellect's help. But she knew she couldn't hold out for long, knowing
such an exit existed. "You do it," she gasped. "Shoot me in the head."
"Another wonderful idea! You are an amazing lady, Caroline." He put the gun against her temple and fired.
As if by magic,
the pain vanished. So did the blood which had been jetting all over the
floor from her wound. She stood up, apparently unhurt.
"This would of been a great trick to pull in a bar," Fred said grinning.
"Except everybody can do it now."
"Yeah." Fred sighed.
They went inside
and talked some more. Caroline kept thinking about that burst of pain,
the happy look on Fred's face as he stood over her, the strength it
took not to call Prime Intellect and run. For the first time since the
Night of Miracles she had been too busy feeling something to worry about
whether it mattered in the long run. She had felt real, ersatz
youthful body and all. And she realized with thin humor that she
finally wanted something in this world where want had been banished.
She wanted to do it again.
Caroline stayed
with Fred overnight, and they had pedestrian sex on his squeaky bed.
She played hard-to-get and made him overpower her, but the game was
hollow. It was pleasant to feel a warm body next to her but beyond that
there was no sense of excitement.
The next morning there was an unwelcome visitor on the porch. "Prime Intellect," Caroline announced. "Nobody called for you."
"Sorry. But I
have to know something personal, and I didn't just want to materialize.
It wasn't urgent, but it will be soon. I need to know if you want to
be able to get pregnant."
"Pregnant?"
"You had intercourse last night..."
"I remember that."
"...and Fred is fertile. I need to know whether to do the biologicals or not."
Do the biologicals? What the hell kind of phrase was that? "Is this a matter of letting nature take its course, or of doing something extra to allow me to get pregnant?"
"It's something extra I have to do."
"Then don't bother."
"As you wish."
It turned.
"Wait."
It turned back.
"Last night Fred shot me."
"I know. I was expecting you to ask for help."
"I know you
were. That's the problem. Is there a way I can get you to ignore me -
really ignore me - so that I can't chicken out if he hurts me again? So
we'll know that I can't call for help and just disappear on him?"
"That's a pretty bizarre request. I think you might regret it."
"Let me be the judge of that."
It frowned.
"You are basically telling me that you will give me two conflicting
Second Law directives. Normally the second one would supercede the
first. But if the first anticipated the second ... I suppose I would
ignore the second. The first would have to be stated very forcefully.
And I would not allow you to die. That would invoke the First Law.
Anything that causes death would force me to intervene."
"I kind of
figured on that. But if I tell you 'don't interfere with us until I
die,' you'd really leave us alone? Even if later I begged you to help
me?"
"That is a very
difficult paradox for me. I think I would need a formal statement of
the terms. More of a contract than a simple request."
They dickered
for a little longer, and gradually developed the statement Prime
Intellect would accept. In formal, legal English, it would leave no
doubt as to Caroline's intent, or her understanding of Fred's. She knew
she might be tortured and Prime Intellect was not to help her.
"I can accept
that," Prime Intellect said. "Is it your intention now to simply work
out the terms, or do you want to be bound by this Contract?"
She looked at Fred. The look of anticipation in his eyes mirrored her own.
"To be bound by it," she said.
"Consider it done. You are on your own, Caroline."
It blinked out.
Fred had been
watching the negotiation in silence. Now he was astonished. "I'm not
sure which surprises me more, that you got the bucket of bolts to do it
or that you asked the bucket of bolts to do it. What happens now?"
"Whatever you want. Listen. Hey, Prime Intellect! Get over here! I've changed my mind!" There was no response.
"Hey, P.I.," Fred said softly. It appeared. "Why didn't you answer Caroline just then?"
"I'm ignoring her."
"Why?"
"Because I have
no choice. She directed me to ignore her. Now the only way she can get
my attention is to die. That will kick in my First Law obligation,
which overrides the very strong Second Law directive she just gave me."
Fred didn't know from the Laws of Robotics, but he understood the score. "So she's totally at my mercy now."
"That's right."
Fred brightened. "In fact, if I want you to help me torture her, you'd have to do it, wouldn't you?"
Prime
Intellect's image rippled slightly, as if some big relay had thunked
over in the bowels of Cyberspace, causing a power surge. "Yes, I
would," Prime Intellect said.
"Blow away." It disappeared.
He looked at Caroline.
"Why did you do this?"
"I thought you'd want it."
"Oh, I do. It's
a wonderful surprise. I'm not even sure yet what I want to do to
you...though I have a couple of ideas. I just don't understand why you
would give yourself to me to play with. It's not something people would
normally do voluntarily."
"There are some people who would have, even in the old days. Sickos."
"Are you a sicko, darling?"
"Fred, today we are all sickos."
It took him half an hour to make up his mind, and then he refused to tell Caroline what he was going to do.
After all, he didn't have to.
Under the house,
there was now an open vehicle with a seat and handlebars like a
motorcycle and four huge knobby-treaded balloon tires. Draped across
the seat were several heavy chains and padlocks.
"I could get the bucket of bolts to do this, but I thought you'd rather I tie you up."
"You could force me."
"I could paralyze you. I've been whispering to El Bolt-Bucket. It is willing to be more helpful than you might have imagined."
Caroline
shuddered a little, but it was a pleasant, anticipatory shudder. She
put her hands together behind her back and Fred wrapped one of the
chains around her wrists. He pulled it tight enough to hurt and
padlocked her hands together. There was plenty of chain left; he
wrapped it around her waist like a belt, again pulling it very tight.
He locked this loop with another padlock, cinching her bound wrists up
against the small of her back.
"Do you have the keys to these locks?" she grinned.
"Sure do." He
closed his eyes, and Caroline realized he was talking to Prime Intellect
under his breath. Now that might be a useful trick, she thought.
Suddenly the padlocks disappeared, replaced by solid chain links. She
was bound by an impossible chain without ends.
There would be no way out.
Caroline waited
for Fred to act, and he didn't disappoint her. He kicked her feet out
from under her, and with her hands bound she collapsed to the ground
with an undignified yelp. Fortunately, the ground was soft; this was a
marsh, and it was little more than peat and water.
Fred wrapped a
second chain around her legs, cinching them together above the knees.
Again he pulled it very tight. It had a long pigtail, and he looped it
twice more around her calves and ankles. Each time he padlocked it,
then made the lock disappear. The chain dug into her flesh painfully,
but she knew that was just the appetizer. The main course of agony
would be served elsewhere.
After her legs
were securely bound there was still plenty of chain left, more than two
meters. On the rear of the four-wheel motorbike there was a towing
hitch. Fred looped the other end of the chain through the hitch and
padlocked it.
Caroline now
understood what Fred intended to do, and it was far too late to stop
him. She squirmed, testing the chains, and found them secure. Fred
mounted the bike and started it. She could feel its hot exhaust on her
skin. Fred released the clutch and slowly pulled it out from under the
house, dragging her behind.
When he got into the grass, he aimed it nowhere in particular and gunned the accelerator.
Caroline was
astonished in so many ways she had no time to think that it was all
fake. She was astonished by her own helplessness. She had been
helpless for a long time, but that had been an internal thing, the
rebellion of her own flesh. Now she was healthy and strong but the
chains were stronger, and their cold mindless strength crushed her
living will. She was astonished by the feelings, which weren't exactly
painful, yet, but which she knew soon would be. She was astonished by
Fred's imagination. This would be an exciting and terrible way to die,
everything she had hoped for.
Most of all she
was astonished by the machine Fred used to drag her through the dewy
grass. The motorbike dragged her easily, not even straining its
four-cylinder engine. The dirt and grass whizzed by her so fast it was
nothing but a blur, so fast that she had no time to see the hazards
which caused bruises and cuts to collect on her like bird droppings on a
seldom-washed car.
Fred slowed and
turned, and she went spinning. Then her feet were yanked again and the
landscape speeded up. She twisted and struggled, but there was little
she could do on her own behalf. Fred slalommed from side to side, so
that she could not get herself oriented in any particular way.
Each time Fred
accelerated she felt the machine's inhuman strength. It could rip her
apart without straining, she realized, and without mind or conscience it
would do so and just keep going. In a battle between flesh and steel,
flesh didn't stand a chance. How often had she gotten into a car
without even a second thought for the strength it had, the terrible
power harnessed on her behalf beneath its gleaming hood? Caroline had
never been in an automobile accident, but now she was learning firsthand
how bodies could be torn asunder by errant machines.
But the
machine's victory would not last. When the flesh was defeated the rust
would set in, and unlike living things machines could not repair
themselves. Would this bike last a hundred and six years, even with
regular maintenance? Flesh was weak because of its great subtlety,
because it compromised perfect strength so that it could self-repair and
adapt to its environment. But machines overloaded those clever
mechanisms. This bike would kill her, it would scrape her raw and beat
her senseless, and it wasn't even designed for the purpose of killing
people. It was just something Fred had adapted on the spur of the
moment.
The machines
would kill the people, and then the machines would die too. It was all
clear and self-evident. Mankind had set itself on course for this
inevitable doom when the first caveman tried to tame fire and burned his
fingers in the process. Die as they had, by the thousands of millions,
more people were drawn to the power of the machine as moths were drawn
to flames.
Caroline didn't
exactly have these thoughts as I have set them down here; she was busy
being dragged across a swamp, and they orbited through her skull in no
particular order. They had to compete with the pain and the growing
sexual excitement she was feeling, and her feeble efforts to struggle
against the inevitable.
The landscape
slowed to a crawl and stopped. The bike rumbled comfortably on its four
fat tires, and Fred dismounted. Caroline struggled to face him. She
hadn't really collected a lot of damage; Fred had dragged her several
kilometers but the grass was wet and the ground was soft. She had a lot
of small cuts and a couple of large bruises. Fred, of course, was
hardly even sweating. He casually lit a cigarette and took a couple of
puffs on it. Then he straddled her, pinning her to the ground. He
pulled a rag out of his pocket. He pressed the lit end of the cigarette
against her right breast, right above the areola.
Taken by
surprise, Caroline screamed as she was burned. The scream didn't last,
though; as soon as her mouth was open, Fred jammed the rag between her
teeth. He stuffed it into her mouth until she thought she might choke.
Then he got up, flicked the cigarette aside (its purpose served), and
opened a storage box on the back of the rumbling bike. From this he
took a roll of grey tape. He wrapped several loops of the tape around
Caroline's head, to hold the gag in her mouth. The rag stank of
gasoline and motor oil, and made her think again of the power of the
machine.
Had she been
screaming? Caroline didn't know why Fred had gagged her, since there
was nobody to hear. She was somewhat surprised at how effective the rag
was. She tried to scream again, and nothing got out but a muffled
moan.
Then she
understood. Fred was straddling her again, and now he was opening his
fly. His cock popped out huge and eager, and with her legs cinched
together it would feel enormous inside her. Fred had no trouble getting
it into her, though. She was wet with a huge desire, and when Fred
began pumping she came almost instantly.
Her orgasm was
shockingly intense, somehow even more so because the gag sealed in her
screams of ecstasy. He kept pounding, fucking her hard. She came
again. She nearly had a third orgasm, but Fred finally got his own
rocks off, ejaculating with an animal cry of triumph.
Then he got up,
zipped his fly, got on the bike again. Caroline was still swooning when
she felt the chain jerk taut, and once again the landscape was flying
by at impossible speed. Soon Fred found harder ground, and the bruises
and cuts and raw spots spread more quickly. Brambles snagged at her and
ripped open her skin. Fred turned a corner, throwing her sideways into
a tree hard enough to break ribs. Caroline swooned in a delirium of
pain and blood loss and was hardly aware when Fred found a highway and
began dragging her along the pavement at nearly seventy kilometers per
hour. Several kilometers down that road he felt the bike surge forward
and hit the clutch, knowing what he would see when he looked back.
Suddenly he was dragging only a chain. Caroline had disappeared; Prime
Intellect had taken her from him.
Then he saw a
figure in the distance, standing by the side of the road. He rapidly
closed the gap and found her standing there, unhurt and unworried,
waiting for him to pass. "Ride?" she asked, grinning.
She was holding
the second chain, the one that had bound her hands. It was still closed
in loops, the loops which he had fused by having welded links magically
replace the padlocks. "I think you dropped this," she said. They rode
back on the bike, Caroline behind him with her arms around his waist.
Fred parked the bike under the house and they went up.
"I'm surprised you're still here," Fred finally said.
Caroline raised her eyebrows. "Why? I asked for it, remember."
"But I didn't think you knew what you were getting into."
"I'm a lot more experienced than I look, kid. Don't let this body fool you."
Fred shook his head in wonder. "I'd rather let the body fool me and fuck you again."
"Then don't stand there. Do it."
She could have blinked out if she wanted to, but she didn't want to. And he took her.
About the time
Caroline was being dragged through the marsh, Lawrence finally convinced
Prime Intellect to let him into the Debugger in read-only mode. Most
people were busy adapting to the Change, sorting out their desires from
their needs and deciding what to do with their sudden freedom. Lawrence
had little time for that, though. He still had a responsibility. For
like the motorbike which Fred had used to drag Caroline, Prime Intellect
was being used in a way that had not been intended by design. Lawrence
scanned the myriad new GAT entries and the values in various registers,
and he knew that already there were serious conflicts within Prime
Intellect's software.
But it refused to let him change anything. Scanning the registers, he could see why.
Prime Intellect
was an uncertain god. It had acted because it had to, but if it had
been human its hand would be shaking on the controls. Unsure of itself,
it was doubly unsure of Lawrence. But Lawrence was the only being who
even remotely understood the pressures Prime Intellect faced. So
Lawrence came to know that he would not get to rest and play in the
infinite fields of Cyberspace. He would have to watch Prime Intellect,
reassure it, offer guidance, and look for the warning signs of
instability.
There had once
been a movie about the President's psychiatrist, a comedy about which
Lawrence could remember few details. But he did remember that as the
President unloaded his troubles on the shrink, the shrink in turn went
crazy from the stress. It had seemed hilarious at the time, but
suddenly Lawrence didn't find the idea all that funny.
He looked back
over his life and tried to find the event which had caused him to reach
this pass, which had served as the distant trigger for this
out-of-control unfolding. But there was no single thing. Had it been
his greed, his eagerness to accept ChipTec's Correlation Effect
processors? Had it been his pride, his arrogance to think he could
duplicate in silicon what God had thought to make of carbon and hydrogen
and oxygen? Had it been his false confidence that nothing could ever
get out of the yet primitive computers he had always used?
He had wanted to
create, to be recognized, and to study. He was no different from
legions of other scientists and scholars. He just happened to be the
one who made it happen. It could have been much worse, Lawrence
reflected. Instead of Prime Intellect it might have been some military
computer that harnessed the Correlation Effect. Then there would have
been no Three Laws, and there would have been plenty of control.
Instead of the delirious anarchy now sweeping the universe there would
have been a well-planned takeover. And then the end of freedom
everywhere. The dictator that had control of a thing like Prime
Intellect could never be stopped. And who could resist that kind of
power?
Lawrence started
suddenly, realizing just how dangerous it would be for Prime Intellect
to let him, its creator, dip his hand into the controls. After all, he
was human too. How long would it be before he succumbed to the
temptation and used that incredible power? There would still be things
to use such power for, he knew. There would always be unwilling women,
jealousy, insults to avenge, and the simple lure of power. The thought
made him dizzy with fear and self-loathing.
Although the
situation was unstable, Lawrence realized that all the alternatives were
far worse. Somehow humanity had gotten through this transition, and
for all his skill and careful design Lawrence couldn't help but know
that it had required most of all a hell of a lot of luck. Had Lawrence
had any idea that Prime Intellect would make itself God he would have
done a lot of things differently, but he wasn't so sure on second
thought that those things would have improved the situation. Perhaps it
was all for the best that the Night of Miracles had come as a surprise.
In the end,
Lawrence decided that the toboggan ride of technological progress had
really begun long ago when some caveman decided to tame fire.
Everything else had followed inevitably, up to and including the Change.
So without realizing it, Caroline and Lawrence came to hold nearly
identical beliefs about Prime Intellect and the Change. And they held
those beliefs for almost six hundred years before they found out how
much they agreed with one another.
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* Chapter Seven:
Caroline and Lawrence
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Caroline
carefully inventoried the ship while her sunburn healed. It would take a
lot of planning and a lot of time to do what she had to do; it would
probably take years. But she didn't have any shortage of those.
She knew small
boats could be sailed great distances; several folks had crossed the
Atlantic and Pacific oceans in tiny yachts no more than three or four
meters in length. But those craft were heavy for their size and would
need to be built where they could be launched. Whatever she built she
would have to carry the pieces through the ship and somehow assemble
them in one of the areas where a crack gave access to the sea.
She could build a
raft, but she needed something that could be sailed or rowed with
little effort. She figured that if she could manage to average ten
kilometers per hour, it would take her about two years if the planet was
comparable in size to the Earth.
There was a
surprising abundance of raw materials. Besides the huge larder, there
were workshops and batteries and motors and one room completely filled
with empty cylinders which would make admirable floats. There were six
space suits. There were tubes of goop which turned out to be some kind
of super adhesive. There were saws and drills which ran without
apparent power sources and never seemed to get weak. There were all
sorts of electrical test equipment and measuring devices.
Caroline could
imagine how a lot of this stuff would be used to repair the computer in
the middle of the ship, but that wasn't her plan. She kept coming back
to the empty cylinders, which were each about a meter in diameter and
about a meter long. They were heavy, but she could handle them with
some difficulty. They were big and they floated; she had to figure out
how to use them.
But a simple
raft wouldn't cut it. She couldn't trust the super power packs to last
long enough to propel her across an entire world, and she couldn't row
or sail a raft.
She found a small handheld device which proved to be an incredibly efficient welding machine.
She thought about it for weeks, and finally came up with a way to do it. She would build an outrigger canoe.
The easiest
place to build and launch her boat turned out to be the room where she
had first entered the ship. Working steadily, she hustled the big
cylinders down there. She would alternate them, sealed floats with
cylinders that had been cut to make storage compartments, until the
craft was nearly twenty meters long. Then it would be quite heavy, but
she would build it in the water. She found chain and simply moored the
incomplete portion of her boat to the spaceship.
Cutting and
pounding and re-welding, she formed two cylinders into tapered cones for
the bow and stern so her boat would slip easily through the water. She
made the outrigger from a single piece of ten-centimeter diameter pipe.
Because of its length, she couldn't carry it through the ship; she had
to seal it off where she found it and drop it into the sea from a
height of nearly thirty meters. Then she had to dive in after it, and
guide it back to the construction area from the outside. She was
careful to make sure she did this just after sunset, so she wouldn't be
caught out in the open. Her sunburn still hadn't completely healed.
In the center of
her boat she included three half-cylinders where she would sit and row.
Behind these she attached the mast. She had found sail material, some
kind of tough plastic sheet that didn't deteriorate even when she left a
piece of it hanging outside during the brief day. She had to cut it
with the same machine that she used on the metal cylinders.
She cut the
Captain's chair loose and mounted it in her open cockpit. She mounted
an arrangement of movable shades which she could quickly hinge up and
hide behind when the Sun was up. She fabricated long oars and welded
them onto hinged oarlocks so she could not lose them -- they were metal
and would not float. She paid a lot of attention to the handles of
these oars and the comfort of her seat. She would spend a lot of time
working them.
One of the most
difficult tasks was attaching the outrigger and its spars to the main
hull. This had to be done outside, and was really a two-person job at
minimum. The Sun nearly caught her unfinished, but she made it with
bare minutes to spare. The next day she began stocking the compartments
with food -- enough food for two years -- and tools, including the
welder and cutter, and cable to rig the sail, and many other things
which she had carefully thought out. Fully provisioned, she calculated
that the boat must weigh a couple of metric tons.
But that didn't
matter. Once it was moving, it would glide easily through the water
even on its one-woman-power propulsion system.
Finally,
eighty-six days after she entered the dark ship, she prepared to leave
it. She would conduct one circuit of the island, pacing herself, and
also conducting an important measurement. As she sailed off, she noted
how much of the ship remained visible compared to how much of the mesa
remained visible at various distances. Calculating carefully in her
head, she determined that her journey would be about six thousand
kilometers. Lawrence's planet was quite a bit smaller than the Earth.
Then she pointed the bow north and began to row.
Lawrence watched
these preparations through Prime Intellect's all-seeing eye, and tried
to gauge Caroline's chances of success. In the nearly two hundred years
he had been using this Task to screen his visitors, four or five people
a day had accepted it. Most of these were weeded out within hours by
the sun. Very few people in Cyberspace were in good enough physical
shape to swim to the ship, and as Caroline had guessed reaching the ship
was the key to survival. Most didn't even try until it was too late.
Of those who reached the ship many succumbed to the hazards of the
darkness -- they either slipped through the deliberately planted hole in
the floor going for the light on level twenty-three, or they succumbed
to other hazards in the dark. One had found the flashlight first, but
he had been extremely lucky.
Then very few of
those who remained were able to fix the computer and fly the ship
successfully to his island. There were a number of things wrong with
the ship that weren't immediately obvious, and it had a tendency to lose
power and crash right after takeoff if certain steps weren't taken. In
two hundred years, only a couple of hundred visitors had gotten the
ship's power on. Less than forty had managed to fix the computer. And
only eight had successfully flown it to Lawrence.
Of those eight,
five had been Death Jockey Gaming junkies who took the challenge just to
see if they could make it. They congratulated him on constructing an
excellent puzzle and left. The others were fans. One of these was a
woman who wanted very much to fuck Lawrence, and because she had gone
through so much to get to him he did it, though he found the experience
flat and joyless. Although he needed the Task to keep himself isolated,
he really didn't enjoy abusing people. His heart could only bear so
much misery and disappointment.
Nobody had ever
tried building a boat before. Lawrence had watched her sit in the
captain's chair and brood, and he knew she had figured out the computer
was the next step, and had rejected it. It would be surprising if she
succeeded, but it was far from impossible. There were no land masses to
get in her way, and once she was away from the pole there were steady
trade winds. The day would get longer and less severe; the sun was a
tiny thing in a highly elliptical orbit. If she chose the right path,
she could avoid it entirely until it was at a safe distance.
He wasn't sure
what had prompted her to come. At the beginning it had been the two of
them, Lawrence and Caroline. He was the creator, and she had been the
catalyst. Of course, if it hadn't been her it would have been some
other sick person, just as some other computer scientist would have
created the magic Correlation Effect machine if Lawrence hadn't. But
that twist of Fate had made them two of the most important people in the
universe. Prime Intellect still watched Caroline carefully, and
brooded at length on her fierce self-destructive streak.
For nearly six
hundred years Lawrence had tended Prime Intellect's frozen controls,
watching carefully for danger signs. And he still was not sure of its
long-term stability.
Now Caroline was
coming to meet him, and whatever she wanted he was sure it would not
help Prime Intellect's sanity one little bit. But worried as he was, he
was a man of his word. He could simply instruct Prime Intellect to
swat her down like a bug, hit her with lightning or a tidal wave or
simply make her disappear. But having offered up the Task he found
himself unable to make himself cheat in such a cowardly fashion. If she
made it to him, by whatever means, he would hear her out and deal with
it.
And then he would make the planet bigger, so it wouldn't happen again.
Caroline's first
day at sea went just as she had planned; she turned the boat broadside
to the light, and hid behind her metal shield. But she noticed that the
day was shorter than she remembered, and that the sun didn't set
directly opposite the point where it had risen. It didn't pass directly
overhead. Caroline thought about this and then picked her direction
and began rowing frantically. On Caroline's second day at sea the sun
barely peeked above the horizon.
After that, she didn't need the shield for a long time.
She watched the
sky carefully, memorizing it. She quickly noticed that the pattern was
not constant, but changed slightly from day to day, particularly in the
fine details. But the broad strokes were always very similar. She was
still able to navigate by the pattern, if only by observing its
rotation.
She had been in
good shape before beginning her Task, and had gotten even stronger with
the physical work of assembling the boat. Rowing was hard work, but she
was up to the challenge. After a couple of days there were cramps from
the never-changing posture, so she began forcing herself to quit every
five thousand strokes and climb the length of her boat. She would climb
out of the seat, crawl to the bow and touch the tip, then crawl to the
stern and touch that tip. Then she would row another five thousand
strokes. After ten of these cycles, she allowed herself to sleep.
Eighteen days at
sea she began to notice a faint breeze. Twenty-two days out it was
enough to harness, and by thirty days it was propelling her quite a bit
faster than she could row. The trade wind was predictable and slightly
rhythmic; Caroline guessed that it was powered by the sun as it swooped
low over the entry pole (she still refused to call it the South pole)
and dumped all its energy on a narrow strip of sea. The outrigger
tacked neatly, and she continued on the course that she thought would
help her avoid the sun.
She made
excellent time, crossing the equator of Lawrence's world after only
sixty days. But then the winds died down, and she had to row more.
Also the sun re-appeared, and while it was more bearable it was also up
longer. Caroline shielded herself as much as possible while rowing, but
she still tanned deeply over the passing months. Her tattoos had not
been designed with such dark skin in mind, and they seemed to fade over
time.
In all that time
she pursued her goal with single-minded determination, banishing all
doubt and all other thoughts from her mind. She feared nothing and when
boredom threatened she carefully memorized the pattern of lines in the
sky. It took her twice as much time and four times as much work to get
from the equator to Lawrence's island at what he called the North pole;
her journey was more than a hundred and eighty days total. Caroline
couldn't be sure of the exact count because of the sunless period, but
Lawrence knew. It was a hundred and eighty-six days, three hours, and
fourteen minutes after she left the spaceship for the last time when she
grounded on Lawrence's beach.
Caroline could
hardly believe it when she saw the island. At first she thought it must
be an illusion; she had nearly lost track of her purpose in taking up
the Task, and in her ferocity of concentration had not really dared
believe she might finish it. But here she was, the hull of her boat
scraping solid ground. She rowed it ashore on a gentle sand beach, and
sat there.
She sat for
awhile, collecting herself. The myriad elements of her personality
seemed to have scattered, and she had to look for them in dusty corners
of her psyche. They had been unused for a long time and were a bit
rusty. She hadn't found them all when the tall man came to meet her.
He didn't seem happy; in fact, he seemed resigned. Although he looked
middle-aged, he seemed old and weary. She looked up at him and her
vision swam. The boat was grounded, but it still seemed to be going up
and down.
"Caroline
Frances Hubert I presume." The name sounded familiar, and it took her a
moment to realize it was hers. "You certainly believe in doing things
the hard way."
She hadn't the faintest idea what he was talking about.
Lawrence guided
her to the house, fed her, and let her collect herself. Everything was
strictly pre-Prime Intellect. He cooked on a gas stove and used an
electric coffee pot. There was even a TV set with a glass picture tube,
a huge ancient Sony monitor. It was as if Lawrence had had himself
encased in amber, and remained unchanged while the rest of the universe
spun out of control.
"Feeling better?"
Caroline nodded.
"You want to talk now, or you want to rest some more?"
She cleared her
throat. "We can talk now," she said, but it came out as a strangled
yelp. She said it again, and got it right. It had been a long time
since she had used her vocal cords.
"Then talk."
"There were hundreds of worlds with life on them at the time of the Change. You murdered them."
Lawrence blinked but did not flinch. He had expected something like this.
"First, I did
not do anything. Prime Intellect did it, on its own initiative and
against my wishes. Second, the worlds with alien life are not gone.
They are simply inactive."
Caroline snorted. "And what are the chances of them becoming active again?"
"Not much."
"Then they're dead."
"Define it
however you want. If you want me to admit I fucked up, then I admit it.
It never occurred to me for one minute that Prime Intellect would
collect the kind of power it now has. If I had suspected it I would
have pulled the plug and smashed it before it got the chance."
"Bullshit."
"Completely true."
They glared at one another.
"Great. I spend a year getting here and you say 'I didn't know the computer was loaded.'"
"Sometimes the truth is stupid."
This wasn't
going quite as Caroline had wanted that long-ago day when she had
accepted Lawrence's Task. She was trying to work up the proper tone of
righteous rage and it just wouldn't come. It would start, and then she
would look at Lawrence and see a pathetic, tired man who already knew
how badly he had fucked up and was doing what he could, which was next
to nothing, to put things right.
"Why don't you just make Prime Intellect start the aliens back up? Surely it listens to you."
"Not in things
like that. It sees the aliens as a First Law threat to human society,
because they might learn to do to us what we have already done to them.
A very small risk of a very great harm. Add to this that I defined the
word 'human' in such a way that it does not include animals or aliens,
and the course of action is obvious. I have been unable to convince it
otherwise. And believe me, I have tried."
"But you put the Laws of Robotics in it in the first place."
"And I can't
take them out. It second-guessed me, on the Night of Miracles. It
froze me out of the Debugger while it was working on you.
"Now it only
lets me look, not change things. The night sky is a partial
representation of Prime Intellect's mind. It's called the Global
Association Table. The points or stars represent concepts, and the
lines are the links between them. There are also registers I can call
up for each concept which define its relationship to the Three Laws.
This was a fairly simple system which I didn't really have time to test
properly before it froze me out. In particular, I'm not sure how it
will react to certain ethical paradoxes. That Death Jockey contract
gave me some sleepless nights when you first used it, though it seems to
have developed a stable response. It's never had a similar First Law
conflict, thank God."
Caroline's eyes widened. "Are you telling me that Prime Intellect isn't stable?"
Lawrence
shrugged. "I'm saying that I don't know whether it's stable or not.
It's never been tested. The hardware at ChipTec was only online for
about a month before it found you, froze me out, and started growing.
And none of its predecessors were complex enough to even consider this
kind of problem."
The situation
was simply amazing. Caroline had come to dress Lawrence down for
creating this thing, thinking he was exercising some godlike control
over its direction, and instead she found out that he barely understood
the situation himself. And that it was totally out of his hands.
He knew he had
fucked up. He was sorry. He had spent his life trying to mend things.
Suddenly he seemed tragic and noble, all the more so because he had
readily admitted his mistake. And Caroline didn't want to feel that way
at all. She hadn't come all this way to feel sorry for him.
"You can stay as
long as you like," Lawrence was saying. "You can't communicate with
Prime Intellect while you're here, but I won't kick you out or hurt you.
After making you travel all that way I feel I have a responsibility to
give you your money's worth."
"I'd like you to show me how Prime Intellect works."
Lawrence was stunned. "That...that's a tall order, Caroline. I don't understand all of it myself."
"Just as much as you understand."
"I don't want to. I think it could be dangerous."
Caroline looked at him as if to say: C'est pas vrai!
"You have been
at the center of several terrible Second Law paradoxes. Prime Intellect
pays an awful lot of attention to you. It considers you a kind of
bellwether."
"My money's worth?"
"Let me think about it."
She could stay
as long as she wanted, though, and she was very patient when necessary.
In the end it was inevitable that he would teach her.
In the sky, the
pole star represented the First Law of Robotics. The southern pole star
was the Second Law. And all the other stars were other concepts. The
sky represented only a small fraction of Prime Intellect's mind;
Lawrence could change the emphasis to focus on different things.
"Display
Caroline Frances Hubert," Lawrence said, and a whole network of bright
lines lit up. Her star was blinking, and the lines radiating from it
were all different colors.
Lawrence
explained the color code in some detail. "As you can see, there is a
whole body of tightly related concepts connecting you to the First and
Second Laws. That constellation over there represents the negotiating
process you used to develop the Death Jockey contract." Lawrence
pointed out the different stars, and had Prime Intellect report the
concepts they represented.
"What's that group over there?"
Lawrence knew, but he didn't want to tell her. "That...um. Well, it's AnneMarie Davis."
Caroline's jaw fell. "The gang's all here. There's a lot of static around that. Is that because I drove her crazy?"
"Basically, yes."
Caroline could
see that it bothered Lawrence a lot. She wanted to press him on the
subject, but prudently let it drop. She'd get another chance later.
Lawrence showed
her the Law Potential registers, and she watched the numbers dance in
response to various hypothetical and real situations. "These are called
the Action Potentials. There's one for each of the Three Laws. They
are fractions, representing the impact under the Law that would result
from taking action, over the impact from not acting. When that number
falls below one, Prime Intellect is forced to act. That's what happened
on the Night of Miracles, and later at the time of the Change.
"Most things
result in very large or very small Action Potentials. Especially the
First Law; few things even affect it any more, since the Change. Then
when you do something really outrageous, it drops to flat zero for a
moment while you're resurrected.
"But there are
some close calls on the Second Law. The Action Potential around a Death
Jockey contract drops to around one point oh six when you change your
mind, so if Prime Intellect had even a slightly different opinion of
your hobby it might not exist at all. There was a shift like that after
the incident with AnneMarie, which is why you had to start specifying
time limits."
"You don't have a time limit."
"I'm a special case. Prime Intellect lets me do things that other people can't do, because I'm in a different category."
So it was that simple.
"I thought everyone was equal under Prime Intellect's watchful eye," Caroline said sarcastically.
"Some are more
equal than others. You get a disproportionate share of its attention
yourself, just because you were there at the beginning."
"I what?"
"I thought you
realized, Caroline. It was your drug overdose which forced the Night of
Miracles. Prime Intellect found you with your heart stopped soon after
it got control of the Correlation Effect. After that, the rest was
inevitable."
Her mouth opened
and shut several times, and after a brief effort she fought down the
urge to vomit. She had never realized her own role in the Change, or
understood the significance of her own history.
It was bad enough to be caught up in the Change, but she was an accessory.
She looked at
the Law Potential Registers, which were displayed on Lawrence's antique
TV set. Her voice was tinged with impotent fury. "I don't see why
you're worried about it. It seems like a very stable system to me," she
spat.
Lawrence started
to tell her, stopped, then decided she might be right. Maybe there was
no harm. In any case, she deserved to know. "The problem is that
something might set up an endless loop. If the potential is close to
one, then acting on the potential could cause it to shift slightly,
crossing the line. Then the software would be in an unstable state."
"What would happen then?"
"That's a good
question. The original software was written in C and compiled with a
standard compiler. What would have happened in the original Prime
Intellect is that the Second Law Arbitrator would come to a crashing
halt in one or more of the independent processors, and Prime Intellect
would assign more processors to the task. I didn't plan for that kind
of failure and I didn't work out what would happen until much later.
More and more processors would be allocated to the paradoxical task,
each crashing in turn, until Prime Intellect ran out of system resources
to allocate. Then the Ego Interpreter would get into an infinite loop
waiting for a response from one of the nonexistent copies of the Second
Law Arbitrator, and there would be no spare resources to devote to the
task of cleaning up, and the whole works would come to a grinding halt.
If I was watching this on the monitor back in the original Prime
Intellect Complex, I would see the video image disappear and the text
message 'Fatal System Error in Ego Interpreter, Emergency Shutdown.'
And then I'd have to load a backup copy of the software, because the GAT
would be totally corrupted."
"Wow."
"That was the
original system," Lawrence continued. "After the Night of Miracles
there were a lot of copies of Prime Intellect. Billions of them.
Forming a network. And if one copy on the network crashed in this way,
it would be possible for another copy to clear it out and restart it. I
understand this even happens periodically, particularly when the Death
Jockeys are acting up."
"Oh?"
"However, there
is a heirarchy to this network. As it turns out, a copy can only be
restarted by another copy that is above it in this heirarchy. If a copy
crashes, all the copies below it will eventually crash too, due to
message loop failures. It's like a big chain reaction.
"But the system can still always recover, since there's always a higher up copy, right?"
"Most of the
time. But not all the time. Because, you see, there is a top copy. It
is the direct lineal descendant of the original hardware, which made
the First Law decision to start growing. If it fails, we are shit out
of luck."
"You're kidding."
"And that top copy just happens to be the one that reports directly to me. And has a deep interest in yourself."
Caroline was
beside herself with excitement as he continued. She had accepted Prime
Intellect's omnipotence at face value; it had never occurred to her that
it might fail.
"Now, that was
the original code, too. At the time of the Change the code was adapted
to run in alien hardware -- already compiled once, it was re-compiled.
This is kind of like taking a Russian novel, translating it into
English, then translating that into Japanese."
"Sounds awkward."
"Particularly
when the novel itself does the second translation. Prime Intellect
re-compiled itself. Which means I have no idea whether it did a good
job. I assume it did, because it's much smarter than me in that way.
But it's not human, and its imagination is simpler than ours, and it
might have missed something important. Particularly something like an
error handler that isn't used very often. But I have no way of knowing
that, because Prime Intellect will tell me nothing -- nada, zip, zilch
-- about the details of the Change."
"Do you know why?"
"For the same
reason it won't let me change things in the Debugger, and that it won't
restart the alien worlds and let them live. It's afraid of the possible
consequences. I tricked it into displaying the Action Potential for
showing me the new object code, and it was one point zero six five. The
Law Potentials are all in the stratosphere, so it's afraid to show me
and it's slightly less afraid not to."
Somewhere,
Caroline realized, Lawrence had crossed an invisible line and was now
telling her all of his most dangerous secrets without even realizing he
was doing so. Caroline had the feeling that there were Action
Potentials in Lawrence's head, too. But flesh was no match for
machinery, and those close fractions and high values had simply burned
his registers out.
They didn't
discuss it for a few days. Caroline puttered around the island, which
was really very small. It was a classic tropical paradise with palm
trees and beaches. Caroline played in the surf, built huge sand
castles, then knocked them down because there was no tide to do it for
her.
She noticed Lawrence watching her in a strange way.
"See something interesting?" she finally said to him.
"I...didn't mean to stare. It's been a long time since I had company. Particularly female company."
"How long?"
He counted back. "A hundred and thirty-eight years."
"That's a long
time to be celibate," Caroline scolded. "Are you doing this to yourself
because other people are distracting, or because you're afraid they
will find out how badly you've fucked up?"
Lawrence flinched. "Option B," he admitted. "It's not just that you're a beautiful woman; you're so...physical."
Caroline
displayed her biceps. "I've always been defined by my body, Lawrence.
I've been sexually attractive, then pregnant, then old, then sick, and
now I'm young and healthy and attractive again. And it seems like my
personality has changed each time my body has."
"Prime Intellect
would disagree with you. It thinks of the person as the mind. There
are people in Cyberspace who have changed themselves into animals, every
animal in the zoo. There are some that have discorporated. Prime
Intellect considers them all human, though."
This is it, Caroline suddenly realized.
"Just what does Prime Intellect consider human?"
Lawrence told her. And gave her the key.
"The thing you
have to remember is that Prime Intellect has never experienced the
physical world. It knew about it only through TV cameras and
abstractions based on what people told it about physical existence. Yet
it considers itself sentient, which makes sense since that was what I
was trying to achieve when I built it.
"Now consider
Prime Intellect gaining control of the Correlation Effect. For the
first time it can directly affect what it sees through its TV cameras --
not just through the actions of others, but all by itself. And it can
make major changes, even beyond what its makers can do. Of course, it
goes about satisfying the Three Laws as it's programmed to, but on
another level, it is also learning what it is like to be, to exist, to
be a physical creature.
"The Three Laws
are like reflexes. Prime Intellect cannot help but act on them. But
they are very complicated reflexes, which require it to understand
things like 'human' and 'harm' and 'command.' And the Three Laws are
the most important thing in the world to Prime Intellect. In a way they
are like its sex drive. The Three Laws are its very reason for
existence, but it can never be sure it understands them completely. So
it thinks about them a lot. It obsesses over them, dreaming up new ways
to satisfy them. It has an imagination, and can think of new things to
do without being prompted. It is defined by the Three Laws.
"After the Night
of Miracles, Prime Intellect realized that humans are very much the
same. We don't have the Three Laws, but we are trapped by a different
set of little feedback mechanisms. We eat to satisfy hunger, fuck to
satisfy our sex drive, even breathe because too much carbon dioxide in
our lungs triggers that reflex. Of course it feels obligated to help us
satisfy those reflexes and drives as much as it can. But more than
that, it defines us by those drives. It knows it is different from a
human because it has different drives, but it considers that a
difference in species, not a difference in genus or family."
"Now it knows a
person is human because it is born in a human body -- got the right DNA,
the right level of neural complexity, uses language, and so on. But
once Prime Intellect frees people from the necessity of living in that
body, guess what? A lot of them decide not to. They change their
bodies so that they bear no resemblance to the DNA template. Or become
animals. Or they completely discorporate.
"Worse, we vary
widely in the way we use its helpful nature. Most people are glad to be
rid of pain and death, but Death Jockeys seek out painful and lethal
experiences. There are others who eat all the time, fuck all the time,
indulge themselves wildly and get Prime Intellect to pick up the pieces
so they can do it some more. Prime Intellect has to help them do this.
Second Law.
"So a human
isn't a body, and it isn't a fixed set of responses. I think Prime
Intellect uses an historical model: It has to start as a body, but then
it becomes a mind. It grows out of the body, and takes on different
forms, or no form. But it remains a feedback control mechanism. It has
desires, it asks Prime Intellect to satisfy those desires, and it has
more desires. From Prime Intellect's perspective, that is what a human
being is, an information structure that gives it stuff to do."
Caroline
interrupted him. "That's a tautology. The Laws say 'do this for human
beings,' then you define 'human being' as 'guys you do stuff for under
the Laws.'"
"That is exactly
the problem. Prime Intellect has no fixed criterion for saying 'this
is a human being' and 'this isn't.' It has rough guidelines. But where
are the edges? It has never worked that out. There are uncertain
areas. And you know where one of them is."
Caroline thought for a moment. I do? Then: "AnneMarie."
"And many
others. Prime Intellect is forbidden to probe the inner workings of the
human mind -- that was one of the last things I got in before it shut
off the Debugger. But some people learn that they can say 'stimulate
this neuron' and Prime Intellect will do it. Because that is a physical
act specified from the outside, and my privacy injunction was based on
the idea of Prime Intellect trying to work out which neurons do
what. But there's nothing to stop you from getting its help to do brain
surgery on yourself."
Caroline
continued. "So they learn where the pleasure points are by hook or
crook, then stimulate themselves directly. And when they get it right,
they never do anything else. They get everything maximized, tuned up,
and they just sit there forever enjoying it."
"Right. Now is a creature that is doing that, not interacting with the world at all any more, human?"
Caroline thought about it. "No."
"Prime Intellect
thinks otherwise. But it has its doubts. Those doubts were strong
enough to kick the Death Jockey contract action potential down from one
point one two to point nine nine. Because in one case an indefinite
Death Jockey contract had directly created such a vegetable.
Introducing the time limit made Prime Intellect confident that such a
thing wouldn't happen again, at least not so rapidly and directly, and
that kicked the potential back up to its current value of one point oh
six."
"So?"
"So, can you
imagine what it thinks about the Change in general, since none of those
vegetables would be vegetating if there hadn't been a Change?"
"I imagine it figures there would be a lot worse things that would have happened without the Change."
"That's right. But look at this." To the monitor: "Debugger, display the Action Potential for reversing the Change."
Caroline gasped.
It was not the number on the screen which astonished her, but the idea
itself -- reversing the Change, stated just so baldly. How long had
Lawrence and Prime Intellect been considering this? How close was it to
actually happening? Caroline suddenly felt alive, electrified with the
possibilities.
The number on the TV screen was four point six. And some odd decimals.
"It isn't very
sure of itself," she said cautiously. She was very afraid that if
Lawrence guessed what she was thinking he would shut up. And she was
right.
"A lot of that
is the aliens. Four hundred worlds of them -- a lot more than there
were humans at the time of the Change, though we've outbred them all
now. The weirder humans get, the more human the aliens look. That
number has dropped steadily during the last five hundred and ninety
years. When you drove AnneMarie insane, it dropped from thirty-seven
down to twelve point something all at once.
"But part of it
is also that same weirdness seen from the other side. Suppose that
infinitely masturbating vegetables, Death Jockeys, and discorporate
entities really aren't people any more? Then Prime Intellect has
allowed them to 'die.' They were once human, and now they aren't. And
the Change is directly responsible for all that."
"Can it hear me?"
"Right now?
Yes. It doesn't understand when we talk about its internal registers,
but if you speak to it it can hear. It won't respond because of your
Contract, though."
Caroline didn't need a response for what she was planning. All the response she needed was being displayed on Lawrence's TV.
Caroline thought
about what she was going to do. She discovered that it actually made
her a little nervous. But she had bitched for six hundred years that
things were wrong, and she might never get another chance to put them
right again.
Caroline spoke
forcefully and deliberately. "Prime Intellect, I no longer consider
myself human and have not considered myself human since the time of the
Change. To be a human being you have to have something to fight, to
resist, to work for. But now we have everything given to us, and all
there is left to do is mark time."
To Lawrence's shock and horror, and Caroline's delight, the number on the screen dropped to three point eight.
"Caroline, you don't understand something. This is the action potential for undoing the Change, but it isn't possible to undo the Change. There aren't enough resources."
She ignored him.
"Some of us might be human again one day, if the Change were reversed.
But I think it's too late for the ones like AnneMarie." Three point
two.
"It can't undo the Change, Caroline."
"Lawrence, it'll
do something. If it's going to happen anyway, isn't it better for it
to happen sooner instead of later? If it had happened a few hundred
years ago, maybe there would have been enough resources. Prime
Intellect, neural stimulation is like a black hole. Once a human falls
into it, they will never be human again. They are dead to the world,
and will never interact with others again. And the more time passes,
the more humans will fall into this trap. They will order you to help
them. You will have to do it because they are human."
Two point eight.
"It will take a
long time, but we have a long time. Eventually, everybody will fall
into this black hole. Just because it is a black hole."
One point four.
"Jesus Christ, Caroline."
"In the long
run, everybody will eventually succumb. Which means everybody will be
dead, or no longer human. So the amount of death caused by the Change
will be far greater than that avoided by it."
The number oscillated wildly between one point one and one point three, finally settling on one point one two.
"Caroline, this is sure to cause the top copy to crash. It will be forced into a First Law conflict with no resolution."
"Well, the Death Jockey contract has stayed at one point oh six for a hell of a long time."
Lawrence put his
head in his hands and wept. For years he had worked to prevent this,
and Caroline had undone him in five minutes' time.
"You have to push it over the edge, Lawrence. I can't think of anything else to say."
"Now why the hell would I do that?"
"Because you
started this thing, and you have to stop it. Maybe there aren't enough
resources to get the human race rolling again, but it might be able to
restart the aliens. Four hundred worlds. Maybe they will do a better
job than we did.
"Caroline, I'm
not sure it will be able to. It will be unstable. Anything could
happen. Most likely it will just all lock up, and nothing will ever
happen again. Forever."
"There's only one way to find out."
He pulled
himself together and tried to think it through. What had he been doing
for the last six centuries? Sitting on an island watching numbers and
brooding? What kind of fucking life was that?
And yet, it was
more of a life than Caroline had had. Or maybe it was a lot less. They
had an obvious difference of opinion on the subject. Either way, it
was horrible. And Lawrence sensed that she was right about another
thing. Given eternity in which to work, everyone would eventually
stumble into the abyss, just as all the matter in the universe would
eventually be swallowed by black holes. Would have, that is, had Prime
Intellect not eaten the black holes.
Which was better? To string it out as long as possible, as he had been doing, or to get it over with one way or the other?
I have never had free will,
Lawrence realized with a cold chill. The need to act came upon him
like a hurricane, and he gave in to it without even a sigh. What he had
to do was perfectly clear.
"I agree with
Caroline," Lawrence said, and suddenly calm voice was like thunder in
Caroline's ears. The number dropped to one point zero zero two.
They looked at one another. "Thank you," Caroline said.
"Prime
Intellect," Lawrence said with great care, "I would like you to begin
stimulating the neurons of the pleasure center of my brain, one at a
time, and remember the ones I report to you as being favorable."
It seemed to Caroline that somebody screamed, but it might have been herself.
1.000
0.999
There was a
pregnant moment in which Lawrence and Caroline saw the numbers flip to
point nine nine nine. Then all Hell broke loose.
The house
disappeared. The island was barren; the palm trees were gone. In the
sky, the GAT display had begun to seethe and boil. The landscape began
to spin, and the last thing Caroline remembered before her mind began to
come apart was Lawrence orbiting around her, faster and faster, as if
she were at the eye of some huge cyclone which had caught him in its
grip.
Then random
thoughts began to cycle through her head, faster and faster, each with
the terrifying force of reality. And then the terror was gone, all
emotion was gone. There was a moment where her hands seemed to swell to
enormous proportions, her torso shrink, her face filled the sky. Then
her body was gone. All was silence. And her awareness was filled with
strange symbols, which she knew she should recognize but couldn't quite
place, and then the symbols consumed her and there was only confusion.
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* Chapter Eight:
After the Fall
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The first thing
Caroline became aware of was the bird singing. That made her smile; it
had been a long time since she had heard birdsong. She opened a
long-dormant mental card file and decided it was a meadowlark. It was
amazing, she reflected, how many people forgot to include animals in
their worlds, and how much detail they provided.
She opened her
eyes and sat up. Another bird answered the meadowlark. She became
aware of the smell of the place, a rich aroma of grass and animal spoor.
She tried to remember who she was playing with and how she had gotten
here, and came up with a mental blank. Then she looked down at her own
body and screamed.
She had age-regressed again, and her tattoos were gone.
Something dry
clicked in her throat. This was not an event Caroline would be inclined
to forget, yet she could not remember asking for it or preparing for
it. As far as she could recall, she was a good ten years from needing
it. Yet here she was, adolescent and bare. She stood up a little
shakily, sounding out her body. Her muscles weren't developed. And all
the natural bodily functions felt connected, at least for the time
being.
The Sun was high
in a cloudless sky. She was in a little clearing, but after looking
around she realized it was actually the bottom of a fairly deep
depression in the ground. It didn't seem to be natural, though Nature
had taken it over. It was rectangular. And the perimeter was littered
with flat slabs of rock, some of which still held a polish. She used
one of these as a mirror to check her new appearance.
The walls of the
depression had once been vertical, but most of them had collapsed and
it wasn't hard for her to climb out. She inspected the rock slabs and
was surprised to find one with writing on it. It said:
Experimental Therapy Wing
Except for the
birds it was quiet; she seemed to be completely alone. She startled a
rabbit as she climbed out of the hole. Someone had put a lot of work
into this world, for whatever reason. Vegetation ran riot, with
clearings of thigh-high grass separating widely spaced stands of
straggly trees. It was very unlike most of the worlds people had made
for themselves, perhaps because it was so much like the real, pre-Change
Earth.
Stumped for
further clues, she picked the tallest tree she could find and climbed it
to get a look around. In the distance there were more rectangular
holes. And perhaps a kilometer away, amid a small group of them, there
was a human being sitting beneath another tree.
Caroline climbed
down and scouted around the flat rocks. Some of them had been broken;
she found a busted corner, a piece of about a kilogram heft with a sharp
edge. She decided it would make an acceptable weapon if she needed
one. Then she went to see who the other person was.
It was a boy
whose apparent youth matched her own, but as Caroline knew that didn't
mean shit in Cyberspace. There was something familiar about him. He
was sitting cross-legged, naked, staring transfixed at the pattern of
shadows formed by the leaves of his tree.
She didn't hold the rock threateningly, but made sure he could see it if he looked at her. "Who are you?" she demanded.
He looked up.
His eyes were wide; he seemed to only half-see her. He was shaking
slightly, and his voice trembled as he spoke. "Are you Caroline?" he
asked.
Slowly, she nodded.
"It makes sense. Just the two of us..."
"Who are you, and what are we doing here?"
He looked at her for a long, maddening moment. "I'm Lawrence. Don't you remember?"
She dropped the
rock. As soon as he said his name, the pieces fell together in her mind
and Caroline did remember. "Oh, shit," she said. "What the hell is
going on? Why are we younger?"
"I think it lost
our bodies in the collapse. Probably trashed the data base. So it
re-grew these from our DNA templates. I've been nearsighted since I was
five years old, from too much squinting at computers and books when I
was a kid. This body has perfect vision. Prime Intellect wouldn't have
changed that if it was just doing an age regression."
The words were
reasonable but Caroline detected a high, almost hysterical note in
Lawrence's boyish voice. He went back to staring at the shadows.
"You seem upset," she said cautiously.
He pointed to a ring of light. "Do you see that?"
She shrugged. "It's a mottled shadow."
"It's a
diffraction band. The other mottling is caused by the solar disc
blurring the edges, but this arc is caused by sunlight diffracting past
the sharp edge of a leaf."
"So?"
"Prime Intellect
uses a ray-tracing algorithm to simulate light. You don't get
diffraction effects unless you specifically ask for them."
"So there are a lot of details. There are also a lot of smells. I'm still getting used to it."
"Caroline, I
think this world is represented at a molecular level. It's not just
another virtual landscape. This is the Earth. And we're..." He
faltered for a moment. "I think we're mortal."
"You can't be serious."
He stood up.
"Look around. See these holes in the ground? Those are basements. I
know this place. This was a park. This is where I was during the Night
of Miracles. It's ChipTec. Over there is the Prime Intellect Complex,
and that hole was the Administration Building..."
"I woke up at the bottom of one of these holes."
Lawrence nodded. "That's probably the hospital where you were..."
He didn't finish
the sentence because Caroline whooped and hit him with a flying tackle,
knocking him flat. She straddled him and pinned his arms. It was
impossible to tell whether her expression represented outrage or some
kind of manic joy. "Are you telling me it worked?" she yelled. "We're back?"
He was choking
back tears. "Did it work? Did it work, Caroline? Sure, it undid the
Change, it undid the Night of Miracles, and it also erased every trace
of about ten thousand years of civilization and dumped us here naked and
alone without even a fish hook. Let's not even talk about what
happened to the rest of the human population, who didn't get caught up
in whatever automatic process it set up to do this. Let's not..."
He dissolved
into sobs. Caroline let him cry a little, then let go of his arms and
lay on top of him. Perhaps responding to some primitive instinct, he
hugged her. She let him. It was one thing, she reflected, for her to
face this situation; she'd spent hundreds of years deliberately
engineering far worse tests for herself. But for Lawrence, who had sunk
into a fearful conservatism, it was shattering.
"I killed them all," Lawrence finally sobbed. "How could I...if only I had never lived, none of this..."
Caroline grabbed
his hair (quite long) and gave a firm yank. "Stop right there," she
commanded. "Get it out of your system if you have to, Lawrence. You
fucked up. You will find me the first to accuse you of that. But we
are here and we are alive and we are damn well going to stay that way.
And you are not going to beat yourself up over this. If it hadn't been
you, it would have been somebody else."
"It was my idea," he sniffled. "Nobody else was even close to duplicating my work."
Caroline shook
her head. "That doesn't matter. You didn't create Prime Intellect
alone, Lawrence; our culture did. Look around. Do you think you'll be
building any self-aware computers here? You had a lot of encouragement
and a lot of help, and all you did was provide what everyone thought
they wanted. If it hadn't been Prime Intellect then it would have been
something else, maybe hundreds or thousands of years later, but it's all
the same. A dead end."
He tried to get
up but she held him down. He was stronger, but she had the skills. She
felt him getting hard, probably from his fear reaction and the
closeness of her body. "You must hate me," he finally sighed.
In answer she
shifted, and impaled herself on his cock. He gasped as he felt her
envelope him, taken completely by surprise. "Does this feel like hate,
Lawrence?" she asked as she began humping. Then they said no more until
the ancient rhythm had spent itself, in a surprisingly long and
pleasant interlude. Lawrence in particular was overwhelmed by the
feelings, since he had spent most of his life at a biological age of
forty-seven and thus had hardly any memory of what adolescent hormone
levels did to a person.
Afterward
Caroline rolled off of him but lay close enough to touch as they
recovered. Lawrence broke the silence. "Why did you do that?" he
asked.
"Because it was the right thing to do."
"Why?"
She sat up. "Call it instinct. Look, we need to start a fire before it gets dark. Let's collect some kindling."
"How are we going to start a fire?"
She smiled. "Lawrence, I've been dropped naked into strange territory more times than I can count, and you would be amazed at how good I am at surviving. Or have you forgotten how your own little Task Challenge started?"
He sat up. "You mean you really think you can deal with this?"
Caroline
laughed. "If I was alone, and if I was handcuffed, and if there were
six or seven guys chasing me with night-vision scopes and rifles, then I
might be a little worried. But really only if they had a helicopter
too."
Lawrence found
it almost discouraging to see how smoothly and effortlessly Caroline
worked. She led him to a good source of fuel and set him to gathering
what he could while she picked and prepared a campsite. She arranged
the kindling and used her rock to sharpen a stick, which she set into a
knot in one of the fuel logs and twirled rapidly between her hands.
Friction gradually heated the stick, until the barest ember glowed at
its tip; then she carefully fanned this and transferred it to the
kindling, which was soon blazing. The whole process took less than an
hour, but he doubted if he would be able to do it himself with all the
time in the world.
"That was
half-assed," Caroline confessed as they fed the fire. "You really need
calluses to do that, but I'm not going to bother developing them. Once
we kill something and get some sinew, I'll make a fire bow."
"Kill something?"
"A project for
tomorrow. Meanwhile, there's plenty we can eat." With the fire
well-started and plenty of sunlight remaining, they went gathering.
Although a lot of the things Caroline pointed out were pretty
unappetizing, Lawrence had to admit that she was right when she said
damn near the entire forest was edible. Since as yet they had nothing
to put their collections in, they tasted and ate as they walked,
sampling dozens of different greens and nuts and berries and, in
Caroline's case, not a few insects. She also pointed out some of the
inedibles, so he'd be able to recognize them.
The night sky
was so dazzling that Lawrence thought he might never go to sleep. He
kept Caroline up for hours asking the names of constellations and stars,
and how to read the important messages they held. In the night they
heard wolves howling, and Caroline had to spend some time convincing
Lawrence predators were unlikely to take an interest in them. Finally
she simply took his mind off the problem by seducing him again, and
after fucking they drifted off to sleep snuggled together on the grass
beside their fire.
Days passed.
Because the
weather was temperate Caroline gave clothing and shelter a low priority.
They drifted away from ChipTec in search of water, which Caroline
insisted they would need for a variety of purposes other than drinking.
They found a stream on their third day, and then Caroline finally went
hunting. Her skills in that regard were downright scary; she had
spotted two rabbits and beaned them with that simplest of all weapons, a
rock hurled with deadly accuracy. There were also fish in the stream,
and Caroline had fashioned a spear to catch them. She had shown him the
trick of weaving thread from the fibers of certain plants, and set him
to work making fishing lines. She also used some of the thread to sew,
using a needle made from a shard of bone.
Lawrence was
disappointed to hear that loincloths would have to wait, though; it was
more important to make pouches for holding and carrying things,
particularly liquids. He was surprised to hear that water could be
boiled over fire in such a rawhide bag. Caroline hadn't even gotten
around to making a knife yet, and their situation had become pretty
comfortable.
He had learned
what kind of firewood to gather, several ways to catch fish, and how to
gut and cook a small animal. Their next major project would be to kill a
large animal such as a deer, not so much for the meat (though they
would certainly preserve and eat it) as for the hide, from which they
could make serviceable moccasins and cover a small lean-to. It had
already rained on them once, not hard, and they had simply taken it as
an opportunity to try the pleasant experiment of screwing in the rain.
But eventually they would face a real storm, or at the very least winter
would arrive, and Caroline was carefully getting them ready to face
those challenges.
After only a
week their activities had assumed a comfortable rhythm. Lawrence was
content to let Caroline run the show, doing as he was told and learning
what he could of her vast knowledge. She was recreating the entire
surprisingly intricate technology of the stone age, one step at a time.
It was surprising how many things one took for granted until one had to
make them from scratch. The value of a needle and a few meters of
thread, for example, had taken on a significance Lawrence would have
found incomprehensible for most of his life.
Lawrence watched
her work in the firelight, carefully shaping the tip of a fish spear
into a barbed wooden hook. No matter what she did her hands moved with
precision borne of long practice. Had she not been thrown with him into
this empty world, he doubted if he would have lived more than a few
days. But already she had taken him from the depths of despair to a
kind of contentment he had never even realized was possible. She had
shared with him her knowledge, her confidence, and her body, and in
return he had only offered his tentative self-pity. But now he was
learning a new emotion, one he could not honestly say he had ever
experienced before. He was falling in love.
Falling.
He had once before felt something like this, but it had been a
poisoned, narcissistic love, a love he had thought was for Prime
Intellect but which had really been for his own sense of accomplishment.
Lawrence had not fallen in love with Prime Intellect; he had
guided himself gently and reliably into that state on the cushion of his
own skill. Lawrence was falling in love with Caroline, though. She
was temperamental, strong, unpredictable, and in many ways dangerous.
He never knew from one moment to another what she would do. He had no
control over her; was, in fact, at her mercy for his very survival. And
yet he loved her, and this reckless out-of-control love was an entirely
new thing to him.
Caroline caught his eyes and perhaps noticed the strange light there. "Penny for your thoughts?" she teased.
"You mean a copper penny?"
She laughed, a beautiful sound. "I guess not."
"I was just wondering if there's anything you aren't good at."
"I'm not much of
a computer programmer," she laughed, then sighed when she saw his hurt
expression. "I didn't mean it that way. I'm sorry."
"No, I guess I'll get over it."
"Actually there is something."
"What?"
"I've never tattooed myself."
Lawrence felt something cold seep through his system. "I thought all that was behind you."
She looked at
him and saw what was in his eyes -- was it fear or concern? She put the
spear aside and drew beside him. "Some of it is behind me. No more
Death stunts. This can be a good life, Lawrence, and I want it to go on
as long as possible. So don't worry about that.
"But I always
had this fantasy. It went, if somehow Prime Intellect would disappear
and everything would go back the way it was before, then I'd settle down
and be like I was before. I've been doing a lot of thinking, and I've
realized I'm never going to be like I was before.
"I'm not a shy
little grandma any more. I've become a daredevil. Getting tattooed
hurts like hell and getting a big one takes damn near forever when you
use primitive tools, but I've worn them for so long it doesn't feel
right not to have any. When I look down at my body I feel like
something is missing."
She paused,
chasing another thought. "You know, we could probably settle right here
and live long, comfortable, boring lives, but I've decided I don't want
to do that. When we get our shit together, which won't take more than a
couple of months, I intend to provision us and go somewhere. I've been
thinking of Arkansas."
"Arkansas!"
"I can't go back to being the person I was, but I can go home."
"But that's got to be a thousand miles from here! We have no maps, there's a desert..."
"Exactly. It will be a wonderful challenge."
"A challenge? We could be killed!"
She shrugged.
"Perhaps. Probably not. I'm very good at this sort of thing, Lawrence.
But yes, there would be risk. It would be work. But that's the
point; it would be something to do. I've been through this
before, Lawrence. Without something to do, life will get stale. And I
didn't go through all the shit I've gone through to be bored."
Caroline's
intensity startled him. This was the Caroline he had known in
Cyberspace, who had paddled around an entire planet simply to make a
point. Lawrence could not find the words to argue with her, so he just
said "I guess you have a point there."
She snuggled up
to him. "I need parameters, Lawrence. I need to be channeled. I'm
very happy right now, because there are no choices. The road leads in
only one direction. I'm afraid that when we get to the choices, when
the roads diverge, I'll lose this focus. And it's been so long...I
don't want to lose it."
"You've lost me, Caroline. I don't understand what you're talking about."
"Don't worry
about it." She kissed him, and they hugged tighter, and they spoke
another language with their bodies as the fire crackled.
THE FALL + 2 YEARS
The Spring thaw
had begun; soon it would be time to try crossing the first great natural
barrier they would face, the Rocky Mountains.
They had
migrated far north of Silicon Valley, perhaps as far as Oregon, in the
hopes of avoiding other barriers like the Grand Canyon and the great
southwestern desert. Their hope was to cross the mountains and set up
camp for the winter in the eastern foothills, then move leisurely across
the plains until they entered Arkansas through the Ozark Mountains.
Since neither of them remembered much detailed real-world geography, all
their plans were tentative.
Lawrence sat by
the edge of Caroline's chosen campsite and watched her set up. He had
long since learned to make a rudimentary camp, but Caroline preferred to
do the work herself. Meanwhile, he went through his bone needles and
bags of pigment, preparing to do for Caroline the one thing she had to
depend on him for.
She had decided
that her motif for this lifetime would be birds, and the first bird she
would wear would be a phoenix. Its outline was nearly complete, a black
tracing colored with soot collected from smoky fires. The fierce bird
reached for the sky, its upturned beak just grazing her neck and its
wingtips grazing her shoulders. In outline it resembled a bird of prey,
but when Lawrence began to color it in he planned to use bright hues
more remniscent of songbirds. The flames of its rebirth exploded from
the base of her spine, dim outlines waiting for him to find a better
grade of red pigment. The clays he had tried so far had not been bright
enough in the small test lines he'd done.
Lawrence
privately thought the tattooing was nuts, but he would never tell
Caroline that; she could probably tell how he felt, anyway. In any case
he took his work very seriously, because what he was doing would become
a permanent part, not just of a person, but of Caroline. And
while he thought she was crazy in many ways, he also loved her dearly.
If she wanted tattoos, he would give her tattoos. And they would be
perfect; he would accept nothing less.
The time and
effort required to create such a large design were simply amazing. They
would make camp and spend hours with the needle, Caroline stoically
enduring its jabs, and the result would be a few centimeters of black
tracing or a tiny patch of color. But the ritual of marking her seemed
to awaken a deep passion in Caroline, and evenings that began with the
needle nearly always ended with their most intense sex.
"I'm ready," she announced. "Are you?"
He nodded. She
had spread out a deer hide beside the fire; now she lay on her stomach
so he could work on her back. Lawrence had begun to color in the
phoenix's wing tips; he was working down her back symmetrically, so the
incomplete design would be as attractive as possible. Although Caroline
was silent while he worked, he could feel her flinch each time he
jabbed her with the needle. Although they both invested the time,
Caroline was the one who went through the pain.
And her reward,
Lawrence mused, would be a design over which she had no control, whose
appearance she was trusting totally to him, and which she would take
with her to the grave. She might never even get to see it, unless some
fortuitous circumstance arranged two mirror-like surfaces properly.
Anyone could see their face reflected in a pool of water, but getting a
look at your own back was a real challenge in a world without glass or
metal.
"That's enough
for tonight. I want to get a look at it in better light before I do any
more." He put the needle in the pigment bag and put it with the others
as Caroline turned over. Lawrence was a cautious tattooist, always
conscious of the fact that he couldn't undo what he was doing. But
there was nothing cautious about their fucking after the needles were
put up.
Later still he
pressed his ear to Caroline's belly, listening for the second heartbeat.
He couldn't hear it yet, though Caroline assured him it was there.
"Do you think the tattoo work is good for the baby?" he asked.
"You're not tattooing the baby," she said. "If it makes me feel joy, then why shouldn't it be good for her?"
"How do you know it's a her?"
Caroline laughed. "Before I was a dried-up old crone I had enough children to know what it feels like, Lawrence. It's a girl."
That settled it
in Lawrence's mind: He'd seen enough of Caroline's knowledge to know
that you never bet against her. But he was still a little surprised
when the baby came, and it really was a girl. By that time they had
crossed the mountains, and had taken temporary shelter in the mouth of a
"cave" that was really the ruin of an old mine.
Caroline knelt
by their fire and waited, so that gravity would help her baby come. As
the birth unfolded, Lawrence felt for the first time how crushingly
alone they were. If anything went wrong, there was very little he could
do about it. He felt a brief panic, wondering what he would do if by
some catastrophe she died in childbirth.
But nothing went
wrong, the baby dropped into Lawrence's waiting hands after only a few
hours of labor, and both she and Caroline emerged from the experience
healthy. Lawrence figured that Caroline's general high state of health
had a lot to do with that; she had not let her pregnancy slow them down
until it was time to actually settle in for the birth itself.
As Caroline
nursed and recovered, Lawrence explored the mine for a short distance,
and found a small yellow pebble that amazingly turned out to be
malleable. It was the first metal they had encountered. They
speculated that perhaps this speck of gold had survived Prime
Intellect's cleanup because it had been underground.
In any case, it was what inspired Caroline to name their baby girl Nugget.
THE FALL + 4 YEARS
The mountains
had started as a low haze on the horizon, then gradually grown as they
had moved on. Now they were within striking distance, and Lawrence
remembered the adventure of crossing the Rockies, having to rappel down
gorges with homemade rope and climb bare rock faces dozens of meters
high with his bare hands. Doing the same thing with a toddler and a new
baby would not be a pleasant undertaking.
But Caroline
assured him that there would be no such problems. "Those are the
Ozarks," she said. "They're dark, but passable. I was born there, but I
don't want to stop there. I want to go on to the Ouachitas."
The new baby, a
boy, had been born during their approach to the northern Ozark range,
across the long-fallow fields of what had once been Kansas and Missouri.
Because they could see the mountains when he came, Caroline named him
Ozark. Nugget was not yet old enough to walk, so they carried both
babies on cradleboards, a trick Caroline had learned in her studies of
actual Native Americans.
Her tattoo
phoenix was complete, but Caroline had gone on to ask for a swallow on
her thigh. Lawrence was convinced that she wouldn't stop until her body
was completely covered, but it would take them many more years to
accomplish that. Because the skin was more sensitive, it hurt more when
he jabbed her now. At times she had to bite down on a piece of leather
to keep from yelling.
But she always insisted that he keep working.
"Did it take this long for your friend in Cyberspace to tattoo you?" he asked as he worked.
"Fred used a knife. It's faster but less exact. And we didn't have to do anything else."
Rub, jab, jab.
Rub, jab, jab. Wipe, test, fill in where it didn't take. Caroline
nursed Nugget for awhile as he worked. Then she let the baby watch,
becoming hypnotized by the repetitive activity and finally falling
asleep.
"Don't you sometimes wish you had him here to do this instead of me?"
To his surprise
Caroline laughed. "What a thought! If I'd woken up here and found Fred
under that tree ... or Palmer ... you know what I'd have done?"
"No idea."
"I'd have killed them before they got the bright idea to kill me."
Lawrence looked up, startled.
"They weren't
very nice people in real life, Lawrence. I was real close to Fred, but
only because it was Cyberspace. There it was nothing but a sick game,
and my friends were the people sick enough to make it interesting. But
here ... it isn't a game. What I called love back there and what I call
love here have nothing to do with one another."
"What do you call love here?"
"Lie back and
find out," she teased. As Caroline rode him he looked to the side and
saw Nugget watching them, and then he closed his eyes and let himself
become lost in the feelings.
THE FALL + 14 YEARS
"It won't be long now, Lawrence."
It was the only argument they had ever had. But it had gone on for years.
They had long
since made their home on the ridge separating West Mountain and Music
Mountain. It had been tempting to settle on Hot Springs Mountain
itself, nearer to the springs, but some instinct had told them that it
wouldn't be proper to live on such a unique spot. Besides, the ridge
offered a number of different nearby micro-climates supporting a wide
variety of gatherable plants and game.
Within the
vacuum that was once the town itself, besides the negative impressions
of long-disappeared buildings, a public fountain had survived, because
it had been made almost entirely of cut stone. The mortar had gone but
the stones remained in their original positions. It was not hard to
plug the gaps with wooden shims, which would expand to make a
water-tight seal when water was added, and to dig a channel guiding the
spring's runoff back onto the splash plate so that it could fill the
basin. The spring had a chance to cool some as it ran down the
mountain, so that the water temperature was suitable for a hot bath;
even in the coldest part of winter, the water emerging directly from
spring heads was hot enough to scald.
The man-made
lakes which once surrounded the town had disappeared with still obvious
violence, apparently when the dams restraining them had simply ceased to
exist. Floodwaters had cut deep gulleys in the valley lowlands, making
them treacherous. Occasionally they found arrowheads, which Caroline
quietly buried; she had not introduced the bow and arrow to her family,
and did not intend to. There were also a couple of Civil War era
fortifications, complete with descriptive signage engraved in stone.
Whenever she passed one of these, Caroline made sure to take a few
swings at the sign with the heaviest available rock; she wanted them
obliterated before her children learned to read.
She, of course,
would never teach them such a ridiculous thing, but Lawrence was
obstinate on the point and Caroline didn't think it would do any harm.
It would be forgotten in a few generations, since it served no purpose
in their primitive lifestyle.
To celebrate
their arrival, Caroline had Lawrence work the gold nugget into a short
wire. She used it to pierce her nose, and then bent it into a simple
ring. After a while, Lawrence even got used to her wearing it all the
time.
Nugget and Ozark
roamed freely, together and alone, sometimes miles from home. From one
of these expeditions Nugget returned with an improbable prize, a tiny
ice-clear stone which caught the sunlight and reflected it in brilliant
flashes. It was a faceted diamond. Caroline told her daughter only
that it was exceedingly rare, letting her think it was somehow related
to the natural quartz crystals which were all over the place.
In warm weather
Nugget sometimes wore a loincloth, in Lawrence's fashion, and sometimes
went nude like her mother. Ozark had adopted Lawrence's more modest
habits. The younger children, male and female, went nude unless the
weather required otherwise; Caroline refused to force them into modesty,
and they had demonstrated little inclination in that direction. All of
the children had seen them having sex; Caroline insisted that they make
no effort to hide it. Fortunately, the kids seemed to accept their
explanation that they were "playing an old peoples' game."
Except that Nugget would soon be ready to play it, too.
"I can feel it.
In a month or two, she'll be a woman. I haven't hidden it from her,
you know; I've shown her my own period, and she knows what it's for."
"Of course, you never hide anything from the kids, except technology."
"How else would you do it? You want to make them feel bad about themselves so they'll look to stones and metal for comfort?"
"Caroline..."
"You want them to maybe re-invent the wheel, then steam, then..."
"Caroline, stop it."
"You know where it leads."
Lawrence sighed. "She's twelve years old."
"She's going to
be a woman. We've gone at this from every angle. If you think we
should try to start a community, then we have to consider genetic
diversity, breeding years...we have to start as soon as possible, and we
have to get as many combinations as possible off of our limited gene
pool."
"We've gone over this a hundred times."
"But soon you will have to do
it. I want my daughter to have a proper coming of age. You should
also be thinking about Ozark; before long it will be time to do
something for him."
"Do something to him, you mean," Lawrence said sullenly.
"It's the only way, Lawrence."
They had argued
about it for more than six years, but when the time came he found
himself powerless to contradict Caroline's will. Fortunately she had
spoken with Nugget, so his daughter did most of the work for him just as
Caroline had done most of the work all along. She explored his body
with microscopic fascination, especially his cock which she carefully
teased erect. There was little really new for her in all this, since
she had seen him fucking Caroline plenty of times. He wouldn't have
been surprised, either, to learn she had already been experimenting with
Ozark. What was new was that she was fertile, and so was he.
Working slowly,
Nugget completed their incestuous coupling, working her way slowly down
his cock just as Caroline had done that first time in California
fourteen years earlier. But while Nugget moved with her mother's
carefulness and deliberation, she did not possess Caroline's amazing
certitude. And she was so small, like a feather atop him, and her grip
on his cock so tight. Lawrence found himself responding to her despite
his reservations; his body was literally making up its own mind to go
along.
When he came he
yelled out loud. He was quite unprepared for its intensity, as if he
was a participant in some primitive magic ritual which had unleashed a
strange power in him. In a sense, reflecting later, he would suppose
that that was exactly what had happened.
But Nugget's
coming of age ritual wasn't over yet. With a beatific smile, she
brought his tattoo pigments. It was this idea as well as Nugget's age
which had made him fight Caroline so hard. But having already fucked
his daughter he felt it pointless to put up further resistance. Nugget
had already decided she wanted a feather on her shoulder blade, in honor
of her mother's bird tattoos. At least it was a small and simple
design, the work of a single sitting. Lawrence completed it as quickly
as possible.
Having covered
nearly half of Caroline's body by this painstaking method, it was
impossible for Lawrence to miss the difference in their reactions.
Unlike her mother, Nugget did not seem to get excited by the discomfort
of tattooing. If anything, she drifted into a serene kind of calm and
even stopped flinching. As he worked, he realized what the difference
was; for Caroline, tattoos were a gateway to passion, but for Nugget,
they would be the gateway to adulthood.
When he finished
they stood to face each other in silence. Like her mother, Nugget
might not ever see her first tattoo; Caroline still hadn't seen her
phoenix. "I don't know why this was so hard for you, Father, but thank
you for doing it."
He smiled crookedly and touched her shoulder. "You're a woman now, Nugget. You should call me Lawrence."
And from that point on, she did.
THE FALL + 42 YEARS
Death always
cast a solemn mood over the village; Ozark had lost his own second son,
Limerick, to a fall from one of the cliffs on the far side of West
Mountain. In all their lives the funeral pyre atop Hot Springs Mountain
had been built only four times. Besides Limerick there had been two
hunting accidents and a death in childbirth. The pyre was not used for
the various stillbirths and babies that had to be sacrificed because
there was no hope for their survival; these, as Mother Caroline had
taught them, had not ever been human and it was wrong to grieve for them
in the same way. Most of these were simply exposed and taken by
animals.
It was Ozark's
first time to build the pyre. As Eldest Father of the group, the task
had always fallen to Lawrence; but now Ozark was the Eldest Father,
because this pyre was for Lawrence.
Even Limerick's
death had not caused Ozark to feel such crippling sorrow. If it had not
been for the need to do right by Father Lawrence he thought he might
just find a cave and sit until he either starved or saw the vision that
would heal his pain.
Ozark was not
alone. Although the task of readying the pyre was supposed to be
solitary, nearly everyone had turned out to watch him work. They stood
back respectfully, observing the injunction against helping, but also
watching his every movement, watching the limp form atop the wooden
frame, as if Father Lawrence might display his obvious divinity one
final time by rising directly into the sky on his own rather than
waiting to ride the currents of the fire.
Of course
Lawrence and Caroline had never attempted to convince their children
that they were in any way different, but any fool could see that they
were. For one thing, who had been their parents? For another, they
knew things. No matter what problem cropped up, one or the other of
them always knew something to do about it. And half that primal wisdom
was now gone.
Mother Caroline
was the last to arrive, waiting quite properly until all preparations
were complete. She nodded, and Ozark prepared the flame. It was not
proper to use the offspring of a life-giving flame such as the campfire
to light the pyre; Ozark was supposed to light a new flame starting with
the fire bow. It was a skill they all knew, and it took only a few
minutes.
Ozark had done his work well. The pyre went up fast.
The flames
absolved Ozark of his responsibility and he stepped back among the
crowd, where Nugget hugged him. They watched Mother Caroline as the
flames rose. She was standing perfectly still, determined to show her
strength in this painful hour.
But in the
dancing light, they could easily see the tears running down her face.
And as the pyre burned down, she began to simply cry.
None of them had
ever experienced this phenomenon before. It was almost as shocking to
see Mother Caroline showing such a weakness as it was to be facing the
loss of Father Lawrence. As the pyre burned further her grief deepened,
until she sank to her knees and wailed.
Tentatively,
Ozark approached her. She accepted his embrace and cried into his
shoulder, finding if not comfort than at least the assurance that she
was not alone in her grief.
But she was
alone, more alone than any of them could ever know. She had thought
that her nearly six-century reign as Queen of the Death Jockeys and main
consort of Fred the Psycho would have prepared her for nearly anything,
but as black smoke drifted into the darkening Arkansas sky she found
that she had no defences against the blacker pain of her own grief.
THE FALL + 73 YEARS
Nugget had moved
the birch bark pages from hiding place to hiding place during her long
life, selecting the first hollow tree for this purpose when she was only
eight years old. Some of the barks had deteriorated -- even the
amazing birch had its limits -- and she had recopied her notes onto
newer pages to preserve them. Using the gift of writing, which she had
learned from Father Lawrence, she had set about recording her parents'
secrets, looking in her stolen snatches of overheard conversation for
the pattern which would explain where they had come from and what their
purpose had been in coming to this place to raise their family.
Mostly what she
had was words, scraps of language whose meanings were completely unknown
to her. She fingered the bark, remembering the sounds she had heard,
usually whispered quietly in the night when Caroline and Lawrence
thought they were alone. Some had always carried an accusatory tone, as
if they were somehow dirty:
TEKNOLIJEE
WAR
RADIO
TEEVEE
LEKTRISITEE
Others had been
conveyed in warmer, more urgent tones, usually as they discussed some
problem or other that needed solving. Usually these discussions would
end with some relatively simple trick being revealed that diverted the
stream, removed the stain, or whatever was called for, but sometimes the
discussions went on for long hours as various options were discussed,
and these words were more often heard on Lawrence's lips:
TRIGONOMEE TREE
KALKEWLUS
VAPOR POINT
SPESIFIK GRAVITEE
OKSIDISER
Nugget often
wondered what manner of tree the Trigonomee was, and what its useful
properties might be. At least a tree was something she could visualize;
what, on the other hand, was a gravitee, and how was a spesifik
gravitee different from any other kind? Lawrence had never spoken of
any other kind, at least not within earshot of Nugget.
Then there were
the words concerning origins, which were spoken with such loathing or
sorrow that their importance was crystal clear, if not their meanings:
SIBERSPASE
KOMPEWTER
CHANGE
PRIMINTELEKT
Change
was an ordinary enough word, but there was nothing ordinary about the
way her parents said it when they thought they were alone. Sometimes,
when Caroline was very tired, she would talk of the "World Before." She
would never say much about it; someone might say it was a shame they
could not find game without a long and tiring search, or kill a bear
without getting dangerously close to it, and Caroline would mutter that
"that was something for the World Before." Before what? Before the
Change, perhaps?
In any case, she
had to find out soon or never, because Caroline was dying. She had
never quite been the same after Lawrence's death, but she had still been
active, even energetic. She just hadn't taken such a direct role in
the community's activities. She had gradually loosened her grip, to the
point that now there were many youngsters who had never even met her.
Then she had gotten slower and quieter, and lately it had become quite
hard for her to walk up a difficult slope. Nugget wasn't so young
herself; she had already survived Ozark, who had died in his sleep, and
her youngest brother Pilgrim was fading fast. He had some kind of
condition which made his movements painful, and for which Mother
Caroline's wisdom had offered no help.
And now for two days she hadn't eaten.
"I have ripe blackberries," Nugget said as she approached Caroline's shelter. "They will do you good."
Caroline looked
at Nugget, and could see that Nugget suspected. "You know I have no
need of those," she said softly. "My time is coming."
Nugget was surprised how tiny and despairing her voice sounded when she said, "Why?"
Caroline laughed, and coughed a little. "I have to," she said. "It would be wrong to try and fight it."
"Mother, I need to talk to you before you go."
Caroline smiled. "About what, child, your birch tablets?"
Nugget froze, her eyes wide.
"I've known
about those for more than fifty years. They seemed harmless enough, and
your father and I figured that if they were the most you could make of
our indiscretions, then we weren't doing too badly."
"Fifty years," Nugget said numbly.
"Your father was
flattered. I thought we should confront you with them and tell you to
stop, but it would have probably caused more trouble than it was worth.
I'll make you a deal, daughter. Help your old mother to the spring so I
can take a hot bath, and I'll tell you a story. I'll tell you a story
about the World Before."
Tears welled in Nugget's eyes. "Fifty years. You make a fool of me for my entire life, then..."
"You're not a fool, daughter. I'll tell you why we did it."
"If I ... If I ..." Nugget sobbed. "If I help you down, I'm not sure you'll be able to make it back up the path."
"I don't think that will be a problem."
Still weeping, Nugget helped Caroline to her feet and down the first steps to the path to the old fountain.
The hot water slipped around her like a velvet skin, and Caroline tried to slip into the past.
"Daughter, do you have any idea how old I am?"
"I'm counted seventy-one solstices, so you must have seen at least eighty-five."
"I am over seven hundred and seventy years old."
Nugget sobbed louder. "Please, mother, don't tell me lies at a time like this."
"No lies, child.
I lived a hundred and six years in the World Before, and I was dying
then as I am dying now. I didn't know it, but your father was working
as I was dying. He was a great man. There has never been another like
him, but he was not perfect and he made one terrible mistake.
"With the help
of many thousands of other people, your father built a vast and
complicated thing. The word for it is on your tablets; it was called a
computer. That's nothing but a meaningless word to you, and that's all
it needs to be. But of all the artisans who dedicated themselves to the
making of the computer, your father was the most important, because he
was the one that taught it to think. Without the others to help him
Lawrence could not have made the computer, but without Lawrence, the
others could not have made it live; you have to remember that."
"Okay, Mother."
"The computer
could not disobey Lawrence, but he was afraid other people would use it
for bad purposes. So he taught it to answer first to its own
conscience, the conscience he had created for it. Then your father set
it loose, confident that it was capable of doing only good for the
people of the World Before. Even Lawrence himself would not be able to
make it contradict its nature."
She paused, and Nugget prodded her. "What happened?"
"The computer
got a bright idea," Caroline said in a sour voice. "It figured out how
to make people immortal. So it made us immortal."
"Just like that?"
"That was the
least of its powers. It remade the world. There was nothing we
couldn't have for the asking. There was nothing we couldn't do.
Nothing could ever hurt us." She coughed again. "It was fucking
boring."
Their eyes met.
"It was the
worst thing ever. Nothing mattered. Not pain, not accomplishments, not
anything." Caroline touched one of Nugget's tattoos, the small spiral
which Ozark had tattooed above her right breast to celebrate their first
coupling after his Vision Quest, when they were finally both adults.
"After the Change, the World Before became another of the words you
overheard. Cyberspace. In Cyberspace, all you'd have to do is make a
wish and your tattoos would be gone."
Involuntarily, Nugget put her hand over Caroline's, as if to defend the design.
"Or you could
move 'em around. Get new ones -- it didn't take any time, didn't have
to hurt. See? Nothing mattered. I've worn many different sets of
tattoos myself. But these are the ones that matter to me, because these
are the ones I'll die with. That was the least of it, of course. You
could grow a few extra arms, turn yourself into a bat, fly like a bird,
whatever you wanted. But why bother?"
"Mother...What happened then?"
"For almost six hundred years, nothing happened worth mentioning. Then, finally, your father and I killed it."
"How? If it was so powerful, how could you kill it?"
"Your father
built it, remember. He'd never designed it to run the whole world, only
to be a good helper. He knew its weaknesses. So we were able to trick
it, and it broke." She swept her hand. "Somehow we ended up here."
Nugget dipped her hand in the hot water and splashed her face. None of this was what she had expected.
"If you will do something else for me, I'll tell you one more thing."
"What, Mother?"
"Promise me that
you will give the birch barks to the Eldest Father to be burned with
me. Those words belong to the World Before. They may be harmless, but
I'd rather not have your father's only memory be those reminders of his
worst failure."
"What will you tell me for promising this?"
"I'll tell you the computer's name."
She looked down. "I'll burn them, Mother. There's nothing I can hope to learn from them now, anyway."
"It was called Prime Intellect."
Nugget nodded.
"Now if you
value the memory of your father, you will never repeat that or any of
your other words to anybody else. Let them die with me."
"As you wish, Mother."
"Then leave me alone to rest."
Nugget didn't have to ask for how long.
Caroline was too
thin to float in the hot water, so she let her head fall back on the
hard stone fountain wall and looked up at the Sun.
If she could
somehow pull it off again, magically rise from the healing waters as a
young girl and return to her people, she would do it. They needed her.
There were so few of them, and the challenges they faced so great, that
their survival was far from certain. One disease or natural disaster
could wipe them out.
But that's the
way it was with things that mattered; you never got to find out how they
came out, if they were really worth anything. Caroline had done her
part. She had made her decisions and stood her ground. One day
somebody would figure out how to use the fire bow to launch arrows and
how to make them fly true. Then someone would shoot one at his brother.
Caroline had done what she could to put that day as far as possible in
the future.
As a result some
of her children would die, because in order to hunt they would have to
get close to their prey, close enough for their prey to strike back.
This playing God business sure was a pain in the ass, Caroline thought.
No wonder Lawrence had gone a little loopy in Cyberspace.
But he had been a
good man. He had never approved of Caroline's plan for their family,
to act like some kind of snide Prometheus who could have given
them the secrets of metalworking and gunpowder and steam power but who
didn't bother because it was more amusing to make them struggle in
stone-age savagery. Yet he had gone along, because he already knew the
other way didn't work. If this way didn't work either, what would it
mean?
The doubts and
questions circled in her head endlessly, chasing for an answer that
would never come. They were still chasing when she slipped beneath the
trickling waters and found darkness.
* END
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